Nosy crows and mysterious drawing-Kaz Brekker
Pairing: Kaz Brekker x reader, Crows x reader (platonic)
Warning: Swearing, kaz's touch aversion
Summary: After a long day of the crows shipping you and Kaz, you run to kaz's office and after a few revelations and drawings as well as a couple goat jokes feelings are spilled.
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You knock lightly on kaz's office door, a little nervous and waited for any kind of reaction.A stern emotionless, "Come in," came from the other side of the door. You slightliy walk into the small office and see Kaz leaned over his desk, hunched over, working on paperwork, not even looking up at you entering the room. "What do you want?" He says knowingly.
"Hello to you too Kaz" I say sarcastically at his 'loving and warm' welcome.
Kaz's head pops up quickly and he meets your eyes with his own, a dark stern stare. He's not exactly sure what to make of you coming into his office or what you wanted if it was good or bad "Oh! Hello." He says, sarcasm in his voice. "What can I do for you?" He asks. His manner of speech is professional and cordial, yet there's an edge of suspicion to it.
"Nothing really I was just going to come and keep you company while you work quietly"You say trying to persuade him to not kick you out but he jus raises an eyebrow at you telling you to 'go on'
"And the other crows drove me crazy downstairs so I thought I'd come were no one else dares to thread"
He raises an eyebrow. "Other Crows? What other Crows?" he wonders to himself, making a mental note to find out about that later. "Is that so?" He says, not hiding his skepticism quite as much. "Well." He adds, motioning for you to have a seat. "Have a seat, then."
You give him a small thankful smile and sit down with my book knowing kaz wasn't one to talk much. "Also I've got to warn you Jesper was talking about buying another goat although you said no to him about a million times already"
"A goat. What does that idiot need with a goat?" Kaz asks with annoyance. He runs a hand through his hair, and sighs heavily, running a hand over his face. He's clearly frustrated, and you can see it on his face. "Does he enjoy making my life difficult?"
"I think he enjoys bringing your blood pressure up, he said something along the lines of wanting to replace some Milo I don't really know what he meant, I'm just telling you, now remember you didn't hear this from me" you say giving him information you'd heard earlier.
Kaz sighs and makes a note in his paperwork. "Talk to Jesper. About the goat and Milo." He says. "Thank you," He adds, and smiles slightly. "I'll make sure you aren't outed as the source of this... goatgate.... drama." He says to you seriously but with a hint of humor deep in his voice.
You lightly giggle adding on "Could you imagine a goat in the club or the slat?" You say with a slight luagh.
Kaz actually physically shudders. The idea of a goat in the nightclub is bad enough, but the thought of having one down in the Slat...! "Saints no! That would be.. terrible." Kaz says, the thought of the goat in the sewer causing him such distress. " Are the other Crows as annoying as Jesper, or is it just him?"
"Well I wouldn't say he's annoying kaz, he's a sweet guy and he means well, it's just that I wouldn't wann live with a goat anytime soon. The other crows were having semmi normal conversation before they started on the topic of me and I though I'd get out of there before it went further" you say getting a bit annoyed at the memory.
"Fair. Although he is quite literally trying to buy a goat. That is annoying," Kaz says bluntly with a shrug. "What else did you hear?" He asks with a note of curiosity. "I'm guessing they were talking about you. The Crows can be gossipy bunch. At least I know they're not talking about me for once no one can do as much as yawn without them knowing." He smiles lightly the end of his mouth raising at his own joke.
"Oh but they were, as per usual they were making up their silly little rumours and 'shipping' people and wondering about our past. I got annoyed at their speculation and jesper's crying because he wanted a goat while on wyland's lap wasn't helping my anger" you say with a bit of an annoyed tone "Don't get me wrong I love them as friends just they can get a bit too nosy sometimes "
"Oh, I see ," Kaz says, his voice dripping with sarcasm. Of course they were talking about those absurd rumors. It was to be expected. He's heard bits and pieces over the years, so this is neither surprising nor a big deal. He shakes his head, a slight, amused smile tugging at his lips. "That's just ridiculous," He says. At the mention of Jesper, he smirks slightly. "That's a funny mental picture."
