I am made of memories

”When people say impossible, they usually mean improbable.” Leigh Bardugo ~ feminist ~ 24 ~ she/ her

[grantaireble]

Neil "You can never play Exy again" Josten and Jean "Exy is the sole purpose of your existence" Moreau

Neil "I have no choice but to run" Josten and Jean "I have no choice but to stay" Moreau

Neil "I have to be alone" Josten and Jean "Do not leave me alone" Moreau

Neil "~10% of my internal monologue centers around hiding my scars" Josten and Jean "what?" Moreau

Neil "I don't swing" Josten and Jean "the cruelty behind these nonstop temptations" Moreau

Neil "no one can know how fucked up I am" Josten and Jean "everyone keeps saying I'm fucked up?" Moreau

Neil was being chased all his life but Jean had already been caught :/ :/

Foils of all time

[starlonging]

All the things Neil felt were unimportant enough to gloss over in AFTG -

1. Andrew's candy drawer??

2. The fucking cheese drawer

3. Him driving Jean to his own dorm for the final Raven v. Foxes game

4. Poor Jean's breakdown there

5. Neil did not even bother mentioning that Jean wrecked their dorm 💀

6. The RUMOURS about Jean

but no, please let's just swing our feet, gaze at Andrew longingly, notice the way his hazel eyes seem aglow in the sunlight and the sturdiness and broadness of his shoulders and how much he can lift and the gold of his hair and—

(no really please do)

[hekissesme]

Nothing could've prepared me for the man Jeremy is, okay? NOTHING, with his fucking yoyo and his cardboard dog and beginner to ceramics class. Okay. No warning would've worked

[deadliestpieceontheboard]

jeremy is hiding a dead brother, rich controlling parents, family feuds, an exy scandal and something involving cops and his freshman fall banquet. but he rather spend his page time talking about a cardboard dog and how much he loves los angeles architecture.

[starlonging]

I think the most endearing thing about Jean is that he just cares. So fucking much. Not to say that Neil doesn't but Neil had to learn to care and I think it's widely accepted that he cares about a select few people and cares about them fiercely; to the point of kill or be killed.

Jean though? He cares for almost everyone regardless of what they have done to him. He cared for Zane, the man who betrayed him in the most horrifying way for a number, for something Jean had no control over. He cared enough to save his life. He cared for Lucas who brought Jean's abuser right to his gate where he had believed himself to be safe. Not once did he lash out at him because he understood that his actions came from a desperation to know his brother again, the ache of having him near again but not having him at all. He cared for Cody, someone he doesn't even really know; cared enough to ensure they were safe and not being forced into something.

After being beaten down every day, holding on to life out of sheer desperation and perhaps a promise made to a once? friend, Jean still hasn't had his ability to care beaten out of him and it's such a beautiful miracle. He's a little like Andrew in this I think, in that he pretends so desperately to not care under the guise of barbed words and cold shoulders because that's a weakness, a chink in his already dented armour that the monsters can and will exploit with glee. He knows that yet he can't choke that tenderness out of himself.

[ivyinne]

we've all talked about the iconic neil cameo (i will never tire of talking about the iconic neil cameo) but the scraps jean hands us about andrew? warms my heart. the fact that people in the exy world have picked up on how he's actually putting an effort into games this year. the way he heaves himself out of goal so fast to defend neil from riko. that wymack told the press it was andrew's idea to put neil in defense and it was hailed as genius. andrew getting the recognition he deserves, even if he doesn't care for it. jean speaking to an empty room, "he will be court", as confidently as kevin speaks about neil. andrew having a dedicated candy drawer. andrew always looking at wymack when kevin and neil are being pedantic. andrew and neil and the quiet way they are wrapped around each other's existence. andrew minyard.

[margareturtle]

Just thinking about how Jean Moreau is one of the best backliners in Class I exy but I don’t think anyone has even seen his peek potential yet

Just thinking about how Neil is able to match Riko at every turn with his speed at the Final Raven v Foxes match and he catches Riko by surprise since Riko is not expecting Neil in top form as when Neil was at the nest he only got on the court after being beat and his physical condition only got worse as the weeks progressed.

So just thinking that about how Jean has never played an Exy game not in pain. He is one of the best even while always playing in pain somewhere on his body. So I can’t wait to see Jean realize what he can do when he finally gets to play when he’s not in pain.

And for everyone to realize that they’ve seen Jean Moreau play but they haven’t seen Jean Moreau play

[oceanichymns]

I am Jean Moreau. I will endure.

Just wanted to thank @korakos for sharing The Sunshine Court with us. It is everything I didn’t know I needed. ❤️‍🩹

[pepeshka]

jean falls first jeremy falls harder

[swampthingking]

obsessed with jean’s colorful insults/descriptions so here’s a compiled list of them in order

you arrogant fool (abby)

you imbecile (kevin)

your ball-battered brain (kevin)

you feckless child (kevin)

those clowns (trojans)

pet goalkeeper (andrew)

the tiny bastard (neil) [LMFAO]

kevin’s pet monster (andrew)

the sunshine court [derogatory]

wholesome in an unsettling, unhealthy way (the trojans)

unhinged optimist (renee)

some plump shrink (bee)

that creepy little goalkeeper andrew minyard [PLEASE i was fucking DEAD he has no idea how funny he is]

you tedious malcontent (neil) [probably my favorite one]

an abominable cockroach (neil)

the wayward child (neil) [jesus christ he is not taking it easy on neil]

andrew’s twin

worthless trash bags (foxes, past tense)

a rabid little fox (neil) [hey. remember when neil described andrew as a ‘rabid goalkeeper’ ???]

annoyingly easy to look at (jeremy)

strange and misguided (the trojans)

the cruelty of these nonstop temptations (kevin, renee, jeremy)

the sunshine court [less derogatory]

“I was hoping he would bite his tongue off in the fall and save us both some grief in the long run.” (lucas)

wretched beast (gr****n)

your ignorant mouth (lucas)

“Your apologies are as useful as perfume on a frog.” (lucas)

neil, being the person he was,

you ignorant child (neil)

miserable wretch (neil) [giving his everything to neil’s insults]

ok that’s all. unless i missed some. and if i did you have to add them it’s just law

[pepeshka]

“Love was just a glance away

A warm embracing dance away”

[infinite-mirrors]

tsc sketches, I missed these books ahhh

[this-dude-over-here]

yes yes tsc gave us jerejean bonding and snarky Neil but we need to talk about Catalina Alvarez and Jean.

her kissing his shoulder and forehead and saying, you're a good man Jean Moreau. her teaching Jean to cook and him finding one of his first true comforts in spending hours cooking with her. Jean pushing about going to the court and Cat saying, patience, babe. Jean getting flustered and Cat saying, sometimes I forget you're just a kid. Cat getting pissed about the Ravens and memorizing and recounting the exact injuries that they gave Jean. Cat taking Jean for a ride to one of her favorite places to share the comfort with him. Cat giving him shells on the beach. Jean watching Cat dance with so much joy and freedom and thinking, Friends.

[ivyinne]

Kevin out here unwittingly playing cupid. in the span of two years he has singlehandedly given the world both andreil and jerejean. kevin day what stuff are you made of

[clementinecloudz]

Jean moreau is me when nothing arts like I want it to

[starregulus]

Neil and Jean both showing up to their fresh start with nothing but a duffel bag filled with the bare minimum and a misunderstanding of how normal society functions, mentally preparing to do the complete opposite of everything they were taught/learnt

[clementinecloudz]

Dadmack or smthn .