JustWantCalm

Calm was here Calm was…

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!NOTICE!

I no longer active here, enjoy whatever is left of me here, I guess.

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Welcome to Calm's unstable zone :P

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Your yandere boyfriend opens the bedroom door only to see you staring at the vase? The picture? Air...? You don't know.

"Hey (name)?"

No response.

He walks closer to you and before he can do anything, you spoke up.

"Do you think I'm good?"

"What are you saying (name)..."

You feel something stinging, on your nose, your eyes, your heart.

He embrace you into a hug, a very very mich tight hug. These are one of those days when you just can't get a hang of yourself. He knows, he remembers, he noted everytime it happened and he always there, every time you need him.

"(name), don't every question yourself that. You worth just as much as you should be. I love you so much (name)... I told you that I'll kill for you, (name)."

You look at him and start crying harder, you want to smile at him, you want to express all the love, all the appreciation to him but all you can do is cry.

"How... H-How happy a per- person can b-be if they ev- ven have s-someone who ca- n care f-for them like th- is."

You let out a sob choke laugh, laughing at yourself for not enjoying the life of having such someone like your boyfriend.

"It's alright... It's alright. You will be fine, here, with me."

"Thank you..."

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vent post.

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Are you there is everything alright?

Yes everything is alright, thank you for checking up on me 💙

Things had been rushing me in life lately and I just don't really have time to write anymore but as I said I might come back to writing in August this year 😖

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https://www.tumblr.com/canihaveacalmtime/765511808290324480/a-mafia-boss-like-him-never-rely-on-anyone-even?source=share

what if the reader got adopted before he did, what will he do towards the readers adopted parents?

On the surface level, he might not be as much of a mind person because he relies on his strength much more but who knows what's going on in that head?

He might either go for the negotiate method and ask your adopted parents to give you up for a large sum of money and if they agree, then he got another business done in peace.

Though, in the other case that they decline his offer and show not so much cooperate, he might choose a method that if you'd to be find out about it one day, you'd fall in disbelief.

First, he'd hire other people to commit some crimes then frame your adopted parents as the ones that are behind it. He would then order his right-hand man to make fake believable proofs, even hire some witnesses if the proofs aren't enough.

If your adopted parents would then to use you to threaten him, he would then make it as if the parents escaped to other countries and he himself can then drag them somewhere like his basement so that he could give them a memorable life lesson :)

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https://www.tumblr.com/canihaveacalmtime/763149254601621504/imagine-yourself-as-the-neglected-youngest?source=share

what will her family do to the maid's or even guards that helped the them those past 2 years? and what if reader is more attached to them compared to her biological parents like they constantly ask for them

lastly what will they do to the person who torture them?

They actually will take your behaviours of asking for the servants pretty seriously and also as a way to protest against their love for you. They won't discipline you but instead fired all the servants that work for you, cutting you from the last bit of comfort that you had.

As for the people responsible for your state and condition back under the dungeon, they...

...vanished, if you know what I mean :)

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[canihaveacalmtime]

i love your works. Can't wait for you to update again <3

I hope you can wait because I take breaks a lot :((( ❤

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! Please read !

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1 | I actually don't do request but if you have an idea that you want me to write, you can ask me in the DMs either on Tumblr or Discord so that I can see if I could make it possible for you (´。＿。｀)

2 | All art posted on here is mine, I said this just in case, you know-

3 | I take breaks a lot (because I also have to draw) and will not always have time to write much due to school also. And my breaks will range very unstable, it can be less than a week, more than a week or weeks to months even o(TヘTo)

4 | I mainly write one-shots and if a one-shot has a second part, I will announce it under the said one-shot post to let y'all know. In case of a multi-part one-shot, I will turn it into a series and have the series attached in my Masterlist

5 | I forgot the reason why this account existed 💀

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Last updated: 6th of Dec, 2024

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I was bored and high (I consumed too much sugar) so I make this silly little thing :P

Happy early Christmas :D

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[canihaveacalmtime]

I beg for a yan bully part 2 if possible

Unfortunately, that's impossible 😭 I usually don't do part 2s unless I confirm it will have one :(

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hello author, first of all I gotta say I love your works, thank you for creating and then publishing them here. Second I wanna say the reason that I sent this ask, is because of this fic of yours

https://www.tumblr.com/canihaveacalmtime/765603811485253632/sitting-on-the-swings-at-the-playground-all-alone?source=share

l found this in the gn reader tag but when I read it it's actually female, and I also saw male reader tag in it. I'm sorry if this sounds rude but can you please fix it? Have a good day / night 🙇‍♂️🙇‍♀️

Oh you asked this right after I fixed it lol but it was not rude in anyway, please don't worry, ty for telling me, it helps a lot 😭♥✨

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Hello, sorry to bother you but I was reading through you master list, and I think you accidentally miss named number 12 on your master which you titled Yandere family x gn child reader, but the reader is referred to a few times as a daughter, and with she/her pronouns. I think you just put gn instead of fem. Sorry to bother you!

