Tomlinson And Shit

I'm here for various reasons . Used to be a 1d/Larry blog. I still love them to pieces.Obsessed with tommo. I post a lot about depression and life shit too. I’m just trying to make it through each day. Pretending to “adult”

[cannotadulttoday]

Am i broken and disturbed ? I wanna go out on saturday night evenn though im broke

[louistoidustouseaburner]

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[dailytomlinson]

High In California - Bonus Track

[cannotadulttoday]

If i wasnt so stupidly loyal, id be a lot farther along than i am now

[cannotadulttoday]

When you and your family invest time / money/ sweat and tears into 2 college diplomas and you are still low income and consistently going into overdraft. And ive been with the same company for 9 years . Pathetic.

[cannotadulttoday]

Theres so many things i want to do

But i feel like i cant

....

Well thats what i wrote as a beginning to a post the last time i was on here. Its obvious my fear is getting the better of me. But its a new week. New decisions. Its valentines day tomorrow. And i have a partner.

I am happy ... or at least i will keep telling myself that .

Just gotta keep riding the waves

[cannotadulttoday]

There is hope , if you invest in yourself and find the right support system. I am doing a lot better . I still have my diagnosis. But things are looking up. Im finding a few white hairs on my hairline . My mother says they mean wisdom. Ill be 34 soon. Ive been struggling for at least 20 years.

[cannotadulttoday]

Is anyone else having trouble with ticketmaster? Im trying to buy tickets to the louis show in may in toronto and its just not working ! I missed louis last tour here and i regret that and i dont wanna miss the next one.. my boyfriend and i are gonna go together for our first concert together. We were supposed to see keith urban last summer but i got sick and had to resell the tickets. We are looking to get lawn seats and that way if any of my friends wanna join they can as well.

[cannotadulttoday]

Better today

Im feelin ok right now

Life with mental illness is challenging

But im not giving up

Just on my way to work

Been at the same company for 8 years

And mostly in the same location for the past 5

My boss is a friend

So thats good

I wanna have a good day

[fearlessonthecoast]

Happiness by Taylor Swift

[endiness]

[cannotadulttoday]

Have you ever done something stupid cuz you were lonely? Like gotten involved with a person who is questionable but you just wanted the company and you didn't really think it through?

[cannotadulttoday]

Put me in the front because I have a lot to say. Sick and tired of being sick and tired. How do I get out of it ? With great difficulty. The first step is self care. I took a shower today. It's not raining. I got 50 bucks transferred to me which I didn't think I would get . Maybe the universe is on my side today. I wanna put some pep in my step. I was not put on this earth to wallow in pain. Things will get better. Things will change. Wanna search for a new support group. Use my dbt skills. Stop being so willful. I am alive and today is another chance to start over. Not everyone has given up on me. I have a job still and a place to live. My body works. I have a lot to offer . Its not over. I will rise

[cannotadulttoday]

I missed you Tumblr . I feel so alone in my pain . I know im not

[itsborderlinebitch]

but she said, “you cannot be my other half. because I am whole, and I will never break for love again.”

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[cannotadulttoday]

Thank you and updates

Thanks for all the likes, reblogs of my recent post (the meme about how I'm not good at taking care of myself but I'm trying... and then I added that I can only chill once I'm drunk, high or eating.) The amount of reblogs and likes mean a lot to me because it means people can relate and that is comforting to me that I am not alone. The person who reblogged it first got the ball rolling so special thanks to that person as well. Right now I'm in Israel. I got a little drunk last night but not too bad. I'm on an organized trip so theres a lot of young people around my age (30ish) and one of them who I am rooming with is a mental health worker. She doesnt drink or smoke and I told her I thought that was really cool and asked her reasoning and she said because it really affected her mental health and she feels better without it. I know my addictions affect my mental health as well. I need to cut back more. I got very drunk twice last week and made some questionable decisions. I would like to keep writing but I'm on a bus to explore a new city in Israel. I am going to go socialize and relax.

[cannotadulttoday]

Oh how I miss these boys...ahem men. Honestly their voices sound so good together and they killed it.

[haleyincarnate]

4/27/2019 (121/?)