Calculus from the Heart

I refuse to be consistent with what I post

[demonicseries]

why is this so funny to me

[joshlovesyou]

[salmonballer]

a masterlock? bro you are practically free-use

[fluorescentbrains]

this lab safety training module is sending me

[fluorescentbrains]

I feel like whoever wrote these questions was speaking from experience

[nkogneatho]

telecom service providers in india are getting orders from government to shutdown our internet. they might also mass delete the posts and videos online. i know this is not the content you followed me for but please raise voice for the people in india if you can. if you find any posts about the brutality that the police inflicted upon protesters, people seeking legal or medical attention, people needing donation for sanitary pads, food, water, masks, etc. on twitter or instagram, please share it. it's my humble request. this is our last day. they're applying emergency alerts and new rules from tomorrow but today we are standing here in rain raising our voices and we will continue to do so.

[sickest-saddest-worldliest]

Censorship Tracker: Live list after New Delhi protests

Indian authorities block and restrict online content documenting police violence at Delhi’s Jantar Mantar protests.

[avpdvoidspace]

Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.

And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.

It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.

[savouryduck]

when I was in high school, I overheard two older students talking about a friend of theirs.

One of them said something like, "it doesn't bother me that [Friend] was in residential mental health treatment, I just wish they wouldn't talk about it ALL the time".

The other replied, "Well, that was all of last year for them. So when they say 'when I was in treatment,' it's like when you say 'last year'."

I try to remember that any time someone says something that sounds Shocking to me. sometimes one person's scary special crisis is another person's last year.

[wherethewildcatsare]

If you want to be accepting of mental illness, you need to accept the fact that some people's everyday lives are going to be terrifying to you. That doesn't mean they don't get to talk about it. Stop forcing hurt, isolated people to become even MORE hurt and isolated because you can't fathom toughening up a bit.

[deadgenerations]

I love him he's so fat and happy plopped down w his little booksy

[little-grey-dowitcher]

So many people never learned to live with harmless discomfort at any point in their lives and holy fuck does it show

[little-grey-dowitcher]

“But I wanna know!” You’re gonna have to learn to be ok with not knowing some things, especially when those things involve personal details about strangers that they’re not comfortable sharing.

“But it’s confusing!” If you take the time to educate yourself it’ll no longer be confusing. Otherwise you’re just gonna have to learn to be ok with being confused.

“But it’s weird!” You probably do weird things all the time. Everyone does weird things sometimes. Life goes on.

“But it scares me!” Is it hurting you? No? You’ll be fine. Being scared and being harmed are not always the same thing. Learn to tell the difference and then act accordingly.

“But I want it!” And I want a million dollars. You can’t always get what you want.

[breelandwalker]

Addendum:

"But it makes me uncomfortable!" The world is an uncomfortable place and complete strangers are not required to fix that for you. Learning to endure harmless discomfort is a life skill for existing in public.

"But I don't like it!" There's plenty of things in the world and not all of them are fun or enjoyable or For You. This applies to everyone and we all have to deal with that in a mature fashion.

"But I want to do the thing!" You can't always do what you want. Most people learn this in preschool. Wanting something does not entitle you to be inconsiderate to the people around you.

[tonysopranoproskater69420]

once you notice half of all memes are just a picture of a black person with unrelated text over them you really cannot unsee it

[tonysopranoproskater69420]

this is actually horrific right? we can all agree about that?

I'd never thought I needed to be paranoid about the fact that photos I share on social media might be turned into memes in a discord run by JuicyBigNut but that's what existing in a public space as a black person is like! not to mention the fact that they don't even know who the man in the picture, yet we know who first spread it and no one has beaten that guy to death yet

[carnival-phantasm]

Ant psychological torture youtube

[nerdgul]

He quarentined the ant for only 12 hours to document her behavior for science, gave her a lavish setup to ensure confort and after returned her safely to her colony and then probably cried because this dude loves his ants more than life itself. Never speak bad about my man antscanada again

[carnival-phantasm]

this ant is in therapy

[clownlore]

why is it using the yakuza fight splash screen font

[clownlore]

[captain-price-returns]

the average red state is closer to Sharia Law than Zohran’s NYC

[focsle]

My fav whaling logbook phenomenon is when their keeper opts NOT to use whale stamps and instead hand-draws very ornate whales to indicate when he sees them, but then as time goes on the whales get progressively shittier looking because that’s too much work. I know how it feels to get locked into an artistic bit later regretted, man.

[focsle]

E.g.

[ID: Detailed drawing of a sperm whale with shading, eyes, and a spout]

[ID: Wobblier drawing of a whale with no shading and no detailed features]

[ID: The vague blurry notion of a whale]

[sisterreisaid]

Maybe he kept encountering shittier whales

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[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

doomscrolling tiktok together and I turn to you and ask, "why doesn't your algorithm recommend any videos with Black people?"

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

doomscrolling tumblr and I turn to you and ask, "why don't you reblog anti-racism when it makes you feel uncomfortable?"

