Somnia

Simply, a dream journal.

[chisomnia]

January 9, 2015 - Drugs

There was a dark office building. I remember going inside, walking down a hall and then exiting out a back entrance. I thought it was one that would lock from the outside but it didn't. I stood there for a while, staring at some trees in the distance. One of them was very large but out of focus. Suddenly I was elsewhere. I was in a cafeteria watching a concert. A girl asked if I wanted to do some drugs. It was an opaque blue liquid in a syringe. I injected it into my foot and then shortly after took another syringe and injected it into my left shoulder. She walked away and left me with all the empty syringes which I had to quickly find a way to dispose of. Then I was back at the office building, staring at that out-of-focus tree. My grandmother I haven't seen in 10 years was with me and she told me to draw the tree and maybe it would make sense. So I drew it and it came into focus. It used to be a huge tree but the top half had snapped off at some point leaving just the trunk.

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January 8, 2015 - New Game

I was in a mall food court with several other people. The mall was next to a mental hospital. Several hours were spent just sitting around and talking until it had dawned on us that we all pretty much had to go to the bathroom.

Most of the mall was under construction so we had to wander a while to find the bathroom. We found one hallway that had a glass wall to see into the mental hospital. There was a doctor there trying to restrain a patient. We kept walking. When we were just about ready to give up and go home we realised the only bathroom was inside of the hospital.

The hospital was a little run down looking but still modern-ish. The bathroom itself, though was dirty and cramped. The stalls had two toilets each that faced each other and the stall walls were so low you could see everyone else in there. Needless to say, it was an uncomfortable group bathroom experience.

Once we had done our business, we went up some stairs, past a large room with many patients and then up some more stairs where there was a bedroom with 4 female patients. None of them talked to us but we hung out in their room like we knew them anyway.

I sat down on one of the beds and told my friend I had come up with a game. One person would choose an image and describe it to the other players. They had to be vague, so as not to obviously give away what the image was. The other players would draw what was being described. The results would end up being either very accurate, way off or just hilarious. I had a name for the game but I can’t remember it.

I remember at some point suggesting it would be funny if the person describing the image spoke broken English and then I got a call from my French friend saying she was downstairs.

That’s about all I can remember.

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January 8, 2015

Before I begin, I must apologise - to no one but myself, since no one reads this - for the lack of posts in quite some time. It’s not that I stopped dreaming or remembering my dreams, I’ve just gotten too lazy to write them down.

Today when I woke up I realised I must start recording them again because my dreams have been incredibly vivid the last few days. I did a bit of research and found out it’s because I’ve quit smoking and my brain is rebalancing my serotonin levels.

Shall we begin?

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May 16, 2014 - More Crystals

A delivery man came to my door holding a pair of shoes. He had a huge smile on his face the whole time as he placed the shoes at my feet. He took a knife out, still smiling, and proceeded to cut the top of the left shoe off. I tried to ask him to stop but he kept going. I was very confused. When he was done cutting the shoe he turned it over and several crystals fell out of it. The delivery man stood up, looked at me with his toothy, voiceless grin, turned and walked out the door. [In real life: I did order a bunch of crystals online and was expecting the delivery when I had this dream] I picked up all the crystals and put them on my kitchen table. There was only about 15 pieces as opposed to the hundreds that I actually ordered. On top of that, none of these were what I had ordered let alone the fact that they came in a shoe via creepy mute man. I turned a lamp on to look at them all. There were about 5 medium sized citrine clusters that were crumbling; 3 or 4 clear quartz chunks; 6 small amethyst pieces that were all cut into sacred geometry shapes and one large amethyst cut into a merkaba-like shape but instead of triangular points it had the sacred geometry shapes all over it. I arranged them on the table and picked up the merkaba. I turned it over a few times. I really liked it but then I woke up.

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January 9, 2014 - Crystals

I dreamt that a friend of mine was teaching me how to make crystals float. You just had to concentrate all your intentions into a crystal point in your hand to guide the crystal you want to float.

I never got it right but I was having fun watching her do it so I gathered up a bunch of amethysts to see what she could do. She went outside with them and came back a couple minutes later saying they all went missing.

As everyone went out to look for them I was left in the house with my 6 year old niece. Except all of the sudden she was talking like a 26 year old and we had some deep intellectual conversation that I can't recall.

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October 8, 2014 - Slushie

It was a cold, wet and snowy night. I was with Tabitha. We got off work and then walked over to a Mac's convenient store. We looked around for a while and I stopped in front of the slushie machine. There was a picture on it of a little girl whose tongue was brightly coloured from drinking a slushie. For some reason I had forgotten public manners and ended up sticking my mouth under the spout of the slushie dispenser and poured some into my mouth: purple and pink flavours at the same time. I stood back, enjoyed, and then did it again with blue and green. A moment later 2 men were coming toward me, one yelling "Hey, are you new to Toronto or something?!" I didn't understand why everyone was mad at me. Tabitha grabbed my arm and motioned me toward the door but the store owner stopped us and asked where we were going. We told him we were just going to the bus and then we went on our way.

