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Haunted

Do you miss me? On cold winter nights when the wind kisses your skin and you find it hard to breath? Do you dream of me? Do you love me? Would you die for me?

Scream for me

I want to hear you scream like I did

I hope I'm etched into your memory like my writing on the walls

I'll crawl under your skin

And whisper regrets in your ear

You won't forget the way my tears tasted

Youll relive the years that you've wasted

Think of me when you look in the mirror

When blood drips from your hands

And the stains cant be washed away

Youll see me in the cracks in your mirror

Cherish the torment as you beg for me

When you wake in the middle of the night you'll imagine me in the corner of your room watching waiting you'll see my smile fade in the darkness as you reach out to grasp it one last time.

You cant let me go

Don't ever let me go

I feel you in the emptiness

Do you miss me? On cold winter nights when the wind kisses your skin and you find it hard to breathe? Do you dream of me? Do you love me? Would you die for me?

I'll beg for you until my knees are bloody

I'll crawl to you until I'm paralyzed

I'll find you in the corridors of my mind

Waiting an eternity for you

Feels like I'm dying

My grip is getting weak

My fingers are trembling

I'll chase you until I run out of breath darling

I'll search for you until my heart stops beating

I'm tearing myself apart pleading

Hoping you'll be the one to make me whole

I'm spiraling

Where are you

The lights growing dim

The tunnel is closing

I'm falling down faster

My arms are outstretched towards you

as a plummet to the bottom

The ground hits hard beneath me and shatters my ribs as the darkness takes me with it

I will suck every essence of her off of your sweet lips, until all you can taste is me.

And all you can think of is how bad she hurts and how fucking good i feel against your skin.

Consume the sweet cure of my revival until every single inch of her wicked poison traced among your innocent skin has vanished.

Just a random unfinished song by me

i dont wanna go on

got me stuck in slow motion

gotta keep moving on

because life aint always shitty

still wonder if you miss me

this liquors got me dizzy

i just wanna run away

deep into the ocean

get rid of the emotion

you can call me crazy

everything is hazy

do you still think im pretty with my clothes on

free fall

baby its a free fall

dont know where im goin

but im surly hopin that

ill see you on the other side

death is such a paradise

please dont run away

run away

baby just shut up and stay

and like smoke follows beauty

i am trapped under your spell

hate seeing that empty room

i drift away and shut the door for good

goodbye for now little angel

find your way past the moon you'll be safe there

its like you never existed

You threw it all away

You fed me lies of how you couldnt stay

and i just want to pretend

its you and i in the end

sinking on my doubt,

floating on my hope

i just cant seem to cope

guess i just wansnt enough

I dont know what you want from me

ive got nothin else to give baby

you drive me fucking crazy

im tired of living days i wont remember. im tired of blending in with society. im tired of being somone who will be forgotten. im tired of nit living up to my gull potential. im tired of relying on medication to just be me.. im tired of not having time to be me. im tired of working amd sleeping im tired of wasting time and making money just to live. im tired of being tired. im tired of not reading or writing or painting. im tired of having no motivation or energy. im tired of being bored. im tired of doing nothing. im tired of seeing my mom and dad for a few hours out of the week. im tired of drinking just to feel alive. im tired of smoking because i cant stop and im tired of feeling so much im tired of being sad im tired of feeling everything. im tired of being sensitive and tired of holding in my emotions because they dont matter and theyre not important and they'll just cause problems over nothing. im tired of my sister hating me and im tired of people dying. im tired of hearing my mom talk abojt meth and tired of seeing her drink her life away. im tired of people being so negative and im tired of my brain playong tricks on me. im tired of being confused and scared. im tired of hating the future. im tired of working im tired of driving. im tired of mean people and im sick of these fucking autumn nights and i hate that shes gone and i hate that you left and i hate that i cant get over things that dont matter to anyone else. im tired of being the only one who puts in effort. im tired of people not appreciating me. im tired of feeling so fucking empty and im tired of writing these sad things. im tired of not being able to write love poetry because im scared of it and im tired of being jealous. im tired of the chest pains and worries that dont make sense. im tired of being lazy.

im tired of.... everything

Are you fucked up enough yet?

How did i get here?

Im ready to release this hatred from my heart

Sweet, sweet revenge :)

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My nature art piece! All the nature I’ve collected over the spring/summer + some crystals and ammonite I already had. The feathers are from my cockatiel! I collect so much nature, I thought I might as well do something pretty with them since they’re mostly just stored away🌿🥀✨🦋 Now I definitely can’t wait for spring and summer! Going to make more of these projects!

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