well, multiple spreadsheets, technically. over the last couple of months i've been compiling a database of ntb stuff over on my website. i wanted to have everything in one place, particularly the interviews and q&as.
as described on the page, the heart of the database is the intertextuality section. all other info and disclaimers etc can be found in the link. idk how to advertise this otherwise. uhh it's a nirvanna the band library from one autistic fan to other fans 🧍♂️ does that help
as i continue to make my way through the recorded epitext i'll add more quotes to the videos/podcasts, that way they will hopefully become more indexable/searchable.
(the site has a global mobile layout, but pages with big tables like the below link are clunky to navigate on small screens. still, everything should work as intended)
well, multiple spreadsheets, technically. over the last couple of months i've been compiling a database of ntb stuff over on my website. i wanted to have everything in one place, particularly the interviews and q&as.
as described on the page, the heart of the database is the intertextuality section. all other info and disclaimers etc can be found in the link. idk how to advertise this otherwise. uhh it's a nirvanna the band library from one autistic fan to other fans 🧍♂️ does that help
as i continue to make my way through the recorded epitext i'll add more quotes to the videos/podcasts, that way they will hopefully become more indexable/searchable.
(the site has a global mobile layout, but pages with big tables like the below link are clunky to navigate on small screens. still, everything should work as intended)
Viceland dollhouse part 1: ground floor and floorplans
Ok, as promised, second floor shots of my "Paralives" Viceland dollhouse.
Gonna be a lot of commentary here bc we never see these spaces in show, so I've cobbled it together through zillow stalking, headcanon, and bits and bobs from various interviews/commentaries
First off, the second storey floor plans again
The house is advertised as 3bed/2bath, with both baths upstairs, 2 main bedrooms on the second floor, and a "bedroom" in the attic (which I am not fully convinced can be legally described as a bedroom but whatever)
My headcanon is that Jay and Matt do have proper bedrooms on the second floor, but bc of their, uh, situationship, usually choose not to utilise them. The attic "bedroom" serves as storage, an editing station, and a crash pad for Jared and the camera guys
First, a bit of orientation.
The second floor basically consists of one hallway with all the rooms coming off of it. Here's a comparison shot between the hallway in the zillow listing and my recreation
The bedroom at the end of the hall is above of the modern kitchen addition and is the larger of the two main bedrooms. I've given this room to Jay bc this just feels like one of those little indulgences Matt encourages from him; even when they were in the Queen Street apartment, Jay gets the bigger, nicer room.
Part of the movie commentary mentions that Matt decorates the house, but Jay decorates his own room in an "aggressively adult" style. I've made him a bit of an old fashioned minimalist; his room as a kind of sensory oasis. The houseplants around the house are all his and he keeps his favourite in his room.
The bathroom thru the lefthand door is his bathroom. A comparison to the zillow listing photo:
In between his bedroom and his bathroom is a weird (possible??) nook(??) that is unpictured in the zillow. I've stuck a washer/dryer there.
The door to Matt's room is under the stairs. It's the room above the living room, which I think works on a the level of spiritual flow (not that anybody's asking about spiritual flow)
I also believe that Matt would decorate his room with his most favourite and gayest movies, also his wrestling memorabilia. For buffness. He keeps his backup hats here and also his personal computer.
(The watering can lives in his room bc you know Jay isn't keeping his plants alive by himself)
His bathroom is through the hallway linen closet above the stairs. I cannot say for sure which wall the linen closet door is attached to; it could be either the hallway or the bedroom. I've attached it to the hallway door because it doesn't look like there's enough room on the adjoining bedroom wall.
Another zillow comparison shot:
Here's a shot of his bathroom:
An overhead of this whole confusing architectural situation:
Tomorrow I'll post the attic and my mattjay sims. I'm out of my image allotment for this post.
Criminally Underrated Podcast #5 - Matt Johnson // Nirvanna the Band the Show (2017), Season 2 Episode 5 "The B-Day" // sometimes I just want to know what it’s like to be you by @ghostpunkrock // Nirvanna the Band the Show (2017), Season 1 Episode 5 "The Big Time" // variation on the abstract diagram of the vertiginous question, by me // Nirvanna the Band the Show the Movie (2025) // nirvana the band the show (2007), "Peanuts" // "little fish" by Ru Xuan Wei (2016), translation by @howwhy used with permission // 03x04 - Brick Day (Albie's Rocknroll Mixtapes, 2013) // Nirvanna the Band the Show (2017), Season 2 Episode 7 "The Band List" // nirvana the band the show (2007), Episode 10 "The Rivoli" // Friend of a Friend Issue #2 // drawing inspired by Olivia de Recat's Closeness Lines, by me // nirvana the band the show (2007), Episode 3 "The Break In" // nirvana the band the show (2007), Episode 5 "The Banned" // Two musicians dream and time travel in film, 'Nirvanna: The Band - the Show - the Movie'
jay in The Book, after turning into a werewolf, and matt in the movie, after finding himself in the cover band, are both confronted with a sudden and unfathomable life change and both reach first for the explanation that it's just a prank by their counterpart, however impossible that would be, because their realities are so wholly shaped by one another
i watched robin hood and i don't have anything super deep to say about the intertextuality of it aside from how i can see how the "naughty heroism" and sincerity of it has a clear footprint in matt's oeuvre, but when it got to the part where robin and marian are walking through the woods after the sharpshooting tournament and the movie basically says "it's never too late to go back to the relationships in your life that really matter, cherish what you have with both hands", all i could do was lean back and go "oh i'm sure"
"The idea of burying your movie is also another, like, extremely childish idea. I keep– I keep going back to this term, 'childish', and saying 'childish' but what I really mean is sort of a pre-pubescent/pubescent... version of myself, and the things that I thought were... cool and exciting. You know, we're filming something, 'let's bury it! Let's dig it up! Let's go... film a little... fake... mission! We'll be explorers. We'll be– We're gonna be CIA agents today, Owen! What do you think? Does that sound like fun?'... 'No, I wanna spend time with my wife, how about that.' And I go... 'huh!' [beat] The spell is broken. [laughs] 'You– Y–You... You grew up, Wendy! [laughing] You were supposed to stay a kid... Wendy... what happened?'... This guy– Look at that. That– That is the face of somebody who's... still trying to live in this dream that he has dreamed for himself, but... [sigh] Just can't. 'Cause everybody else is waking up."