I must have taken my shoes off at some point because my feet were frozen from running through snow and slush but we couldn't go back. We ran to Indigo and went inside to hide and fall asleep. The next morning I really needed to find some shoes so I bought some from a store next door and then I went home.

On my way home I stopped at my old elementary school and smoked cigarettes with a bunch of people. I told them all what happened and everyone was mostly shocked that I slept in an Indigo. I left them and went back on my way home.

At home, my aunt, mum, cousin and nephew were there waiting for me. We had dinner and then I washed the dishes. While I was at the kitchen window I saw a van pull up and I knew it was the man from Mac's. I told my mum I would deal with it so I went to the door.

I sat down with the man and told him all I did was drink some slushie out of the machine and then my aunt butted in yelling nonsense at me and then I woke up.

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January 8, 2014 - I'm back

Before I start the dream I’d like to note my extended break from dream recall. After the last zombie dream that I never got around to writing I didn’t feel like writing any other dreams down until I got that one. In September I took a class about dreams and part of the class was to keep a dream journal. I thought it would be easy since I already have this but he wanted recent dreams and as soon as I was in that class I couldn’t remember a single one. Incidentally, as soon as I was out of that class all my dreams became vivid again but I still didn’t write them down. So here on this eighth day of the first month in 2014 I will begin my journal again.

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October 3, 2012 - [Intro]

Let’s take a deep breath before I get into this dream because this is, without a doubt, the longest dream I have ever had. It was also one of the most vivid, and terrifying, and stressful dreams I’ve had.

I had woken up at 7am that morning feeling perfectly rested and feeling fresh… but it was seven in the morning so I decided to go back to sleep for a couple hours - the longest couple of hours I have ever experienced.

I remember trying to wake up out of the dream a few times but kept going right back into it. I ended up waking up from the dream feeling extremely anxious. My hands were shaking and my heart was beating quickly. I was physically exhausted and couldn’t work up the courage to get out of my room to look outside.

Everything was so hazy that I half-thought that the world I was in during the dream was real life and now I was in some quiet dream.

It took me a couple hours to fully recover and completely realize it really was just a dream and that there was nothing to be afraid of anymore.

Shall we get on with it then?

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October 2, 2012 - Spider

I was on a subway platform carrying a box. I noticed a spider on the floor by my feet and bent down to pick it up. A girl said to me, "see! It's not so bad." But I only had one hand to work with because my other was carrying a box.

The box started to slip out of my arm so I had to focus on balancing the box while keeping an eye on the spider. There were a few awkward seconds of the box wobbling in my arm while I'm freaking out about the spider crawling up my arm. The spider ended up on my neck so I screamed and dropped the box. [What I did out of sleep was kick my laptop off of my bed and then I sat up and flailed about a bit thinking there was actually a spider on me. Even typing this now is making my skin feel all creepy crawly]

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September 29, 2012 - Raccoons

I was getting off the bus at Bathurst and Finch and as I crossed the street I saw a row of cages with raccoons in them. They looked like they were for sale or something but there was no one around to sell them.

Most of the raccoons were pretty calm except for a few that seemed to be getting excited by a wombat that was not in a cage and was running back and forth on top of the cages. 

I pretty much just looked over at the situation for a few seconds and then kept on walking.

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September 26, 2012 - Another Party

I was throwing a fairly large party in my house (my childhood house). The front of the house was the same and normal looking but instead of a backyard I had a pretty spacious concert venue, club looking thing with a stage.

The band Jumple was meant to be the only band playing. I went up to talk to them and they told me they were going on first and were being followed by three other bands I barely knew or enjoyed. I was upset that they had to start and leave so early so I walked up to the bartender (who was really just some guy sitting on a stool next to a cooler).

I told him I wanted a glass of lemon juice and coke. He gave me a look and then poured my drink. I then realized I meant to actually have alcohol in that drink so I went into the cooler myself and was about to grab a bottle of Bevledere Vodka (which I've never actually drank before) but I grabbed a premixed can of Canadian Club and Coke.

I walked back into the crowd to mingle a bit and watch Jumple play. They only ended up playing one song and then leaving. Growing ever more frustrated with how the night was turning out, I walked to the front of my house, went to the bathroom, and found a horseshoe shaped thing.

I walked outside and stood in my driveway staring at nothing while still holding this horseshoe thing. Then I saw people coming toward my house so I tossed the thing into the garden and led them inside.

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July 15, 2012 - Ghosts

This dream was mostly silent and slow-paced.

I woke up in my bed and there was a girl lying by my feet. She woke up shortly after I did and we walked out of my room together.

We walked into the laundry room and someone was pouring detergent into the washer. When they put the bottle down on the rim of the washing machine I noticed a pink salamander slug looking thing on it and as I looked closer I realized it was smiling at me. I stared at it for a while and then it slowly slid off the bottle and in to the washing machine. 

[We walked upstairs and there's a whole scene missing here because I'm trying to recall a dream that I had 3 months ago. All I remember was that there was another random thing that I'm calling a ghost upstairs that we encountered and I'll edit this if I even remember it again.] The girl had to leave so I walked her to my front door. I asked her who she was or why she was here in the first place but she just smiled and walked down my driveway then disappeared. 

