candyalice designs in wonderland

* warning* I live with suicidal depression, it's never far from my mind , since I'm having a hard time lately I'm going to vent on here a) because not that many people look at my page for what I sell so I might as well and b) no one in my life wants to hear my shit anymore, my husband just wants me to go to therapy, but I'm too scared they will just tell me I'm being a stupid white girl who needs to get over herself, other people have real problems.... my design inspirations and musings ,all things mori, dolly kei, vintage style, tribal fusion belly dance,and gluten free life. Most of what I post is work okay but fair warning my likes are NSFW so beware, I like some kinky sexy stuff.

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Merry #mabon I just finished peeling this bounty of 10 lbs of apples from my grandmother's tree. I am going to try to push to really get my house in order to better honor my grandmother since it's her house I live in and it's the time of the year to think about those who have gone before and still probably help us from beyond. #merrymabon #apples #fallequinox #puppyphotobomb #modernwitch #witchcraft #alltheapplebakedgoods #applecheddarsoup https://www.instagram.com/p/B2xrdlhnIVA/?igshid=i11dxag09ggh

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#latergram #nofilter #summeroutoforder the finished product rainbow tunnel 2.0 :) I used pool noodles ,a box cutter, duct tape and hot glue. The hot glue worked but * because of the nature of the noodles it melted the noodle a bit and it took a while to cool off an set. This tunnel will be used for playing with sphero robots. #sphero #libraryart #library #libraryclub #teachingassistant #rainbowsmakemehappy #rainbow #steam #backtoschool https://www.instagram.com/p/B1_4qQXnLdb/?igshid=b9aufxczwk60

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#latergram #nofilter #summeroutoforder I had made a rainbow tunnel for our sphero obstacle course last school year . It was paper and sagged after one day so I waited for pool noodles to be in stores . I got as many colors as I could , and made rainbow tunnel 2.0 #pictureone #rainbow #schoolart #schoollife #schoollibrary #libraryclub https://www.instagram.com/p/B1_3qjwHJQw/?igshid=1q9cfgo9b0agi

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Willow dog being a cutie pie. #bestie #willow #sleepy #sleepydog #cutedog #dogsofinstagram #rescuedog #puppy #puppersofinstagram https://www.instagram.com/p/B1uopRsH4F8/?igshid=1wye5crxhkqpe

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It's #nationaldogday so here is willow dog being a crazy dog in the creek . She loved running through it , she wasn't super crazy about swimming though when she hit a really deep part but it was a new thing for her. She's my crazy baby I love her so.♡ #puppy #willow #crazyenergy #puppers #puppersofinstagram #dogsofinstagram #mixbreeddog #rescuedog https://www.instagram.com/p/B1pnZyCnhDr/?igshid=clv7vh1len26

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The now traditional anniversary pic. Love you more than anything else my bear bear♡♡♡♡.# 17yearsflewby #lovemybear #love #happyanniversary https://www.instagram.com/p/B1h5dtSHLqu/?igshid=n5dphe7x32ez

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Today is my 10th married anniversary and 17th total . I had a wonderful but undecorated cheesecake for our wedding soooo I decided for this anniversary I was going to make us/me a pretty cake. It's a gluten free Italian cream cake with a buttercream frosting and flowers topped off by some edible sparkle dust to make it shimmer. I am so so pleased with how it came out. Living gluten free means fancy cakes like this are few and far between . Bear and I just had some with tea after our picnic by the creek with willow puppers♡ #happyanniversary #glutenfree #italiancreamcake #buttercream #witcheswhobake #kitchenwitch #bigcake #sogood #yummy #buttercreamflowers https://www.instagram.com/p/B1heLZGHHIT/?igshid=1bcivvzrf99e0

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#latergram from July I haven't felt like sharing in a while but now I've got a backlog of cool shit I've done in the past few weeks of this summer. This summer at the festival I go to I decided I wanted to be a unicorn. It started with a hood and the outfit grew from there. It was amazing and I didn't get to wear it enough so I'll wear it next year too. Thankfully I thought ahead and had my awesome friend @taj.aurora take some really nice pics of the whole outfit before I wore it out into to woods to romp. #candyalicedesigns #handmade #unicornbody #unicorn #unicornlove #velvet #rainbow #romper #hooper #imaunicornbitch #watchmeprance #nofilter #magicalgarden #feelingmymagick https://www.instagram.com/p/B1PT-G8nOBj/?igshid=1v9egoe1biiao

