Good luck to me.
So I broke up with her. I told her everything, the reason I stayed with her for so long. She took it pretty hard and I can't deny that I feel bad. I know I shouldn't have stayed with her so long, especially with all the things we told one another at Christmas. My feelings didn't start there though. When you first moved back here we started hanging out again and just seeing how much you've grown up, and what an amazing person you have become. It blew my mind. I know to you, maybe I'm just your best friends older brother but I care about you. I know, I act like a cocky prick. I do realize I just used to words for dick to describe myself and you know why. Sometimes I'm to harsh and I say things that I don't mean, I act before I think and I'm so much different from you but it call comes down to one thing. I care. I know your last relationship really messed you up. He was a jerk. You just choose to see the better in most people. For him to leave you there like that... Well you know that's something I wouldn't do. I'm tired of just being that arrogent jerk that asks you out everyday. I know I really fucked things up at Christmas. I don't care about any of that anymore. I'm willing to step up. So if you would have me, I would love for you to give me the chance to be what you need. I want the chance to be your guy. I really care. And I may not be "in love" with you like he claimed to. But hey, we don't know where the future will bring us.