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July 14, 2012 - Fragmented

Here's another dream that I don't remember enough from: - There was a white house. It had an attic that was converted to a bedroom with four windows, one on each wall.

- Dustin was in that room and he had 3 shirts on, 2 pants, and the rest of his clothes were scattered on the floor. - He said to me "I dress myself better when you're not around."    "clearly.." I said.

- I'm on the sidewalk in front of the house. It's night time and the moon is bright. - I move side to side looking up at the attic room until I can see the moon light shine diagonally through the back window and side window.  

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July 13, 2012 - More Zombies

Dustin and I were at a restaurant in Windsor. While we were waiting to be seated I wandered around a bit and found a shelf with several bottled beverages on it. The last one was a mix of some Bolthouse smoothie drink and Malibu rum. Kirby came out of nowhere and told me that drink was Michelle's. I corrected him and told him that the drink was mine from a week ago. He said, "oh" and changed subjects, "It's so random running into you here in Windsor." "Yeah. Well, it looks like we got a table. See you!" Dustin and I walked to our table, food already in hand, and sat down. Our table was outside and the farthest away from the restaurant itself and closest to a very large hedge maze. It was getting close to dusk now. While we were in the middle of some conversation, I saw from the corner of my eye that there was a zombie approaching us from the entrance of the hedge maze - the strange part about the zombies in this dream is that they're treated more as a nuisance than a threat - so we pick up our plates and walk towards the restaurant until the zombie is gone.

After we were done our meal we were walking home along a path that runs next to the hedge maze. The maze hasn't been taken care of much in a while so some of the hedges are dying and thinning out, making it possible to see through them. While we're walking I hear some leaves rustling so I look through the maze and see the shadows of a few zombies climbing over and walking through the bushes. I let Dustin know about the oncoming group and then we ran but not very far. We ran around a corner and didn't see them again. The next morning, we're staying at someone's house. I was taking a bath and Dustin was sitting in the bathroom as well just talking to me. After I was done getting ready, I told Dustin I would meet him at the mall.

When I get to the mall I realize it's still early and it hasn't even opened yet. The parking lot is empty and I can see a small amount of zombies approaching from around the lot. I start to get nervous because I'm alone and they're all getting closer so I decide to run back to Dustin. On the way there a few other zombies jump out at me but none of them chased or attacked me.

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June 10, 2012 - Carnival

I was at a carnival with 3 friends (no one in particular, really). It was night time and most of the carnival was dark but it was crowded anyway. Everything seemed normal for the most part except when we started noticing a couple people running in terror and a crazed man chasing them. This happened again every 10 minutes or so throughout the night, but always with different people. There was barely any indication of who was about to go crazy or how it even spread. One person would go on a cannibalistic rampage for about 2 or 3 minutes and then be completely normal again.

After the first few occurrences we witnessed we started to look for a safe place to hide but while we were walking towards a dark tent one of my friends turned and started chasing us. My heart stopped and adrenaline kicked in as we ran as fast as we could into the tent and found a dusty, narrow storage room. We locked the door and sat on the floor while we caught our breath. 

I asked my friend if he thought we were safe, he was still panting and facing the door but he said the coast was clear and that she had probably calmed down by now. Our eyes were adjusting to the light then and I could faintly see the side of his face but something was off. I said to him, "uhh.. I think you've lost your nose." And by that I mean there was a small, smooth, nostrilless bump where a nose should be. He turned his head slowly, his eyes red and mouth foaming and jumped at me. And I woke up. 

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June 3, 2012 - Instant Knitter

I was in some Build-A-Bear type toy shop but instead of choosing the bear's outfit off the shelf there was a computer where you could create any outfit you wanted for the bear.

Once you were satisfied with the outfit, you would place the bear in a round machine next to the computer and the machine would knit the outfit instantly around the bear.

I somehow managed to alter the settings so that I could stand in the machine and it would knit around me. I ended up with this weird cargo-looking, calf-length, grey skirt and a matching jacket. In the one of the inside pockets of the jacket was a water bottle with a rubber straw that attached close to the colar for convenient hydration. In another pocket, there was a set of tacky looking pink earbuds that seemed to be plugged in somewhere on the inside of the jacket.

I was wearing my ugly grey outfit while walking along a beach when I woke up.

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June 1, 2012 - Party

It was my birthday party and I was having it in a church. Not for religious reasons by any means, but just for the seating capacity. The pews had been turned towards each other with long tables between them. All of my friends were there and most of my family as well (and Madonna, for whatever reason.) There was also about a hundred people I have never seen in my life. 

My mum and I were both stressing out at the number of uninvited people who were eating our food so I went around to each table saying, "hi, so sorry about this but uhh... I don't know you and this is supposed to be a private party." Almost everyone I spoke to seemed thoroughly annoyed at me, especially as I started cleaning their half-eaten plates away.

Madonna was helping me kick people out as well and they all seemed more polite and less reluctant to leave when she was speaking to them. After we had spoken to every table of strangers me, my mum, and Madonna had some inaudible conversation and the dream ended.