god is a 7 yrs old and I'm a soccer ball

S / she/her / BPD, endometriosis, adenomyosis (all diagnosed) / I like junji ito, NBC and riding my skateboard. not very good at it tho / 28

[stringcage]

Years of personal growth can be unraveled in 2 days at your parents house

[chronicallybadbitch]

if me and my cat talked the same language that would be cool as fuck

he would tell me right away when he was feeling a flare up coming, and we would go straight to the vet

I would tell him the same, and he would sit on my aching joints and purr on them

he would tell me how hard it is to have your eyes hurting since you were a baby, and I would hold him

I would tell him how hard it's been to be 12 and panting from the pain of endometriosis and he would lick my face

we would talk shit together about the doctors that gave us the wrong diagnoses multiple times

he would tell me how lonely he felt when his mom abandoned him, and how warm were my hands the first time I held him

I would tell him that even though my mom never left, I've felt the same my whole life until I found him

He would tell me how anxious he gets when I'm away for a couple days, and that he always wonders if I'm gonna be back

I would tell him that everytime I am away I miss him, and I always hope he's there when I come back

he would tell me that I saved his life

And I would tell him how many times I didn't end mine because I couldn't let him get abandoned a second time.

[chronicallybadbitch]

He died suddenly yesterday. I feel like my life is over. I don't know what to do now. I just want the pain to stop.

[chronicallybadbitch]

"oh well if your family is abusive and worsens your flare ups of a chronic illness that you have 76% more chance of developing if you have childhood trauma, WHICH THEY CAUSED, why don't u move out?"

oh shit I never thought of that! I'm sure I will be just fine if I just find a decent job in a country where even people with university degrees (which I don't have cause of mental illness, oopsie!) are absolutely fucking unemployed most of the time, if I do manual labour I get a physical flare up and have to rest 1 week minimum every month I spend working, I don't have much emergency fund because uh, I paid YEARS of medical visits for my illnesses to find a cause and I also paid years of DBT therapy for the chronic mental illness THEY CAUSED and uh, yeah, I'm sure I will be absolutely able to manage finding someplace to rent, groceries, utilities and so on by myself, even though my illness sometimes makes it hard to even go to the toilet alone even though I'm in my twenties. Economical or logistical help from the government you say? Those bastards still wonder if my illness really exists!

You really gave me terrific advice Sandra

[d1g1t4l-cr1ppl3]

Always remember to check in on your disabled friends, sometimes they will develop more disabilities when you're not looking

[chronicallybadbitch]

as a disabled person I just want to tell my friends that whenever they leave me unattended I

some more each time

[chronicallybadbitch]

slepi

🥱

[weirdplutoprince]

Well, well, well. If it isn't the consequences of someone else's actions that I am directly impacted and severely affected by

[thegreatamericanfacebookstatus]

#longcovid

[decemberwinter]

man I hate this fuckass country so much

[decemberwinter]

reblog if you hate your country

[chronicallybadbitch]

me: ugh. almost 30, with my parents, no bachelor's degree, multiple chronic illnesses, no money, no friends, good at nothing

person: you made me discover the strokes. I love the strokes.

me, crying: they... THEY LOVE THE STROKES. BC OF ME

[chronicallybadbitch]

I am not "just a witch with chronic mental and physical illnesses that hurt like a motherfucker", excuse me. I am Chiron. I am here on earth once more to save others from the pain I was subjected to, or to at least guide them through it

[honeycatsabi]

“Hexes Return To Sender”

Self-care for those that feel hexed/cursed, and protection from backlash that hex/curse.

Free for all to use, primary use for tech/spoonie/secret witches.

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[chronicallybadbitch]

how my parents feel when they say "umm,, cake is actually bad for your endometriosis don't come crying when you can't walk again bc of that pain!!"

how do they feel when I remind them that cortisol also worsens my condition but it's not like that ever stopped them from screaming at me and traumatizing me in various ways all these years:

[2colde]

they call me the endurer the way i endure and endure and endure and endure and well u get it

[only-cat-memes]

[catchymemes]

[babylon-butterfly]

[chronicallybadbitch]

I asked for Ryeqo to a gynecologist today and he replied, with the tone of someone that just got his mother insulted, "absolutely not! It's used for fibroids! Never has been used for endometriosis! It's a whole different problem! I don't even know WHY your family doctor would dare to suggest that" I have the EMA website right in front of me right now, and it states that IT IS used also for endo. I endured an almost 2 hour drive with my yapper father while I was crying for the pain to go to this doctor. I'm going to scream.

[chronicallybadbitch]

that feeling when you need to sleep but the physical pain or the anxious thoughts won't stop coming through