Hyunju's Wife

[heymamona]

please reblog this if it is okay to anonymously confess something to you.

[carson404]

Sapphire Spider

A spider-woman Hyun-ju au

written in her pov

I do not own any characters In Squid Game or Across the Spider verse nor do I own Squid Game or Across the Spider verse this is a work of fanfiction

Chapter 1:Welcome to this shit show which is my life!

I'm in my apartment quickly taking off the spider-suit and redressing in a hurry, I'm about to be late to picking Hae-yun up from daycare.

I grab my keys and phone, slide on my shoes no time to tie the laces and I rush out the door pushing Neukdae and Zuzu back as they try to follow me out, sliding down the rail of the stairs and out the doors and down the side walk, times like these make me so glad I choose a daycare only that's only around the corner- my thought is cut off as a trip over my shoelaces, people are staring now "I'm fine" I mutter in broken Thai, stumbling back to my feet rushing around the corner.

I open the door and step in and sit down on the bench close to the door trying to catch my breath, with the adrenaline from protecting Bangcok from that giant green animatronic beatle and rushing here dying down I realize my leg hurts "You here for this one" a woman with curly brown hair in a pony tail holding Hae-yun says "Yes, thank you"I breathe as a stand up and take her, steadying her on my left hip, attempting to not put weight on my injured leg, I open up my phone case and take money out to pay

Now You're probably totally lost on what's going on so let me catch you up

My name is Cho Hyun-ju, I was born in a small town in Korea, my father had a high rank in the ROK special forces and I followed in his footsteps before being dishonorably discharged for coming out of trans

A year later I accept a game in an attempt to get money for my transition but instead I was thrusting into a hell hole and during a particularly violent game this little girl on my hip was born but her mother died died Jump rope and only the baby and I survived.

I used the money to move to Thailand and while I was rebuilding a bookshelf in my new apartment I was bitten by a radioactive spider

and well I suppose you'll have to keep reading to find out the rest.

[carson404]

Meet my stuffie I named after Hobie

[carson404]

Some more information

About my spider Hyun-ju au

here pets

in my terrible art you the Belgian Malinois Zuzu, she was a rescue from off the streets who Hyun-ju built a bionic limb for because one was missing, she got the dog before the squid games happened and the dog is like linked to her or something and can't die from old age(I don't know ,shut up)

she also has Neukdae who is a male German Shepherd who is blind in one eye and deaf in both ears because of a bomb, he is old and he was Hyun-Ju's military k9 when she was in the special forces

Hyun-ju also has an albino ball python named Calypso who was given to her because the owner just couldn't care for her anymore

[carson404]

Information:

Here's some stuff you need to know for the up coming serious I will writing here on Tumblr called "Sapphire Spider"

okay I am very dulosional about characters I like so please be patient

So Hyun-Ju is Spider-Woman in Bangcok(Thailand)

She was still in the military in the au and she was still dishonorably discharged because she was trans she also has PTSD from her military time and ZuZu(her dog) helps with that

Hyun-ju still went to the squid-games pretty much everyone died(Gyeong-seok still escaped though) and Hyun-ju and the baby survived together(they won)

Hyun-ju Doesn't know Gyeong-seok is alive and Gyeong-seok doesn't know Hyun-ju is alive

Hyun-ju moved to Thailand and protects bang-cok

I'm creating my own villains for this because I can and this isn't New York like in the other Spider verses so I think there should be different villians

Hyun-Ju named the baby Hae-yun

[carson404]

Spider-verse Cho Hyun-Ju

I used an existing art to draw over this!

basically exactly what it sounds like, she's spider-woman!(oh and her best friend is Hobie)

And that's her dog Zuzu who is a female Belgian Malinois

I'm gonna be making a series based off this here on Tumblr

[justatinyjinx]

Okay so I think Jinx could've possibly developed DID from chronic childhood trauma, such as abandonment, violence, guilt over the explosion, and Silco’s manipulative “protection.”

Possible Alters:

Powder (Child Alter): Holds core trauma, guilt, and fear. I think she would appear during nightmares, moments of rejection, when she (as a collective) feels small or helpless, them being her negative triggers. I also think another one of Powder's potential positive triggers would be Isha and her presence, helping bring her to front more.

