joe's poems

just a blog about my thoughts and feelings that i want to let out before it consumes me pen name: joe (for poems)

[cant-fathom-thoughts]

Flow

As the time flows like water,

Fondness develops with each other;

With change as the only constant,

Are we becoming more distant?

[cant-fathom-thoughts]

Candle

Giving a hand to those who need,

For the past years, that's all I did.

Little by little, I became a lost candle,

Whose flame gave warmth to everybody else

But nothing left for myself.

The exhaustion is slowly creeping,

Only a matter of time before I come weeping.

Can't you all hear my cry for help?

To revive the fire, and ease the burning pain I felt.

[cant-fathom-thoughts]

can you love someone

and hate them at the same time?

your heart was won

but now it felt like a crime

can you still feel in love

when your chest is twisting in pain?

you gave it all you have

in the end, you were drained

the answer is yes

you can still be in love

with someone you hate

[cant-fathom-thoughts]

What do you do when no words seemed to be enough for the emotions you're feeling?

[cant-fathom-thoughts]

Relapse

Even if you tell yourself better, Times like this will make you remember All the insecurities you try to fight, All the thoughts that makes your chest tight The pain that you try to cover Making you wish your life was over

Arduous task it is to be positive and happy, Still try to be optimistic when life is crappy Hard it may be to smile and interact, Still talk to people who got your back However it is painful to talk about Just let go all the suppressed feelings in your mouth

No matter how hard life is, You still take everyday’s risk Be proud that you survive a day You still have a lot to say The world is open for second chances So take it slow and ensure your advances

[cant-fathom-thoughts]

MAYBE

Maybe, life’s just really like this. A couple days of happiness before weeks of sadness came.

Maybe, it will always be like this. A lot of friends when you’re joyous, but alone when you’re sorrowful.

Maybe, I will always be like this. Socially awkward, and full of unsaid thoughts, and emotions.

Maybe, I don’t want to be like this. A happy girl once, but just a ball of wrecked emotions now.

[cant-fathom-thoughts]

Insecure

Insecurities are present in every human being. Each one of us is insecure about different things; possibly about our acnes, our body shape, body size, intellect, and many more. Money can also be a source of insecurity, as well.

But how do we fight off these insecurities? How do we healthily cope up with it? Do we even try to cope with it, or we just push it at the back of our brains, hoping it would vanish as you push it deeper, and deeper, every time it resurface?

In my case, it was always the latter. I try to shrug everything away, but when it comes back, it’s worst. Always worst.

How can we really fight off insecurity, if the insults are coming right from your parents’ mouths? Any opinions out there?

[cant-fathom-thoughts]

I stopped writing for the words that came out of me seems like not enough for the feelings that make me suffocate.

[plsforgetmenot]

Me:

Anxiety: prepare

Me: ?? For what

Anxiety: prepare!!!!!!!!!!!

Me: ???????????????

Anxiety: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me: ??!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!!?

[flutternix]

me, watching myself make bad decisions:

[thesoberbitch]

[cant-fathom-thoughts]

Worry

Memories I am trying to forget

Cannot seem to be erased in my head

It came to me like a lightning,

With a sudden flash of memory,

I started to cry in misery

[cant-fathom-thoughts]

People oftenly take you for granted. Your presence and importance, ignored. Your words met the air with no one to hear. Your actions fell on cold shoulders. Until all of you: your body, soul, and mind starts to lose energy, hope and love.

No matter what you do, all of you is gone and tired. No matter who shows you they care, you just ask until when.

Because no matter what people do, they already broke you.

[cant-fathom-thoughts]

Worth

"I won't leave you," he says,

"You see my worth" he adds

You smile at the thought

The happiness those little words brought

A realization dawned,

Breaking the bond

Of your fragile heart

And it was the start,

Of the insecurities and lonelines,

It made you such a mess

"Why are you crying?" He asks,

You smiled and put on your happy mask

He stays because you see his worth

But does he see yours?

[cant-fathom-thoughts]

they say; but

they say grades doesn't define you

but they kept on pressuring you

they say it's okay to be average

but if you have high grades you have some leverage

they say just focus and study hard

but the efforts I exert are not shown in report cards

they say that it is not the base of intelligence

but whenever someone fail you say it's school negligence

they say the results are gonna be worth it

but does it matter if you're feeling like shit?

[cant-fathom-thoughts]

Gentle Ocean

The thoughts flowed slowly

Every ideas are purely

Positive and happy

The calm tidal waves are soundly

I want it to forever stay with me

The bliss emotions were short

But the calming waves are in store

[cant-fathom-thoughts]

Crown

As you bow down to your thoughts,

No matter how many weapons you brought,

Or how many encouraging words you've read,

The crown still slips from your head.

Its heaviness made you stumble,

and made your life a rumble;

But now you can breathe peacefully

without that rock resting on your chest heavily

Letting it slip for a while is good;

Just put it back up when you're in the mood;

And remember: You are a queen

Who never needed a king.