Caroline Liveblogs Depression

Hi, I'm Caroline. This blog is a specific place meant to be a place for me to discuss my issues involving living with depression. It is not my intention to support self destructive behaviors or foster depression in other people - sometimes I just need to talk.

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Kinda wish I had died after I lost Bear.

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Vulnerability? I don’t know her.

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This shit makes me want to Jill myself.

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Moving out on my own might have been the wrong choice, but, I feel like - if it is, I’ll go out with a little more dignity.  Lower the rent for the next person who comes along, hopefully.

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I wish I was pretty.

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Should be happy and excited, but I wish I was dead.

[lavenderfables]

The 10th Kingdom (2000)

[filmnoirsbian]

oh u got the metnal illnes?

[heronb]

ok not to be adhd on main but if you even JOKINGLY make fun of me for my interests thats it. i wont ever be able to trust you again because im positive youre constantly judging me and making fun of me behind my back. thats just the way it is!!

[heronb]

to all the people vaguing people in the tags: get better friends

[heronb]

it ABSOLUTELY is, adhd and autistic experiences overlap so so much and i have both so this post is solidarity

[quinintheclouds]

If I may add, as an ADHD person if you insult (even jokingly) something I enjoy, I will no longer enjoy that thing as much. Every time I watch that show you called cringe I remember that you did that. You said the writing was unfunny, so now I don’t laugh at the jokes as much, even alone, and I feel like I shouldn’t enjoy it anymore if it’s bad. (And then I also believe you think I’m unfunny and my sense of humor is just bad) So I have to rationalize “Ok I know this part is awkward but I like it a little sometimes” in my head to justify my enjoyment, and that just makes the whole experience less fun. I’ll never express strong interest in something around you again. 

Sharing hyperfixations is a VULNERABLE act of trust, and if it goes badly, we just go right back to being ashamed of being happy.

[thatsmycigarbutyoucanborrowit-d]

WAIT SO THIS ISNT NORMAL??????????? I THOUGH EVERYONE HAD THAT.

[andwhatexcellentboiledpotatoes]

I made this for myself because i deserve it, but you are welcome to use it for yourself.

[filmnoirsbian]

oh u got the metnal illnes?

[allthesepurplelights]

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Bought the same PJ set as a model I like.  Finally trying them on.  I look awful.  Figures.

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If only one of us can get lucky, I choose her.

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This is so stupid.  She’s the one that’s going to die, and she’s the one calming me down.

[thisbitchtraumatizedyeet]

do any of yall know any good trauma-related songs, or just general good songs for breakdowns? 

ik this is a strange request but im genuinely looking for some, they can be any genre! just comment or reblog if you think of any <3

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I used to really jam to Runs In The Family by Amanda Palmer.  Glittering Cloud (Imogen Heap) is also another one of mine.

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I don’t know what kind of dumbass thinks ‘the best thing for my socially inept child would be to move two hours away from any form of love and support she has, into an environment where she has no connections and knows no one’, but it sounds like I’ll be dead by thirty no matter how you look at it.