Omg tysm for telling me 😭♥

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This is part 2

-> -> -> Part 1

(Quick note: Henry is your last name)

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"Welcome back sir Henry, madam Henry and the young miss!"

You stand in front of a line of servants in front of you, completely out of words. Your parents on the other hand acted as if this is just another normal day at this huge mansion, you felt kind of sad knowing and realising that this could've been your life before if...

{If is just a wish after all} You told yourself.

After you settled down in your new room with new maids, you slowly begin trying to adapt to the new environment while your thoughts still filled with wonderings of if anyone here is going to like you.

You acknowledged that you're a negative person but the environment that you grew up in those 6 years made you now, how can a child grow up becoming normal if their whole child life is all about neglect. You let out a small sigh right before a maid call out for you.

"Young miss, please let us get ready for you for the family gathering."

They look at you with emotionless faces, but you know, those eyes were looking down on you. You don't look that good like your siblings, don't really have good grades or any title in school, or maybe they just don't want another cheap copy of their madam.

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The gathering turned out to be a complete mess.

The parents weren't there when you and your siblings met face to face and they begin saying really mean things about you, talk trash about your appearance, how you look, how lowly you look like and how useless you are to this family.

It was all out of the blue and it felt like something, like your deep hidden negative feelings as they went for an outburst right the moment the two adults' step inside the room.

"You two should just go rot in hell!"

The room went silent for a few seconds before your mother screams at you, "(Y/N)! What do you think you were saying!" and slap you in the face.

Your father was over there, comforting the crying siblings of yours and they acted as if they were the victims here in this room, soon enough, your mother also went over to them, say sweet things to them to sooth them down while you silently retrieved back to your room.

As you standing in front of the mirror in your room, tears falling continuously from your eyes. You didn't cry because of the wound, she did them from time to time anyway, you're crying because of the unfairness you received today and maybe, it's not only just today.

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After that day and for the next 2 years, unfair treatment was not the only thing for you. The servants gossip about you, abuse by your siblings, worst neglect from your parents and the looks from those in your new school.

Your life is so horrible you can't even explain how you're still breathing right now as you can only laugh at your situation with a broken soul. Things escalate quickly aren't they.

You didn't expect much when you first met your father or when you first step foot into this household of a pain, you simply didn't try to expect anything anymore, not like that naive and young you back then before your mother's neglect started when you were 4.

Every day goes by with a palette of black and white, everywhere you go, you can always here their voices inside your head, telling you to end it all, end everything and that's the only way to make their lives better.

Your mother regret giving birth to you, your father regret trying so hard to find you, your siblings regret having their blood as same as you.

You regret trying to give yourself a second chance.

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|The early afternoon sun in the sky up above is stained by an orange hue|

Your mother, while cleaning her and her husband room, come across an old photobook of you. Suddenly, she wonders when was the last time the two of you had a normal conversation.

Upon opening the photobook, she was stunned, realizing the thick photobook that she thought would be filled with your photos turned out to only had not even 10 pictures in it. When the woman snapped back out of her thoughts, she found herself crying, gripping the book in regret and awful emotions.

|And I set eyes on the growing indigo, it's crushing that sunset view|

The head of the family was working in his office when out of nowhere, he sees the report of you from the butler under the files. While reading through the report, his thoughts wondering around, he knew that you were trying to get his attention by doing good in school, even surpass your siblings scores.

But he never cared, he didn't know why.

Honestly, when he was trying to find you and your mother years ago, he only wants to fulfil the role of a father that has a child and doesn't actually care about you. Thinking back, he regrets not giving his love to you, you were just a child and you're not even 10 yet.

"Damn it", he says.

|I kept track of the final light that I pursued|

The siblings open the door to their father office with a complicated expression on their faces. After they saw the presents that you bought for them for their birthdays, the guilt in them finally snapped and they decided that they need to tell their father the truth of what happened that day.

While they were explaining what happened then, the father expressions were even more complicated than them now that he had heard everything from the beginning. He wanted to scream at his own children, give them a lesson, do what a parent should do if their child behaves bad but does that even fix anything?

The damage has already been done, your broken pieces cannot be replaced or glue together anymore.

|My eyes chased it as if I were lamenting|

"Alix..! Alix!"

Dolores burst into the office with a terrified face, looking so desperate as if someone has just died or about to.