"I'm not gonna lie it was actually kinda funny watching him sob cursing you for not letting him get a goat* you joked and giggle lightly "they're absolutely ridiculous if you ask me, we're mearly work partners kaz I don't know why they insist that there's something more"
"Of course, partners." Kaz says with a small smile and a glint in his eyes. "I can't blame them though. People do love their gossip, speculation and rumors." Kaz's smirks, a small laugh on his lips. "It's just one of those things. As long as you know it isn't true, isn't that all that matters?"
*Yes I suppose so, it just gets annoying sometimes ok, and you know my past isn't the brightest and I hate it when they keep trying to pry wanting to know how we met, and everything else" you say rolling your eyes and crossing your arms looking at kaz.
"Your past is nobody's business but your own unless you're willing to tell them about it. No matter how many questions those rumors stir up, don't give in to their childish and gossipy whims." Kaz says plainly. "Not everyone deserves to know just because they're curious. If you wanted to tell them the whole story you would have, they shouldn't try to squeeze it out." His voice sounds serious, but there's still a softness behind the words which is unlike him.
"well I don't, it just gets annoying and repetitive* you say with a sigh.
"If people are getting on your nerves, give me a ring and I'll sort them out," Kaz says with a shrug. As their leader, he tries his best to protect his Dregs from as much outside interference as he can. He knows what you've all been through, and he understands. He understands that not everyone in the Barrel is kind, and that's one of the reasons why he does what he does. Not everyone gets a happy life. He wants to make sure that the Crows that he loves and cares for do have a happy life. He'll do anything to protect them although he'll never admit it or show it in anyway.
"I can take care of my self kaz, don't worry I always have" you say grateful but strong non the less. "So no goat? Then huh"you jokingly say trying to change the subject.
"Alright, alright," Kaz smirks softly. "No goat." He laughs lightly again then takes a few seconds to collect himself. He leans over the desk towards you. "But if you do need anything, I mean anything... do talk to me.. "He says, and there's a genuine softness and sincerity to his words. "That's what I'm here for. Not just to run the Dregs, but to make sure my Crows are okay."
"I know kaz, thank you very much" you say a bit shocked, Kaz has never talked to anyone in this way, at least that you know, you shake any thoughts out of your head.Suddenly you hear a noise outside kaz's door "I swear to all the saints if they're listing in on our conversation just to keep adding to their rumours I'm gonna kill them"
"It does sound a little suspicious. Who knows? You know how it is in the Barrel," Kaz says. "Just stay here, I'll go check it out." He says as he pushes himself up off his desk and walks over to his office door. When he throws the door open he's met with a wall of Crows... not quite as many as he was expecting, but still a good amount. His eyes dart between them all before he raises his voice a little. "Which one of you was trying to snoop on me?" All the crows slowly pick them selves off the floor after kaz opened the door sending them to the ground
"oh we weren't listing to anything just walking by" is all jesper says ovjusly lying.
"Bullshit," *Kaz says plainly, looking at each and every one of them. He's always had quite the sense for when someone is trying to lie to him. "You were all listening, weren't you?" He says. There's something different about Kaz's voice when he's mad, something dark and aggressive that the crows are used to by now. This feels different than just his normal anger they think though.
Nina starts talking this time "Oh come on kaz you can't blame us we were just curious what you two have going on between you cause we're sick of all the sexual tension during missions. Why don't you two just admit you love each other?" You go up behind kaz giving her a mad look as you blush slightly.
"I can blame you, and I do." Kaz's voice is like ice, sharp and cold. When he speaks, there's no humor or wit or warmth behind his words. He turns to look at Nina and gives her the coldest look she's ever seen from him. He's normally calm and collected, even when he's mad. But this.... it's something else entirely. His eyes are narrowed, dark and cold in comparison to his usual dark brown. He doesn't say anything, though. He lets the look speak for him.