Jinx (Protector / Persecutor / Host): Being the most visible alter, protects the system by preemptive violence, pushes people away before they can abandon her, she thinks fear = control = safety

Engineer / unnamed alter (A task-oriented alter):

Appears during invention, weapon building, planning, emotionally detached, hyper-focused, survival through usefulness, would often fronts under Silco’s approval.

Mylo & Claggor (Trauma Echoes / Introjects): Not full alters, but dissociative trauma manifestations. Internalized blame = Mylo, Lost safety and approval = Claggor, Intensify during stress, shame, or identity confusion

Switching and Dissociation:

Switching is often covert, not dramatic. Sudden tone shifts, changes in posture or eye focus, memory gaps she masks with jokes / the scribbles during hallucinations, she dissociates heavily during fights and everything becomes funny, unreal, game-like to her

Switching is stress-triggered, especially by the fear of abandonment, feeling replaced, perceived betrayal

I don't think she has the language for DID, she just thinks she’s broken.

Vi’s Influence:

Vi is a system anchor, her presence stabilizes Powder but destabilizes Jinx. Jinx fears if Vi sees Powder, she’ll leave, but if Vi sees Jinx, she’ll hate her (this conflict increases rapid switching during their reunion scenes from my perspective, as well as during the tea party scene)

Silco’s Influence

Silco unknowingly reinforced fragmentation, he loved Jinx conditionally but taught her that strength is good and vulnerability is dangerous. Powder learned to hide and Jinx learned to perform.

[carson404]

I'm just reblogging this so that I can come back to it later to show my friend

[carson404]

Looking for a friend!

i like Squid game and my favorite character is Hyun-ju

but i'm really obsessing over arcane right now and I like Jinx, Ekko, and Isha

i'm 14 so i'd prefer any future friends to be around 13-15 years old

we can only chat through Tumblr messages

i do not tolerate homophobia, transphobia or any hate to any religions, sexualities, races etc

i vent a lot so please don't become my friend if you mentally can't handle that

in turn you can always vent to me

also another thing to note I have a lot of weird of things i'm interested in and I do rant about it all lot and I make headcanons so you have been warned

[carson404]

What breed is your cat?

I have two cats

the female I found on the street as kitten ,all I know is she kinda looks like a Russian Blue

my male cat was born under my shed and is supposedly half bobcat apparently

[carson404]

My cat gave me a piercing!

so

i have been taking care of a kitten because it's gonna be given to someone for their birthday and the giver of the kitten needs somewhere to house it until then

my cat has always been the baby of the family(his names Bobby/Lynx)

i tried to give the kitten a collar but it didn't fit so I put it on Bobby instead and he smelt the kitten and wasn't happy and attacked my face thankfully only putting a piercing in my ear

but it is a hole all the way through

of course I wont put an earring in it because than it'll get infected but maybe one day i'll get a real(professional)piercing done in the same place in honor of him

i have a normal ear lobe piercings and the hole from my cat is not front of it closer to wear my ear and face connect

[carson404]

My mom wants to join either the Mennonites or Amish

thing is ,i'm a minor and have no say in this ,if my parents choose to join I have to with them

but maybe i'll get to own a horse if I join

[carson404]

Me and my cat

also partial face reveal?

Ignore the lighting...it's weird I know but I love this picture

[carson404]

VENT! Juniper(my bunny) died

TRIGGER WARNING!!!!:animal death ,animal being in pain,guilt,nightmares, "dulosional dreams" if you can call it that

so 5 days ago

i was asleep and I heard a crying sound?

i thought my dad accidentally locked Bobby(my cat) in a room before he left for work

eventually the crying got annoying so I went to let him out of the room and realized it wasn't him ,I run into the living run to find Juniper in his cage laying on his side crying(like a squeaking sound)

theres so hazards in his cage and he didn't choke(we checked)

when I found him it scared me ,I couldn't move

i like to swing and daydream and Juniper was buried right beside my swingset

i can't help but think it's my moms fault

Juniper would throw tantrums

when he deamed his bowls not having enough food or water he threw a fit(bouncing off the walls and literally doing flips) the night before it happened I noticed he needed water so I asked my mom if I could give him some

she said no because "he pee's too much"

i think he had a tantrum and hurt his spin and that's what killed him

i'm mad at her

i'm mad at myself especially because he was crying in pain for so long but I stayed asleep because I thought it was my cat being a crybaby like he normally is

like I know that even if I found him like that sooner I couldn't change anything but I don't know

i think i'm traumatized Anytime I hear a noise similiar I go into flight and freeze mode

i have dreams where he's alive and ground up

i have dreams where things could've been different

every morning I go to where his cage was to check on him just to remember that he's not there anymore

this was him btw

it just hurts me that he was a baby

a BABY!!!!