like okay. imagine you’re matt johnson and you almost exclusively make autofiction where you play the lead character who is called matt johnson. And all the matt johnsons have sexual designs on their best friends which you are able to state out loud in front of your real life best friend who also plays your fictional best friend. and your first movie is about a matt johnson who makes semi autofictional movies in which he plays the lead who is called matt johnson. and it’s about how he is unable to separate reality from his fictions. and also is in love with his best friend. which he sublimates into extreme violence. matt johnson (real) playing matt johnson (fake) playing matt johnson (fake fake). which amplifies the subtext of matt johnson (fake) enthusiastically playing a woman (fake fake) because he can only get away with it if it’s fictional. and he cant even get away with it then. but he can get away with violence at least at first because the whole mechanism of masculinity is performed through violence. but that’s another story entirely. like obviously matt johnson (real) probably has plenty of well defined boundaries about this and can clearly delineate between fiction and reality. But his first movie is about a matt johnson who cannot, and is doomed by that. And all of his art blurs the line between fiction and reality on purpose. his art which stars himself as himself as himself. It’s um very interesting
[ID: An excerpt from Erving Goffman's The Presentation of Self in Everyday Life:
However mystical in character, these inhibitions of the audience allow the performer some elbow-room in building up an impression of his own choice and allow him to function, for his own good or the audience's, as a protection or a threat that close inspection would destroy.
I would like, finally, to add that the matters which the audience leaves alone because of their awe of the performer are likely to be the matters about which he would feel shame were a disclosure to occur. As Riezler has suggested, we have, then, a basic social coin, with awe on one side and shame on the other. The audience senses secret mysteries and powers behind the performance, and the performer senses that his chief secrets are petty ones. As countless folk tales and initiation rites show, often the real secret behind the mystery is that there really is no mystery; the real problem is to prevent the audience from learning this too. END ID]
matt can't fully face the fact that his most personal and long-lasting artistic project largely resonates with gay people and women because that would require a level of self-reflection and external acknowledgement of something he's been avoiding for decades #realpersonfact
Matt, we end every episode of the show by asking filmmakers what's the last great thing they've seen. You are a cinephilic.
Matt: Well, my answer will not match that description at all because I've been going to film festivals for so long and I haven't been able to see movies in the festivals. But—
Do you miss that, being able to watch movies?
Matt: [in an affirmative tone] Oh, my God. Oh, my God. But you know what, I have Toronto, the Toronto Film Festival is just like, a repository of everything.
So you just go and check everything out?
Matt: I just watch everything. I just watch everything. They just play it all at the Scotiabank Theatre and I just watch every single movie. And what's so great is you can just walk out whenever you want, so it's like, if something doesn't catch me I just leave and go to another screening because there's so many thing screening at the same time. I cried watching Dungeons & Dragons.
Really? Tell me about it. I liked it too.
Matt: Oh, yeah?
Yeah.
Matt: Oh, I cried. Like, that movie is a great example of me going in with a huge chip on my shoulder being like, "Yeah, right, this sucks." I didn't like the other films from that group of filmmakers, I found them to be mawkish in a way, and I was expecting the exact same thing here and I was completely captured. I swear it must've been the puppetry.
[laughs]
Matt: Because the film was so tactile and goofy and sweet and it kind of had this PG "Aw, shucks" innocence that—it was—I couldn't judge it. For me to be like, "Oh, this movie is bad" would be like, almost making fun of a really happy kid who's just doing his own thing, and what does that make me look like? I'm gonna watch some kid running around playing a game with his friend and be like, "What an idiot"?
What led you to go see a Dungeons & Dragons film in theatres?
Matt: My good friend, Jay McCarrol, is part of a Dungeons & Dragons group and he was going with his friends and I was like, "I'll come with you." And so we saw a sneak preview, and I'm telling you, at that act three moment, I just cried. I was standing next to my brother, Erik, and just cried. Maybe it's because I played Baldur's Gate, I don't know.
[laughs]
Matt: But like, this movie? I adored it. I adored it. And who knows, on a second watch I may be like, "Ah, you know, this is cold and dead", but I never really watch movies twice, so.
