Chloala-Bear (also known as Crowbear)

This is a space for me to express. CFS, MDD & Anxiety For the most part, in recovery stage. You can talk to me

[chloala-bear]

Its coming up to World Pi Week! You can help us raise awareness for Primary Immunodeficiency by liking or sharing our video! 

[sniggadoodles]

self care tip: if you’re depressed or feeling down and don’t feel like leaving bed, change the sheets on your bed to nice, fresh, clean ones that smell good, and then take a shower or a bath, dress in clean pajamas, and go ahead and get back into bed. the tiny bit of work for the day will make you feel like you accomplished something, and you’ll feel clean and refreshed which will put you in a better state of mind.

[fores-ttrial-blog]

I try my hardest to be nice to people, yet I am still walked all over, basically made fun of… honestly. It makes you really wanna be the biggest dick ever. Maybe I just should. 

I want to move away, focus on my degree and career options and say ‘see ya later’ to pretty much every single person who has ever pretended to be my friend, or has been nice to my face, then be a cunt afterwards. I’m actually over it.

Byron Bay?

[crowbear]

You do not owe anyone niceness. People who intimidate, make fun of, or fake to be your friend are fucking bullies and you don’t need that shit.

Save your niceness for the people who need and deserve it.

You don’t deserve to be treated that way. You deserve to be treated like the magical princess that you are.

[champagnemanagement]

[gk2nist]

[pampong]

[thishartominefeelz]

YES ITS TRUE! YOU TO CAN BECOME AN EXCELLENT NAPPER!

[luxgalador]

Naps are so important. Sleep is so important. Know your sleeps. Get your sleeps. Your brain will thank you.

[adriofthedead]

but what if you’re like me and can’t take a nap that’s shorter than three hours

[adriofthedead]

funny story: after I reblogged this I set an alarm and laid down to take a 20 minute nap and ended up sleeping for five hours

[mydelusionalramblings]

:(

When did doing the right thing feel so wrong. I feel like the shittest human :(

[crowbear]

Does it feel so wrong because of how you think other people will think of what you did wrongly and judge you because of it?

Because if that’s the way it went you’d never get any right things done.

Sometimes doing the right thing means pissing other people off with your actions.

You know what you did was right and you did it even if though u are left thinking u are shit. Please do not.

You are strong. You have courage. You are humble. Take solace in knowing you did what was right.

[chloala-bear]

So I had another crash but am feeling like I'm managing things better. It's been about 3wks now since they upped my meds and put me on Melatonin to help me sleep. Huge difference. I don't know if it's the melatonin or meds but I'm getting at least 3 good nights sleep a week and it's made a massive difference. I can only describe not sleeping for months on end as torture. I'm sure anyone who suffers from insomnia will understand. Getting up in the morning after just laying awake all night and being a zombie day in day out because you've lost so many cognitive skills from your brain not being able to repair itself through rest.. It's torture. Yeah this on top of CFS has not been the funnest experience. And it's a double whammy because when you're that tired you don't have the strength to keep yourself mentally healthy and it all just washes over you until you're a sad zombie crying in a corner just waiting for the earth to open up and swallow you whole. So I am very very grateful for the sleep. Even if it's only a little it is so so much better than nothing. I feel human again. One day at a time hey? Keep on keepin on

[kamasitra]

The bud of a Eucalyptus flower opening up/ cap being removed.

[chloala-bear]

Not a great day. Having trouble keeping my energy stable. When I have a ‘good day’ I overdo it because I just get so excited that I actually can do things. How am I meant to manage this. How am I meant to know when to stop on the good days so I don’t plummet. I just feel like I’m letting everyone around me down.

[chloala-bear]

So after a ‘little’ downfall, my meds have been increased, I went to see a psychiatrist and also was prescribed some melatonin to help me sleep. That was 2 weeks ago and I’m starting to feel a bit more positive about things.

I have a question, I am starting to put on a lot of weight, probably from multiple causes (medication, lack of vigorous exercise). But I just wanted to know if other people with CFS have this problem and if they do anything that helps stop the weight gain?

[crowbear]

My friend just sent me this. It’s me! Sorry I don’t know original source.

[womanatee]

I made a few illustrations about what it feels like to have social anxiety. I hope people that can relate are comforted to know other people have similar experiences. 

See more illustrations of What the World Looks Like With Social Anxiety

[chloala-bear]

Me and my problems.

[chloala-bear]

Saw the GP today, changing meds and referred to psychiatrist which is nearby so that’s good. Got up got dressed, went out in public, went to a coffee shop, walked in stead of driving. Patting myself on the back and having a rest before I attempt my uni work.

[sadnist]

a guide to suicide, suicidal thoughts, and how to help by me

[tigeressss]

goals for 2015: less upsetti, more spaghetti