Jesper speaks up again "Oh come on kaz you two have known each other for longer then I know you're just too stubborn to admit there's something going on"
The anger is still clear in Kaz's voice when he speaks again. His words are quiet, but there's no missing that tone that just speaks of anger. He doesn't look at Jesper or Nina when he speaks, he keeps those narrow eyes fixed on Nina and her dumb comment. "I said shut up," He growls. "Is that understood?"
They seem to fear kaz and stayed quite until then jesper spoke up again "kaz you know what would really shut me up if you'd be so kind as to let me get a small fluffy little baby goat to fill the void in my heart..."
Kaz walks up to Jespers face and leans in so they're essentially nose to nose. "I will personally break your fingers," he says quietly, his tone absolutely threatening, to the point where even Nina seems to be intimidated. "There is no goat. You understand? No. Goat." His finger points down between them, shaking the slightest bit. Kaz has never been this mad before, especially at someone who was so important to the Dregs and more importantly him. He's furious. His teeth are gritted. His voice is full of anger and cold violence.
Jesper swolows hard and backs away slightly "But kaz I promise to take care of it" he practically begs.
"I don't care what you think you can do," Kaz hisses, still not looking away from Jesper and his finger still pointing between them. Even the Dregs that are watching are now visibly shaken and scared. "No. Goat." His voice is cold, a little shake in his words. A few moments pass with just the two of them staring at each other, before Kaz finally takes a step back and drops his finger. He seems to be calming down, his anger not as intense as it was before. His eyes are still cold though. He doesn't like having people push him.
Nina gathers the courage to speak again "We're just trying to make you happy and less grouchy by encouraging you to find love even if you won't admit it yourself"
"And what would I know about love, exactly?" Kaz asks, that edge of sarcasm and coldness back to his tone as he looks at Nina and her stupid, stupid words. He tries very hard to keep his rage in check. He's still mad. His fists are so tightly clenched, you can see the white of his knuckles poking through his skin. He's trying not to yell, but his voice raises slightly as it comes to the tip of his tongue. "If I don't need anything from anyone then why in the name of all the Saints should I find love?!" Another stupid comment! Kaz's eyes widen and he takes a step back, completely disgusted and appalled by Nina's words. He gives her a horrible look and speaks through gritted teeth, his anger boiling deep inside and threatening to be unleashed. These Crows are all terrible people. But deep down he knows he'll end up just the way he always was. Alone.
You've had enough of this and get an angry look on your face and get in front of kaz. "ok that's enough all of you just go away and stop fucking listening in on people's conversations and assuming things you don't know* You yell at them then stand back shutting the door of kaz's office closing it shut with a bang.
The Crows go completely silent. No one says a word. Nina backs away fearfully and tries to get away, and the rest look like they want to follow suit. They don't want to cause any more trouble with Brekker. They stand there for a moment, unsure what to say, before Jespers voice speaks up. "Are we really not getting a goat then?" The sound of his voice makes the rest of them laugh and they start to leave the room. Nina is the last to leave, not making eye contact and walking away with her head down.
"I told you they're so infuriating, sometimes they just don't know when to stop" you groaned sitting down and bringing your angered red face into the palms of your hand.
"Yeah, they are, aren't they?" Kaz says with a sigh. "No matter how many times I tell them." He shakes his head at the thought of it and sighs. "Did they bother you?" He asks, the normal amount kindness and caring back to his voice. He sounds concerned. "I'm sorry if they upset you. You were right, you know. They shouldn't be trying to get involved."
"Well it's not your fault kaz you can't control them as much as you would love to" You say looking at him my face still red. "Also I hate to break it to you but I think jesper still hasn't given up on that stupid goat idea"
"Well, that's his problem," Kaz says flippantly, though a small smile plays on his lips at the thought. "No Goat." His tone is final, as is his decision. "I'll talk to him myself about that goat. But you should know," his voice lowers slightly and he leans over the desk a little towards you "If people keep bothering you, I won't just sit there and watch it happen. " He raises an eyebrow at you, his eyes narrow as he tries to gauge your reply to that. "Are we clear?"
