2025: The Back Three
Here comes trouble. Still here. Still trying to keep it together.
Nine months later and we're still keeping on. Been playing a lot. Been writing some. Has it been good? Some times. Not often enough but it is what it is. We're still going at it.
So where am I?
Survived another surgery, granted it wasn't as intense as years ago but it still put me on quite an edge for the months leading to it and the recovery after. Now it's time to deal with all the body dysmorphia and adjusting to how I look while trying maintaining it. It's more of an OOC issue and less to do with my ingame or roleplay life but it's on my mind a lot.
Depression is just using me as a punching bag lately with my brain and heart trying to put up a fight against it but they're taking a beating. Those days are shifting into weeks now. I had thought losing the weight, having my dream job, and being relatively stable in life would make it all balance out. Ha ha. 2025 said no.
I feel like I'm failing a lot on my creative front too with an overwhelming sense of numbness that is just swallowing me in a maw of indifference.
I hate it.
Circles are closing and the long dark is on the way with Autumn around the corner. I always look forward to the spooky seasons as it usually helps fuel my monster hunting spirit and horror needs. Sadly I'm worried how my real brain is going to cope with it all this year. Everything is on fire and I have no way to help put them out.
Sorry to take it on a downward turn, but figured it as a good time to update the brief blog to put what I'm up to this season and what I hope to do.
Hopes: - write every day - read more - collaborate more - fail less - Helldive less (who am I kidding) - avoid switching MMOs and focus on playing one (and maybe one character...)
Fears: - slipping - relying on 'gardening' - drowning in imposter syndrome - ghosting good friends - losing my 'voice' So if you feel like helping or doing any of these things, shoot me a message and let's put something together. I'm pretty flexible but I do tend to lean more into the roleplay scene via Discord just cause I can do it on my phone without fear of crashes or neglect.
Anyways, normally we'd go for 'Wonderwall' but the joke feels played so I'm gonna try to keep it all 'Under the Pressure'.
THE BLOGS
The majority of these are all based out of the World of Warcraft. It's been my home for over 25 years, I can't get away as much as I might try. We're too entwined and I'm tired of fighting it, so I'm gonna embrace it and be comfortable in it.
Embers of the Order ( @embersoftheorder ) This is my main focus for protagonists for my writing and roleplaying. Can you guess who it involves? I can never get away from that wonderful Witcher inspired group of monster hunters from Kul Tiras, the Order of Embers. I love Drustvar so much and the head canon group I built up are always in the back of my mind when I listen to music or try to come up with something to write. But with the old faces like Eld or Cheryl, gonna try to bring some side characters to the front like Rachel or Beld or non-Ember members who can help like Ganus or Ramses. We'll see what happens but it's kind of nice having a heroic blog that I can store and play with them all.
An Unending Gaze ( @anunendinggaze ) As there is a light side of my roleplaying/writing there has to be a dark side. I've wanted for years to stretch my legs and limits to play more sinister types with a dark agenda or plans, but I guess I'm always more inherit-ably the good guy than a villain. But it doesn't mean I don't dream of firing the death star, forging the ring, or body hopping realities with an obsession for the Old Ones within the vastness of the Void. And I am leaning hard into that last one with Oplisca, my old cultist antagonist to my oldest character who I'm trying to mold into some kind of overarching monster. But I can't just have her as other characters have had their run-ins with so many villains. Alfred Klaudin the murderous zealot, the Fredman a roaming Drust serial killer, Kinowin the misplaced power hungry cultist, or Daesyd the money hungry architect. I'm working on them all and very willing to build more even those that aren't cultists or maniacs, the idea of a Light blinded soldier or a corrupted figure all come to mind. I need to work on it and would love if someone could help me or guide me with this menagerie.
Of Bronze and Sage ( @bronzeandsage ) Went ahead and made new blog for my Horde side life, it has been highly productive. I’ve leaned on a couple of old characters from my multiverse to create a base but I’m happy to report I’ve made up a few new ones to help round it out! Relying on my lack of knowledge to make it as much a journey of discovery as a refresh to playing and roleplaying. So join my orc thief Sevlaz as he learns what it is to be a ward of the Bronze and a champion of The Word. For the Horde.
A Crow Among Sparrows ( @acrowamongsparrows ) I fell in love with the music of the Witcher games and in turn fell in love with the lore that came from it via the books, comics, and to lesser extent the television show. So I had to make up my own kind of head-canon for the Witcher verse with my cast of characters to fill it, but I didn't want to stray from a lot I already built and knew. Enter Eld of Kovir and the other members of this 'Scooby gang'. I recently did a large stint of stories for a writing challenge for them and found I had a lot to say. I would love to keep saying these things and press on with them.
Conduit Dreams ( @conduitdreams ) There is so much rattling in my head in regards to cyberpunk and what I want out of the stories to be told in my world here. I love noir and the idea of a urban future hard boiled stories involving robots, existence, and a smattering of human horror combined with eldritch is just simmering in my brain. I think of a city caught in the middle between two governments where capital gains rules more then moral gains while the people struggle to survive. Midwich and the agents of S.T.O.N. trying to keep the populace safe for human and 'conduit' kind.
With An Emerald Eye ( @withanemeraldeye ) Adventures in the pulp fantasy of swords, sorcery, and adventure. I love old Conan stories or Fafhrd and Gray Mouser tales of swords against devilry, I try to put it into my more higher fantasy stuff in Azeroth when I can but I would love to do more with low/weird fantasy stuff. Give me underground cults, jewel thefts, and brave people facing impossible odds. Plus kick ass art and heavy metal.
These blogs and ideas are not what I am limited to as I have a great interest in post apocalyptic stories or urban fantasy or modern horror. Whatever. I'm open and interested in expanding my horizons as much as a word a document.
