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One thing I’ve seen happens in this fandom- and honestly sometimes in real life discussions about Hudson too- is that people end up flattening all POC experiences into one universal experience.
Race absolutely matters. Racism absolutely exists. But different racial groups are stereotyped in different ways, and those stereotypes can produce completely different social expectations.
For example, I’ve seen people criticize Rachel and Jacob for joking about Hudson being unintelligent because he’s a person of color. If Hudson were Black, I would understand that criticism more, because there is a long history of anti-Black stereotypes portraying Black people as unintelligent. But Hudson is Asian. Asian men are stereotyped in almost the opposite way. They’re often assumed to be intelligent, studious, and academically successful. The stereotype is still racist, but it’s a different stereotype. It doesn’t suddenly become an anti-Asian stereotype just because we’ve replaced “Asian” with the broader category of “POC.”
The same thing happens constantly in fanfiction with Shane.
A lot of writers portray Shane as being afraid to fight because he knows he’ll be judged more harshly than white players. I understand where that idea is coming from, but as a black person I’ve never found it particularly convincing.
If Shane were black, that analysis would make more sense to me. Black men are often stereotyped as aggressive, which means behavior that is considered acceptable from white athletes is often interpreted differently when black ones do it.
But asian men occupy a very different place in the racial imagination. They’re frequently stereotyped as passive, non-threatening, weak, nerdy, emasculated, etc. If racial stereotypes were influencing Shane’s approach to hockey, I could just as easily imagine the opposite dynamic: feeling pressure to prove he’s aggressive enough to belong. Maybe he’s fighting TOO much.
But that doesn’t make sense for Shane. He’s the league’s golden boy. He’s polite, media-friendly, and heavily inspired by Sidney Crosby. He’s a superstar. Fighting is often delegated to players lower on the depth chart whose role is specifically to provide physicality. Star players generally aren’t expected to be enforcers. Teams usually want their elite talent scoring goals, not sitting in the penalty box after dropping the gloves.
So Shane not fighting much doesn’t strike me as evidence of racial pressure. It strikes me as evidence that he’s Shane Hollander.
Crosby is a useful comparison here. For years, people mocked him for not being physical enough (and for talking to the refs too much). They questioned his toughness and masculinity. They called him “Crybaby Crosby” or “Cindy Crosby.” Fans edited photos of him in dresses or makeup. The criticism wasn’t really about hockey. The joke was that he wasn’t a “real man.”
And that’s a white player.
Imagine how much worse those conversations could become if the player in question were Asian.
That’s the kind of racial dynamic I could actually see affecting Shane, not him worrying about people thinking he’s too aggressive, but people questioning whether he’s aggressive ENOUGH.
There’s a good chance that if Shane fought exactly like many white players, he probably still wouldn’t be viewed as tough enough. Meanwhile, if a Black player fought exactly like those same white players, he might be interpreted as more aggressive.
People often criticize Rachel for not doing much racial analysis in the books. But sometimes fandom fills that gap with racial analysis that feels disconnected from both hockey culture and the specific stereotypes that affect different racial groups.
Not every POC experience is interchangeable.
A stereotype that affects Black athletes is not automatically a stereotype that affects Asian athletes. A stereotype that affects Latino athletes is not automatically a stereotype that affects Indigenous athletes.
If we’re going to talk about race- and we should- we have to talk about the actual racial dynamics at play, not just substitute “person of color” for a more specific analysis.
Sometimes no racial analysis is better than bad racial analysis.
How do you deal with writers block? I've been struggling to get anything down for a few months now.
I have a daily wordcount that I make myself hit. right now, it's 2k a day, but when I have less of a workload I find 1k more realistic and manageable.
as for the struggling: first, you have to let yourself write like crap. is the sentence bad? are you talking all stupid? who cares, it's better than nothing, and now you have something you can come back to once your first draft is complete. that last bit is important. don't beautify your writing until you have something roughly complete, otherwise you'll get stuck tweaking the same three sentences for a year.
and secondly: you might be struggling because something about what you think you need to write isn't flowing. maybe you're not interested enough, make you don't know enough, maybe it isn't working, whatever. so instead, find something you do want to write about, and fill that daily word count. this might mean writing the climax of your story before the beginning, or writing several long descriptions of the antagonist's living quarters instead of anything that moves the plot along. that's great! even if you eventually have to throw it out because it doesn't fit anywhere, it's still great! and the more you write, the stronger your muscle memory will get, and the easier it will be.
I also abuse caffeine, but you shouldn't do that part.
At least show us the bison!