"Mhm,are you going to hit them with your cane?" You joke, not knowing if he'll take it as a joke or be mad at you.
Kaz chuckles. "If I have to," he says lightly. His tone is joking, but there's an ounce of truth in there. He would, if it went that far. "They're like kids, you know. Always needing to be kept in check." He chuckles again, shaking his head. "That's the price I pay for being the boss." He makes a sweeping gesture with his hands as if the Dregs were children and he was their father. "But it's worth it," he adds quietly, and there's some genuine care in his voice.
"It's true they are like children now that you mention it, why are they so invested in our so called 'relationship' anyway?"
"The Crows are very gossipy." Kaz says with a laugh. "They like to speculate about everything, and they're very nosy." He shrugs. "It all goes along with being in a gang, I suppose. Not a lot to talk about besides the Dregs, so they get interested in the people who make their way in and out." He gives you a thoughtful look as he adds "And what we're doing is rather interesting." He's joking with that last statement, his voice playful.
You let out a sigh "I suppose your right, you are most of the time, about almost everything"
"I know I am." He says, the words playful and bantering. "Sometimes I wish the Crows could just focus on what they need to instead of just bothering people. But they're good people, deep down." He sighs. "Just a bit nosy and careless." There's a frown on his face for a moment but it disappears just as fast as it comes. "How do you put up with them?" He jokes. "It couldn't have been easy for you." His voice is light as he asks.
""They're actual really nice and fun most of the time kaz. When they're not trying to discover your darkest secrets like. Treasure chest of gold" I say sarcasticly jokingly.
Kaz bursts out in small fit of laughter, the first time he's done so in quite a while. He sighs and looks back up at you, still chuckling. "Yeah, I'll admit that's true," he says when he's finally calmed down. "Those idiots really have no boundaries," he adds with a laugh and he gives an affectionate shake of his head. "And you put up with this nonsense? What a saint you must be. " His voice is full of admiration.
As he starts laughing you do the same you've never noticed how contagious his laugh really is, maybe some you've never heard it. "I must be huh I bet I'd even challenge Alina if I wanted to, she might be the Saint of the sun or whatever but I'm the Saint of patients" you joke laughing.
The laugh you share warms Kaz's heart no matter how small and cold it is, and he gives you a small smile as a laugh escapes through his lips. He nods slowly, thinking before he says, "The patience of a Saint, that's for sure. Not everyone would be so tolerant and understanding." His eyes linger on you for a moment before he shakes his head and laughs at your joke. "What would your Saintly duties be?" he asks, a small smile on his lips. "If you actually did challenge Alina, what would you do?" A small smirk plays on his lips.
"Oh my duties keeping the crows alive in more ways then one, keeping them from doing stupid things and then stooping my self from committing a murder when they ask me who I have a crush on like I'm a child. And I'd never challenge her kaz are you crazy I was mearly joking"
"Well, you do seem to have your responsibilities under control," he smiles. He raises an eyebrow at your comment about challenging Alina but then rolls his eyes and shakes his head, "Well, I was joking too. It was just an interesting idea to entertain." Kaz shrugs. "You ever get bored, I guess we could always set up a match." His grin is not very wide but his eyes sparkle as he speaks. He's definitely teasing you now, and he lets his words hang in the air for a few moments before going back to the topic of the Crows and their many shenanigans.
"Yeah I bet that match would last about five seconds before I get blinded and somehow die in the stupidest way possible. Trust me I'm doing my duties well now but if I get one more question from them about if me and you are married I might just snap" I say hoping he won't get mad getting slightly annoyed at all the times Nina or Jesper asked that question, sometimes as a joke.
"Married?" Kaz makes a face before he laughs. "Who said that?! Was it Nina? It was Nina, wasn't it?" He shakes his head. "I really need to have a good long talk with her... maybe take my cane to her," he mumbles thoughtfully. "No more questions about marriage. Is that understood?" It's a threat, and although he tries to cover it up with teasing or a laugh, he means every single word.