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Merry solstice! ☆ I had a pleasant day today , hooping with friends and casting a sunset ritual. This is right before I went outside to work , burning some sage in my lil cauldron. I burned three bay leaves and a red candle with intentions and such. Feeling very pleased I actually did something on the right day and time #witchcraft #witchcrafting #witch #castingspells #solstice #lithia #sunsetspell #sunenergy #firesign #candlemagick https://www.instagram.com/p/By_0H5BHuaX/?igshid=k66e2bxhx4tl

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It was exactly 40 days since pixy left us , to the day willow arrived here. I started looking before pixy left ,knowing it wasn't going to be easy or fast. I looked & looked and saved &hoped and called on a few dogs but nothing worked . I knew from looking at Herkimer human society facebook page that they had a lot more dogs than we could see listed on line, so on Saturday after not being able to see dogs at steven swan we headed there. We saw so many dogs outside (cuz it was nice out ) and I feel like I broke hearts as we walked around. We met another dog but willow ended up stealing our hearts. She hopped right In that crater in my heart and is doing her best to be a great doggo for us. #sosweet #healingmyheart #willow https://www.instagram.com/p/BwdSxM0g5QO/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=w7w5dfeit9db

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Full moon pastries, these are gluten free kolaches (basically a cheese danish) fussy to make but a good spring treat. #glutenfreefoodporn #glutenfree #glutenfreepastry #handmade #witcheswhobake #kitchenwitch #spring #fullmoon https://www.instagram.com/p/BwdQLm1gS0w/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=8w0zzywse4mp

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#hazlittvineyards makes these amazing wine bags that are super convenient. Although it needed to be renamed, cuz I'm a sad party of one. #cheersitsfriday #winedrunkandsad #ihateeverything #atleastihavewine it's pretty good #blush #wine very chug-able. https://www.instagram.com/p/Bv4shD_AkPF/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1n1i3qi7lxld0

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I'll mourn every sunny day you don't get to see with me , and on cloudy days the sky will weep with me . Missing my pixy poo , my baby love. #pixydog #familar #fairypup #minipin #sunbathing #missingpixy #minpinstagram #mylove #myangel #imlostnow https://www.instagram.com/p/BvkZQkmgqN8/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=18v3vk7vkd3gr

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#latergram from friday, one of the kids that I see everyday gave me these flowers. I m not really sure why , other than we both have been having a hard time and I was supportive to her and I tried to tell her the right things to do for her situation. #missingpixy #pinkcarnations #pinkflowers #lifeisshort #lifeisstrange #library #imissmydog https://www.instagram.com/p/Bvbeitpg0av/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1a7gc2oe8c16w

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Merry ostara☆I hope the spring brings some new furry life in my life. I miss her still ,but I need a friend. I couldn't take being red right now ,so my hair is dark purple( it's actually hard to photograph it's so dark) #glutenfree #glutenfreedessert #glutenfreecreampuffs #MerryOstara #purplehair #violet #candy https://www.instagram.com/p/BvPxk2-AQkg/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1m9lk2nglhy23

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Before I lost my heart ,now it's in this Lil Tin . I put her in one of her favorite window spots before I leave for work . I miss her so much ,her lil dog smell, her soft fur, most of all her happiness to see me up untill the last 6 months. She would greet me like I had been gone months everytime I came home ...now I come home to an empty house that just makes me cry and feel anxious. I carry around her tin with me and I tell her about my day ,since I don't know what else to do when I get home. There is just this black hole inside me now. Also I'm too sad to even think about talking to a new animal yet, all I could say to my parents dog was 'I lost my baby ' on repeat. #grieving #loss #heartbroken #pixy #seniordog #love #minipin #mylove #myangel #imlostnow #imisshertothepointofcramping #myrealitysucks #notdealingwell #fuckcancer #furbaby #sadpicture https://www.instagram.com/p/BvKZ41_AOlp/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ayponlesr603

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You visited me in my dreams for the first time last night. You seemed healthy , whole and happy. I slept with your ashes next to my bed. I miss kissing you on your furry lil head so much my lil angel. Tomorrow will be the one week mark and it's been one of the worst in a long time. I thought I knew what sadness was ,life with out you https://www.instagram.com/p/BvAssH3gvVO/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=upye5svpucg5