and died painfully

honestly I feel completely numb now

i literally considered him my child

ya'll don't understand how much I live being able to care for for things such as babies and animals

[carson404]

I wanna start posting more but I also don't wanna start posting more

might post a picture of myself if I can gain the confidence

[carson404]

yes!

i'm excited for Ilium

not too mention it'll give me something to look forward to OTHER than getting my first car(so I can not be home as much as possible)and going to collage to get away from my parents

[carson404]

😭

tw! nudity mentioned

I was searching Hijabs on Tumbler because I genuinely thing they're beautiful

anyways I scrolling and I kept seeing NFSW content

such as a woman in a hijab but completely naked

like I was looking at women in hijabs because I really want to wear headscarves(i'm a Hellenic Polytheist) but in the tags it said "Muslim"

that's not Islam

at first I thought they were ai but nope they're not

i of course blocked the accounts but I didn't wanna see that

[nova-rogue]

ik people get so mad but honest to god the hill i'll die on is that if you are not willing to put in the effort to properly take care of and healthily maintain your pet you should not have one.

I KNOW i know they're comfort animals that bring you lots of benefits, no matter the creature, but some of you guys are literally causing so much fucking harm to your pets it's unreal.

cats are not meant to be fat and are rather athletic animals that need much more enrichment and exercise than most people are even remotely willing to provide them with.

birds require a lot of precise care and are not meant to be touched or pet in places people love to pet them.

reptiles and amphibians have really strict environmental needs and get stressed super easily.

fish need way more space than most people are willing to give them.

rodents need more space and better environments to safely thrive in than what most people are willing to give them.

different dog breeds require vastly different care methods and environments for peak health and functionality.

contrary to popular belief you CAN'T just adopt an animal and give them the bare minimum (food, water, litter box) and call it good. you NEED to know how to take care of them. you completely control the trajectory of their health and safety.

people are out here hurting and killing their pets and acting like they have a god-given right to do so.

[carson404]

THANK YOU!

this needs to be said ,a few years ago my mom got me birds and I wasn't really wanting birds and they weren't cared for properly and I knew it and felt guilty because of it but my mom refused to let me give them away but eventually we did

I now have a rabbit that I have had to fight my parents over because they don't know proper rabbit care(big enough cage,no ramps in cage ,fresh vegetables ,plenty of water)

oh and I have a Goldendoodle(we got her before we new the problems with doodles)and she's healthy and has never had problems but I also have a senior dog who is overweight but he's losing weight thankfully and my mom isn't happy about it because she thinks it's bad even though he's clearly more energetic now that he's lighter(he could stand to lose a bit more weight though and when we move to a safer neighborhood he's gonna be taken on long walks everyday(he's old but energetic)

i have too cats ,my one cat Bobby is healthy but my other cat (Fatcat) is kinda fat ,she's not unhealthy though ,she gets plenty of exercise and has a well balanced diet(not fat just a lot of loose skin on her belly)THOUGH I am gonna train her to walk on a harness and leash so that she loose a bit more weight because it'd be good for her

my aunt and cousin recently got me hermit crabs that I don't want but i'm gonna try to give them good lives ,but i'm gonna have to fight my parents again so that they can have a bigger cage(they want to keep them in the plastic ones that you get them in)

i'm too young to move out BUT when I do i'm gonna take my animals that are still alive with me (I say still are alive because some will dead by then because my dogs are older dogs and Rabbits and Hermit crabs don't live too long so my cats will probably be the only ones)

i just hope that my parents don't get any more pets when I leave because they're not good at caring for animals ,i'm gonna try to find a pet-friendly collage to go when i'm gonna go(which wont be soon)because my babies are NOT going to be left here with my parents

ALSO my brother and nephews used to have a rabbit that they kept in a small cage ,never took to the vet ,never groomed it ,didn't put any bedding in the cage,has a ramp WAY to steep in said small cage and just weren't good to it overall

they also have too dogs who have zero training ,their nails aren't clipped and it bad(they can hardly walk)and they're older dog is over weight

oh and my aunt has two dogs who are overweight and her daughter recently got a puppy(which is nice but she's in collage and you really shouldn't be getting new pets at that time in your life)