"Oh you don't even know half of it, and it's Nina and Jesper. Did you know in their fantasy of a world they have already planned our make believe wedding they even have drawings and designs, I'll even find them and show them to you,if you don't believe me since honestly I wouldn't even believe me.Oh also instead of a flower girl jesper insists that we get a goat for the wedding you know to throw flower petals down the aisle"
Kaz's eyes widen and he lets out a small chuckle. He can't believe it. He's almost impressed at how far they've thought this through, but he's also still a little bit appalled. "Jesper!" He shakes his head and laughs again just to hide how annoyed he is. "A goat? Really? Why are they so obsessed with this goat?" He asks, his voice going from annoyance to genuine confusion. He shakes his head again, but he's still laughing. "They never cease to baffle me. I'll talk to him... seriously though what's with the goat?"
"I don't know honestly kaz it amazes me how he manages to talk about it in every way possible way and every possible conversation weather it's about a heist or his favourite food, the goat will get involved" you sigh then get an idea "wait give me a second" You say then run out the office and come back with the drawings Jesper and Nina drew of me and kaz's wedding.
Kaz takes the drawings and his eyebrows go up in surprise at the drawings. "They drew these?". His tone is shocked but also confused. "How long did they spend on this?!" He asks, shaking his head with disbelief. But he looks at the picture longer, analyzing it and taking it in. It's weird, but... also kind of sweet, if that makes sense? "They're such... children, really. But... this is nice." He smiles a small smile and looks up at you "How do you put up with it? They're a lot."
"I have a sneakily feeling that wyland helps them with the drawings, and honestly they are quite nice in a creepy way. I mean the wedding dress they drew for me isn't quite bad actually, if they'd put this much effort into hesitates we'd be the richest in town. I honestly don't know how I put up with them I told you kaz I'm a saint" you say looking through the drawings and giggling.
Kaz's eyes narrow at the thought of Wyland's role in the drawings when you mention him, but he doesn't speak up. "Well, if we have the drawings, why not just have the wedding already?" He jokes, still smiling. His voice is teasing but there's a slight hint of sarcasm at the end that makes him seem like he's only half-joking. "I mean, clearly it's what the people want," His smile becomes slightly sly as he speaks, all humor gone at once as the smile turns into pure mischief. "What do you think?"
At this you start blushing shocked and your jaw dropped. "Well- I-I don't...What ?" You stutter this wasn't like kaz at all.
The smirk on his face doesn't fade. If anything, it grows wider. "The marriage, silly!" He chuckles at you, a look of pure glee and delight evident on his features. He looks pleased with himself, the idea that he just suggested the marriage and that he got you to blush, well... that puts a smile on his face that could light up a room. "Why not? We're already like a married couple, anyway." *He's half joking, but his tone is also clearly playing into it.
You stay absolutely shocked "what?" You hesitate and stutter "kaz are you being serious?" You say utterly shell shocked
Kaz's expression is one of absolute delight and joy. He's almost glowing with it."Do I look like I'm joking?" He asks as he crosses the space between the two of you, looking down at you almost apologetically. "Seriously. What do you say?" His eyes are wide and his smile reaches his eyes. "It'd be fun! Just think; we're together anyway, why not just formalize it? I mean, we already share almost everything." His face turns to one of pure bliss as he speaks.
"wait your serious?" I say in utter shock and disbelief. "Kaz we've never even kissed before we can't just get married all of a sudden we're not even dating, and I and I" you stutter out flustered "kaz an-"
He cut you off with a look that says 'you can't seriously be falling for this' and at the raise of that eye brow you relax, he was pulling you leg you should have known.