[maryellencarter]

I mean, real answer? I don't reblog 99% of the anti-racist posts that cross my dash because they all have this type of guilt-tripping on the end. I thought we agreed ten or fifteen years ago that we're not spreading that shit. I see plenty of posts I would love to reblog if they didn't all end with "but you won't reblog this and that proves you're actually racist" or words to that effect

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

Tears that are driven by white guilt are self-indulgent. When we are mired in guilt, we are narcissistic and ineffective; guilt functions as an excuse for inaction. Further, because we so seldom have authentic and sustained cross-racial relationships, our tears do not feel like solidarity to people of color we have not previously supported. Instead, our tears function as impotent reflexes that don’t lead to constructive action. We need to reflect on when we cry and when we don’t, and why. In other words, what does it take to move us? Since many of us have not learned how racism works and our role in it, our tears may come from shock and distress about what we didn’t know or recognize. For people of color, our tears demonstrate our racial insulation and privilege. I asked the woman of color I refer to in the opening of this chapter if I was missing anything in this list. This is her response: It’s infuriating because of its audacity of disrespect to our experience. You are crying because you are uncomfortable with your feelings when we are barely allowed to have any. You are ashamed or some such thing and cry, but we are not allowed to have any feelings because then we are being difficult. We are supposed to remain stoic and strong because otherwise we become the angry and scary people of color. We are only allowed to have feelings for the sake of your entertainment, as in the presentation of our funerals. And even then, there are expectations of what is allowed for us to express. We are abused daily, beaten, raped, and killed but you are sad and that’s what is important. That’s why it is sooooo hard to take. - White Fragility, Robin DiAngelo

I am asking you to deliberately seek out and engage with Black content creators. I am also asking you to notice when your racial guilt moves you to inaction, regard it as a problem worth solving, and solve it.

[dogstrogen]

white "people" love using moral ocd as a way to openly not give a fuck about black or brown people

[kittyote]

having a canonically male blorbo who you headcanon to be a woman is torture nexus for many reasons but one of them being having to clear your name whenever tagging her in a post about women I MEAN IT WHEN I SAY SHES A WOMAN TO ME I MEAN IT. IM NOT LIKE THESE BITCHES TAGGING SPAMTON

[morganitism]

*swings a pendulum in front of you* oooooh you wanna stop using psycho/psychotic as insults so badly. and psychopath. and sociopath. and antisocial. and homebound. and schizo. and narcissist(ic). and braindead. and mouthbreather. and delusional. and

[grfygrf]

It's occurred to me that the core of pretty much any name-calling is going to be some level of ableism, racism, sexism, etc. so maybe we all would benefit from being more direct in the criticisms we have for people we don't like. Like, say what you actually mean instead of using disabilities as a proxy for the word "bad"

[flareonfloof]

you're not gonna believe the origins of the word "bad"

[givehappychemical]

Maybe a hot take but sometimes it gets to a point where the origins of a word are so far removed that it doesn't really matter anymore. If it's an ancient slur nearly nobody alive today actually uses as a slur, it's not really a slur anymore. Calling a magat a hateful idiot doesn't make you abelist or a bad person. We're not going to change bigots' opinions by being nice to them.

[jingerpi]

I don't even need to caption this

[givehappychemical]

Actually, maybe you're right. I am insulting people with low intelligence by proxy. I guess willfully ignorant is a better term. Sorry about that.

I still don't think being nice to fascists has any value. One of our best tools in fighting them is making having ignorant beliefs socially stigmatising. That way, people will have a harder time being openly bigoted. That doesn't mean we should use words that demean others' inherent ability though to do that.

[jingerpi]

I appreciate the thoughtfulness! I think theres a lot to what you're saying there and its nice to see.

One thing I will add is that in the same way that we're not going to change their opinions by being nice to them, we may not change their opinions by being mean to them either. in some cases both can have impact, but it depends on the context. a lot of people have the views they do because they suit them, even if they're selfish. in these cases its not a simple misunderstand that can be solved with dialogue or by making them feel a certain way, its a battle between actual positions in society, just as wars are (generally) fought over resources, political struggle is fought over class, over who owns property and who gets to have a say in society. if a property owner only wants property owners to be able to vote, thats not an emotional or intellectual failure, its rational self interest, its just rational self interest that opposes the rest of society, and the rest of us need to build power to struggle against those social positions together, to try and make less divided across class and property ownership, but also across race and gender and sex etc. not just by being kind to each other or mean to each other, but by aligning everyones interests, so no one benefits from starving someone else.

in capitalism we treat everything like a competition, but its not. we have food for everyone, and we can just as easily give everyone rights, but some people want to hoard their wealth and control others. not because they're "dumb" or "stupid", but because it rewards people in their position. its not even just the individuals fault, its the systems which incentivize death-game level competition with each other over basic necessities

[jingerpi]

gonna add my tags actually bc i think they're worth thinking about

small note: you're right that being mean to people can sometimes help, its one way to shift their incentives, because people want you to be nice to them and especially if you have social capital “meanness” can entail real exclusion, its a type of force, so there is real power there. In the same way, by being nice to people you can reward them socially for acting in pro-social ways, and that can be just as helpful for building solidarity as being mean to bigots can be.

lastly, not literally everyone who disagrees politically is doing so out of self interest, while most politicians do, a lot of regular people are “capitalists” who own no capital. you can shift those through discussion by drawing on their class incentives and illustrating how xyz policy is in their best interests. this is a big reason why its important to identify peoples real material incentives when speaking with them, it makes you more helpful and can save you a lot of trouble trying to change someones mind when they genuinely have no good reason to listen to you

*“pro social” is another can of worms but i cant dissect that rn lol

[terracotta7]

As if Joanne couldn't get any shittier, she misgendered and insulted a woman who called for support, all because the woman had PCOS/PMOS and "didn't sound feminine enough."

Fuck her.

Your shitty children's series isn't more important than people's lives.