She tells the three that you had disappeared and your maids, even the servants, didn't know where you went. Fear soon enters their minds as they quickly call out and order a wide search for you immediately.

Were you kidnapped?

Taken away to who knows where?

Did you went outside and got lost?

Or did you leave on your own?

|Today's bye-bye, that is why|

Cold waves of water hit your small, thin legs as you stare into the who knows how large ocean in front of you, wondering if your body would even be found after this.

{Probably not}, you thought.

As you fall down into the cold water, letting the waves drag you away from the living land, someone in the distant shouted out to you then shout out to others to come for help.

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The beeping sounds of the heart monitor woke you up, slowly, you open your tired eyes only to be greeted with a plain white ceiling and the smell of hospital.

You were flabbergasted, you're alive.

You feel so tired that you just want to sleep again but no matter how many times you try, you can't go back to sleep at all.

You want to cry, cry for the unfairness life had given you for all these years living, want to bawl your eyes out and cry until you cannot cry anymore then fall asleep, but no tears were form.

You wish someone could just wake you up from this utterly horrible nightmare and tell you that you should go home to where your family who loves you are waiting for you to come back to them.

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The day you were let out of the hospital and dragged back to where you always called hell on earth, your family seemed to have changed a lot in your absence as you were told that you were in a coma for 2 weeks.

The doctor said a lot to your parents and siblings about your condition and how horrible your mental health is, they desperately wanted to bring the old you back.

You would get dragged out of bed every day to have breakfast with them and your mother would hand feed you every time, treating you like a baby unlike how she used to treat you. Did you try to speak up? You don't even have the power to do such things, your siblings told you that.

After they decided that you'll be homeschool from now, your father will be the one that accompany you the most throughout the day as you would spend time in his office either do something or not do anything at all under one condition is that you have to sit beside him. At times, when he wants to pat your head, you would follow your instincts and jumped in fear. His heart aches seeing how you reacted.

Then it comes to bedtime when your siblings will be putting you in bed and try to soothe you to sleep but the only time that you'd sleep is went they had left the room.

But no matter how long they've tried, for countless months, your smile never returns, and they couldn't even remember when were the last time you ever form one on your emotionless face.

One day, they caught you attempting to stab yourself with the kitchen knife, you couldn't even react before blacking out, dropping the knife onto the ground.

Now with your limited freedom taken away from you too, you feel even more hopeless than ever before. Their care and love for you feel so suffocated and forced, all of it make you want to throw up and cry for help.

You were kept in your room most of the time and only let outside the halls if your siblings were there with you. Being trapped inside a room with a blocked window begin to drive you insane and you protest with refusing to eat anything they brought you to the point you were forced feed every single meal.

A servant try to help you escape? Killed.

You manage to find another way to off yourself? Security increase.

You managed to escape out of your room? Chained.

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"Please..! Please... let me go, let me out, let me die..!"

You are on the ground, clutching onto your mother's arms, crying and begging her to let you out while the others are trying to calm you down and get you off of her.

Your father swiftly inject you with a substance that quickly send you into deep sleep.

They have no other choice than resolute to these horrible methods. You wanted to leave them and they cannot let you do that, they can't accept the fact that you aren't here with them. They were obsessed with you, wanting you to stay, to be here with them forever, to always rely on them and let them be the only pieces that you need to heal.

They don't care how resisting you are, how angry, how sad, how desperate you are, as long as you are unharmed and alive, everything will be fine.

They do hope that stockholm kicking in you soon though.

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Honestly I did got lost motivation mid way trying to make this second part but I didn't want to make some of you who waited for this to be disappointed so (๑•́ ₃ •̀๑)♥

Also, guess what song I blend in up there lol (hint: I used the english version of this song)

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@bellethesleepypotato

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"Here's your hot cocoa, have a good evening!"

You receive your drink as you bow, thanking the employee and go outside to find a seat. As you sat next to a decorated christmas tree, you look in front of you and see a giant build board printed a familiar face on it.

Should you be proud to know that your memory is very good because you could recognize your highschool bully?

Probably not, haha...

You take a sip of your cocoa, thinking about what had happened in the past between the two of you.

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It's like any other highschool bully story that everyone always read, during your first year, you were picked on by the richest and the most handsome guy in school and he forced you to do his homework everyday for 2 years. Tormenting you in the halls, drag you out whenever his mood isn't it, making you a laughing stock for the whole school.

But why only 2 years? Because everything went upside down for him when the last year started.

His parents had enough of him and brutally cut off his bank account, told him that either he learn how to work hard or he'd never get his hands on his father company. When he thought that his long time friends would still be there to support him through this, they quickly turn their backs on him upon knowing that he has no use left to them.