Kaz laughs as you stutter, but there's no malice to the sound of it, as if he's amused by your embarrassment, but is not mocking you for it. "I know," he admits, leaning closer, his eyes searching your face. "But just because we haven't kissed yet, doesn't mean we can't start now." His eyes flick to your lips as he speaks, and he smiles at the way they part slightly at the thought. "What do you say?" He tilts his head as he asks, still close enough that he could kiss you if you wanted. It's clear he's been thinking about this for a long time and debating if he had enough courage to actually go through with it, to touch you
You were to stunned to even move or say anything so you stay quiet not doing anything but you just close eyes letting your body take over, mind going numb as you throw all send out the attic window
A small smile appears on Kaz's lips as he sees this. He leans in the rest of the way, his breath brushing your cheek as he does. His breath is slow, soft, and gentle, and when he's just a cm away from you his hand rests softly on the side of your face. His lips settle on yours, and his soft lips meet yours in a tender kiss that's filled with so much care and kindness. Although it wasn't long as he felt the water from his past rise and the image of Jordie takes over his mind so he pulls away in a slight panic.
A soft smile appears on your face "it's ok kaz you don't have to do more then your ready too." You say as kaz slowly goes back to his seat deep in thought. "But hey maybe they were right after all"
Kaz laughs when you do, but a slight touch of confusion on his face as you mention the Crows."Right about what?" He asks thoughtfully, as if he's just piecing together a puzzle. He looks at you with an inquisitive gaze, raising his eyebrows in question. "What do you mean by that?" His face becomes serious as he asks, the playfulness disappeared from his voice as he tries to understand what you mean. His words are careful, and every movement deliberate as he waits for your response.
"About us Kaz, maybe we do deserve love" you blush slightly not being used to this type of talk looking at your feet as a distraction "don't worry I'm not talking about the goat" you say trying to joke.
Kaz's eyes soften and his lips curl into a small smile. "Maybe we do deserve love," he repeats your words softly, but his face is still serious. He's trying to make sure he takes every word seriously in the hopes that he won't misunderstand or misread your words even once. "Do you believe I love you?" He asks you softly, his eyes never leaving yours as he waits for you to answer.
You blush even more and nod "I love you too kaz I really do for a long time, but maybe we should wait a bit longer for a wedding" you chuckle.
Kaz sighs with some relief, and he smiles at you softly. "If that's what you want, then I'll wait," he says quietly, his tone soft. "I won't push you into anything. But you know I love you, right? I care for you deeply and I'm glad that you feel the same way." His smile grows as he speaks, his eyes on yours. "Just so you know... so you never have to doubt me."
"I've never doubted you, the crows are going to be really happy, they might start drawing and making up other thing" you joke and laugh, you then pick up one of the drawings from Jesper and I look at it in shock.
His eyes follow your glance at the drawing on your hands, an eyebrow raised at the look of shock on your face. "What's that?" He asks curiously, leaning forward to get a better look at the picture "What are you so shocked about? It's only a drawing?" His tone is half serious, half teasing, but there's a bit of real confusion in there as well at your reaction.
You turn the drawings to him "Seems like Nina and Jesper really thought hard about it, did you know we even have a child in their fantasy kaz" you say giggling showing him the pictures Nina and jesper came up with, with me Kaz and a child.
Kaz goes silent as he sees the picture and he looks surprised, laughing softly as he takes the paper out of your hands and holds it up. The picture is indeed well done and he looks at it for a decent amount of time. "They drew us with a child?" His voice is full of surprise and amusement, but there's a touch of awe and admiration as well. He looks back up at you, his eyes wide and his smile even wider. "Wow.. they did think hard about this, didn't they?" He stares at you, his smile turning into one of pure joy.
"I can't believe them, does she have a name" you joke refering to the child.
Kaz chuckles at the joke. "I have no idea," he says, laughing fondly at your laughter. He then looks back down at the picture. "They never mentioned they had a name for them." He pauses for a moment and then nods, a small smile on his face. "But a name might be in order. He looks up at you with a smile. "What do you think, hmm? Got any ideas?" His voice is playful, as he looks back at you with expectation and amusement.
You laugh "kaz jr" you joke "Maybe we should go ask them and confront them hmm?"
Kaz bursts out in laughter at the suggestion, and it takes him a minute to collect himself enough to answer you. "I am so in favor of this idea. This whole thing is hilarious." He shakes his head and smiles at you, the smile turning into a grin. "They're gonna freak out when we confront them about it. Come on. Let's go." He hops to his feet and waits for you by the door holding it open. "Shall we?"
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