Sometimes it feels like life is leaving me behind. I am Sisyphus, longing to exist in a world where I don’t have to try to be relevant, be entertaining, be beautiful, only to come up short. I don’t want to pretend to like people or play by their rules. I don’t want to keep fighting iron gates of what should be accessible to all. I want to exist in my true state, a slithering, half-dead husk of broken dreams and lingering trauma, rotting amongst decaying leaves.