The best update.
wholesome and true - do not mess with the wildlife
HAVE THAT CHARACTER GAIN WEIGHT AS A SIGN OF HEALING: NOW
I think the funniest thing Rachel Reid could do in Unrivaled is reveal to us (and more specifically Ilya) that Hayden has been invited to the All star games and other big events the entire time and just quietly pays the fine to not go because he wants to spend those times off with his family instead of competing. But also he’s never told Jackie or Shane this: Jackie because she might feel bad he’s missing out on this big thing, and Shane because the man will MURDER him if he finds out.
i think being able to identify and deconstruct an irrational feeling should make it go away. i literally solved your riddle puzzle master can u let me OUT the damn TORTURE LABYRINTH
always doing something annoying
can I be honest? I was so pissed off by friends and family criticizing my soap choice that, for half a year, I did an experiment where I washed one hand with Palmolive and one with handsoap, to prove that it didn't make your skin any rougher. and do you know what the result is? it does make your skin rougher. and now I'm even more pissed off.
I love this. This is the beauty of the honest scientific process. You had an idea, you tested it and you still reported the results even though the results disproved your idea.
It's ok to be mad at it, you're an honest scientist.
2 genres of fanfiction:
1) put that guy into situations
2) take that guy OUT of situations for the love of GOD let them REST
#you put the sad guy in #you take the sad guy out #you put the sad guy in and you shake him all about
maybe it's silly when my dialect of english isn't minoritised or endangered but it makes me sad when i realise that the way i speak has become americanised and i've lost a lot of the phrases i grew up with in favour of ones i've picked up online. the other day i found myself saying I would "throw [something] out". it would always have been "throw away" in my family. when did i start saying out instead? "i need to throw that out" = I need to throw it away, in the way i learned to speak. talking about laundry and groceries instead of doing the washing, doing the food shop. "i need to do laundry" where my mum would say "i've got to put a wash on". these are the everyday things, but there are a thousand more tiny details, language flattened and homogenised by media and international conversations
and it's not that the international conversations aren't valuable. and my dialect is not anything special or anything endangered. but language variety and dialect variety matters even when it's boring and everyday, i think. i am trying to remember how to speak with my own tongue again
Look whom I found at pride today
people vaguely saying 'the horrors' as shorthand for 'life problems, don't worry about it' in conversations where the problems are not going to be delved into has got to be one of my favorite new Ways Of Speaking that has emerged. like it's polite and vague and succinct enough for impersonal conversation but also extremely honest. it's very funny. The Horrors. we all know of them.
it's very frustrating seeing otherwise well-structured posts about media literacy and critical thinking bookended with statements about "nowadays", "nobody has literacy anymore", "this generation is so anti-intellectual", and the like, unquestioningly falling into better past fallacies.
Do we really think the 80s and its Satanic Panic were better at critical thinking? what about the 40s? the Victorian era? societies have always had problems with critical thinking and literacy, because most societies have dealt with propaganda, corrupt leadership, difficulty providing education (due to poverty or discrimination or other issues), and/or people who resist critical thinking (due to privilege or circumstance or what have you). we can criticize media trends without pulling a "well back in the GOOD OLD DAYS" about it.
one of the funniest conversations I ever had with my ex was when they were still getting used to Celsius and asked me "what's 20 degrees?" and instead of converting it, I said "it's the highest your dad will ever let you set the thermostat and when you say you're cold he tells you to put on another sweater, we're not made of money" and they went "oh, 68"
the fact that this reference was that fucking precise was something they went on to tell people about for years.
Some quick research suggests that only Scots English still uses "gat" as the simple past tense of "to get", with the form surviving in other English dialects only in the archaic "begat" (i.e., the simple past tense of the likewise archaic "to beget"), and I feel like we need to fix that.
Local Man after opening Pandora's Box of Non-Standard English Verb Forms: "He choosed his path, clomb this hill to die on, torned off the chains of prescriptive grammar and drunked from this newfound power; but later he had understanden that he had letten himself grow mad with power, he had shutten the voice of reason advising him against this foolery, he had putten himself on this path of chaos and destruction, setten himself on this one way street, standen on top of a mountain of hubris, forgetten wisdom, and for his trouble had getten only the means of his own downfall" [all of those are attested by the way, this isn't just me making stuff up at random]
The thing you need to understand is that my baseline motivation is causing problems on purpose.
an interest passing feels like being abandoned by the evil spirit that had taken possession of your body
pulling out hanks of grass and sighing listlessly. i kind of miss being posessed. isn't there an evil spirit somewhere that wants to possess meeee
obviously dietary requirements aren't a joke but my grandma sometimes runs errands for her church and i asked her what she's up to today and she said extremely seriously "ive got to track down the body of the gluten free christ, julia"
this totally scans for a swear intensifier btw. what in the gluten free christ is going on here, Julia