Dumb child

I'm just a sucker for pain

[decrolise]

[futatsuki]

うつりゆく

[waffl3o]

[dying-redshirt-noises]

[lemon-badgeress]

….*googles*….what the FUCK

[kittydesade]

… shit, sorry, I didn’t tell you about that.

[nimblermortal]

https://www.nytimes.com/2021/01/15/world/europe/dutch-government-resignation-rutte-netherlands.html

Jan. 15, 2021: A parliamentary report concluded that tax authorities unfairly targeted poor families over child care benefits. Prime Minister Mark Rutte and his entire cabinet stepped down.

[marcholasmoth]

really gotta stop learning about world news through memes

[tricornking]

You can’t go to the circus and then complain when a clown pies you in the face

[annakendrxk]

[mrspider-deactivated20221213]

remembering the time i ate an entire loaf of pumpkin bread and my mom got so enraged she called me a “little loaf eating freak”

[celeno]

So many things changed in the past year and I’m grateful to me for still holding on. I found peace and joy in ways I never thought I could and being alone has never felt so right. I just had to realise that all this time I wasn’t looking for someone but for my own self and while I still haven’t got my answers fully I’m hopeful I’ll be able to understand if I keep working for myself.

[celeno]

Apparently i’m the wrong one, cause the same things keep happening all over, people still judging me, still talking bad about me even tho i baerly ever talked to them, juste cause for some reason they hate me, maybe i’m just that bad.

I’m trying to change but i guess i’ll never be enough, for anyone, not even for me.

[celeno]

I just wanna die please bury me in a hole very very deep somewhere nowhere to be found

[celeno]

i didn't know tumblr became like this so here's my contribute

[celeno]

honesty, what the actual fuck.

[celeno]

why would you push me away? why won't you relay on me? where did i do wrong this time?

[celeno]

college is hard but good so far, i surprisingly made friends with my colleagues and have them to support me during this trip is great. I don't know why i started writing i just felt like doing it, maybe sometimes i just need to let out stuff even tho i always have people around me to hear me and it feels good but in my mind i'm always on my own so i kinda need my weird space. I think i'm definitely leaving behind my old "friends" cause it's what they deserve and i'm trying to move on to happier places with new people since life, studying and mostly love for science gave me this opportunity. I do really want to grow up and be more mature about situations in my life, i'll wait that moment and i'll finally be free.

[celeno]

19:15 28/12/2016

I was so different back then. I had a kind of sense of purpose, or maybe not, but I don't feel anymore like that at all; I still carry with me all those bad feelings, and all the scars that made me who I am, but now, in this day of christmas holidays, I can sense the feeling of not belonging to anywhere at all, maybe I've done alla wrong and nothing I did really matters anymore and I'm still here not accomplishing what I should, but for some reason something made me write here, something still makes me want to do things, something still moves me drags me pushes me to the immensity of the oblivion. I know we all ask ourselves why we are here, and what we need to do, what's our purpose,  but do we really wanna know that, if we knew what would it change? I might seem odd and idiot, and I quite feel like that now, but am I truly capable of doing this anymore? Can I still live? Should I tell this or keep quiet about it?  

[celeno]

I don't wanna fall again in the same old story, is it so bad to wish for this?

[celeno]

us being so fucking lovely

[celeno]

i feel so many things right now, like i already have so many problems going on and now the fact that people could judge me as a liar, even tho i did nothing wrong, is a persistent thought in my mind. Like why in the world should i have told you i was seeing a new person after we broke up? why did you put me in position to have to lie to you? why didn't you want me when we were still together? now you can fucking burn on your own with your gigantic ego cause world doesn't revolve around you. I'm happy now and i don't and won't regret anything i did cause it's what i am and i'm not a shit like you.

[celeno]

I feel like a fifteen year old who's in love for the first time even tho i'm older and i've already experienced love, this time it seems like it's going to last forever. My heart races every time i know i'm going to see him and the best thing is that his heart races the same way mine does.