During the time he was at his worst, you stepped in and offer him a helping hand, telling him that you will help him with everything for this last year and in return, he must comply with your one request and can not decline.

He was wary at first when you suddenly did that but he had no other choices as there was no one else except you that would help him anyways.

And he was not disappointed for trusting you, you supported him through every single thing, improved his grades making him in the top 50 of the school, engaged him in participating in that model contest and also fulfil the role of being a friend that he can rely on.

When the school year end came, it was also time he hear your request. You couldn't remember much about anything other than what you said, you can't remember how the scenery looked like, what the principal was saying on stage, even the look on his face because after you said it, you left immediately.

"Let's never cross paths ever again in this life, that is my request."

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You realized that your cup is now empty just like how the streets are also beginning to be, so you throw the cup into the trash can and walk home.

You wonder back to the times when you were teaching him the subjects, you would sometime catch him staring in an obsessive way at you but you didn't really care back then because your hatred for him was too much but now that you moved on, you wonder why he was staring at you like that.

"He also said something after I left that day but I couldn't hear what it was.." You mumble as you step out of the elevator to your apartment only to be greeted with a door that is not locked at all.

Your movements were hesitant, slowly, you open the door with cautious as you also carefully step inside your home. Right after you had closed the front door, a sudden sting on your neck send you off balance, fall into someone's arms and fainted immediately.

"Come get me at the apartment now." The tall figure said through a bluetooth headphone device on his ears.

Your bully smile down at you with a creepy smile, inhaling your familiar scent as he hug you close and tightly around his arms.

"You can tell me to do anything, give you anything, to die even. Anything but letting you leave."

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After they said those words, my world seemed like crashing down on me in seconds.

I guess I have no other choice but to fulfil a different request from them in the future then.

"I shall have you in my arms when we meet again, love."

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(ayy pov change :D)

[canihaveacalmtime]

You are one of the best Platonic Yandere authors I know, your works are intriguing, introducing the comfort of the feeling of reading, you are very good, continue like this!

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Tysm for the support 🥺♥

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Short thin-boned legs running down the giant castle halls in their last attempt of surviving what's coming after them.

Well, who, I mean.

"(Y/N)~, please don't run from big sis, I mean no harm~"

You heard the tyrant said and knew that she is already so close to you and as you panicking, your eyes spotted a hidden spot behind the throne and you immediately went for it.

"(Y/N), you know that I killed them for you, you wanted this... right? Hahahahah!"

You were shaking like a leaf behind the giant curtains deep in the corner of your hiding spot.

You remembered how you were her only support in your previous life but when she later won the crown and became the new emperor, she murdered you brutally because of an accusation her secret traitors put on you.

But even if they didn't accused you, she would've wiped you out first due to the fact that she didn't like you, the youngest member of the family and her most worrisome competitor.

Though, to you, that crown worth nothing more than its appearance as you only focused on trying to have your big sister attention and love, you wanted to make her know that you support her and you can be someone she can rely on.

Unfortunately, all you received was a horrific death under the hands on the person you cherished the most.

The sound of a sword hitting the wall snapped you back to reality, the reality where it's 2 years before the crowned ceremony and where you're running from the person you now fear the most.

"(Y/N), I'm giving you a chance to come out right now or else, don't let me find you."

You squeeze your sleeves, heart's pounding, trying to make as little sounds as possible as her countdown ends, your right hand gripping on your small sword, preparing for the worst.

But nothing happened, you can't even hear anything anymore. Not even a breathing sound aside from your own and just as you were starting to carefully take a look around where you're hiding, a wave of tiredness suddenly attacked you out of nowhere, making you knocked out on spot.

One of the tyrant's pride skills is to make everyone within her radius go asleep and help her locate them easier. Maybe if you focus on your magic studies more, blocking that skill could've been possible, at least.

"That's what you get for didn't listen to me."

She gently carry you in her arms and her hand soothing your back.

"The ceremony is tomorrow, 2 years sooner, right? I apologize for not letting you participate but I can't risk any chance of you running away."

Aside from you, she was also reincarnated and realized that who she must keep and who she must eliminate, she waste no time on her plan and out of all was to keep you safe, secure and by her side forever.

"I can't lose you again, my only star."

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One of my favourite author... playing sky... yess 😈 yessss 👹👹

Please don't hunt me down 💀

(dm me if u wanna friend in sky 😋)

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Nooo 😭 I can't find the intro post of your mentor reader series anywheree

I- I deleted it I'm so sorry 😭

Couldn't bring myself to even write it properly, that's why I dropped it 😔

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