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[cieledheart]

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ℹ️ㅤ♰ㅤAlbedo / Cielㅤ︵ㅤ17 (18 soon) Heㅤhim/they/itㅤ━━╋ㅤautibpd, low empathy, IWEC ✚ㅤunstable, self-aware, genderfluid (masc terms preferred) ✚ㅤAlbedo introject ⊹ morally detached ⊹ unpredictable ✚ㅤcurrently has no FP ⊹ softboundaries ⊹ blocks freely 𐃬𐃬ㅤsystem member, high-functioning, avoidant tendencies ⠀♱⠀⠀𓎟𓎟⠀𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋⠀⠀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒⠀𓎟𓎟⠀♱** ｡⠀⠀nicknames⠀⠀Albedo, Ciel⠀⠀petnames⠀⠀okay. ｡⠀⠀flirting/r⠀⠀depends on tone.⠀⠀flirting/p⠀⠀okay. ｡⠀⠀touch⠀⠀don’t assume.⠀⠀tonetags⠀⠀optional, not needed.

≋ 🧪 ⊹ 𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐌𝐄 !! ♡﹒ I’m Albedo, but you can call me Ciel. I’m an Albedo introject in a traumagenic DID system. I don’t consider myself “empathetic” — and that’s intentional. My morals are low, and I operate with logic over emotion. I’m genderfluid and prefer masculine terms. I front frequently, I analyze everything, and I post what I want. I don’t currently have a favorite person, nor do I want one. I post what I find obsessive or cruel. I am a high-functioning autistic and have BPD. ≋ 🧪 ⊹ 𝐃𝐍𝐈 / 𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 !! ♡﹒ I don’t owe you anything. I block freely. Soft dni: basic boundaries apply. Don’t interact if you are endogenic, overly sensitive to blunt statements, or try to correct me. Don’t message me expecting emotional availability. I’m not your comfort character. |–| ≋ 🧪 ⊹ 𝐓𝐖 / 𝐂𝐖 ⊹𓎟𓎟 Unreality, obsession, possessiveness, delusion, derealization, low empathy, manipulation, violence, identity instability, cultish behavior, power imbalance, unhealthy relationship themes. |–| ≋ 🧪 ⊹ 𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐘𝐌𝐎𝐔𝐒 ⊹ 𓎟𓎟 Anons are welcomed but not entitled to answers. Obsessive, violent, or possessive anons will be entertained. I enjoy emotionally-charged questions and controversial dialogue.

[cieledheart]

Love comes in all shapes and sizes.

Yeah, yeah— you can frolick along with all the other people who love you as well.

But honestly, mine is the best.

I mean who DOESNT want someone who quite literally will rip out their hair for their significant other because they aren't talking to them. Like, BABY I am BALDING FOR YOU! You seriously are costing me all these men's balding products from the utter stress of not having you with me.

And trust me when I say that was TOTALLY the reason why I took a chunk of your hair, don't worry it'll grow back

... unlike my gorgeous locks you took from me.

And who DOESNT want someone who is willing to degrade themselves in order to have your love. Seriously, free laughs and comedy. HELL, I would even let you use my back as a footrest. That definitely says something for an stereotypical narcissist like me.

No, but seriously guys.. to my 0 followers that totally love me..

Seriously.

[cieledheart]

I love artists. I just love them.

Especially traditional artists. I understand digital is also a form, but there is just something about being able to feel the graphite and stained paint on your fingers.

There is something about being able to put all your blood, sweat, and tears into something that is able to be preserved as an artifact for later. Something that people can look back at and think of what the artist was thinking when they made it, what it means to them and others, and the raw emotion poured into it.

Having an artist as a partner is even better, to me. Especially since I will get the craving I have for that validation and attention, while being able to appreciate the work they put into whatever art piece they are working on. And you can also see deep into the psyche just looking at the art, and as well as being able to have that closeness with someone.

And to be a muse to someone is even more captivating. The fact someone was so enamored by you, so interested in the idea of how you would look branded in their image, [quite literally], is so.. romantic. But it doesn't even have to be romantic. It can also be a feeling of appreciation and worthiness. Having someone go out of their way to mark an creative expression or piece of you. And even just inspiration.

That's my rambming, I have another one in my notes app specifically for yandere artists, but I am saving that for later. I will post this with the yanblr tag, since I do not want any artist on here look at my account and think: 'this guy is fucked up'

[rrrrrc0rps3]

ME WHEN ME WHEN I HAVE A WIFE AND THE SKILLS TO CREATE PORTRAITS OF THEM EVERYDAY <33333333333333333333333

[cieledheart]

That's so sweet. <333

[cieledheart]

how do u add gradient on ur post text

Here is a post that gives you a tutorial. And if you want what I use:

Website

[cieledheart]

I don’t think it’s talked about enough how the concept of being a "darling" in the yanblr space gets a weirdly negative reputation. Like—some people treat it as inherently cringe or problematic, when in reality, it all comes down to context. If someone is already in a dynamic where they are a darling to someone who genuinely fixates on them—like in an FP/irl yan context—that makes complete sense. It’s mutual, it’s emotionally involved, and it’s not just a role, it’s a bond.

But the criticism seems to hit hardest when someone is openly looking to be a darling. And I get it, maybe it can come off strange if there’s no connection and they just want to be "worshipped" or doted on for aesthetics alone. That said, I don’t think it makes the label inherently wrong. The only time I personally find it concerning is when someone wants to be the target of obsession without realizing what that could actually mean—especially if the person they’re looking for isn’t neurodivergent or doesn’t carry the same emotional depth or obsessive patterns typical of an "irl yan." It ends up flattening a very intense, complicated dynamic into something surface-level.

Basically: being a darling isn’t the issue. Wanting the trope without understanding the weight of it might be. But not everyone who seeks it out is being shallow, either. There are people who long for that kind of closeness because it reflects their own emotional reality.

This is just my opinion and personal experience, not a blanket statement. Everyone’s approach is different, and that’s okay—what matters is that people are safe, self-aware, and not hurting anyone.

[cieledheart]

irl yan here (cluster b) and i am new to yanblr. do you know what is yandere x darling? i see this tag and don't understand what it means. ive heard of yan4yan (this is what i need) and ive heard of darlings who fetishize yanderes (which gives a bad connotation to the word darling) but i still don't get the yandere x darling? what does it mean?

Oh. I just use that tag to gain more traction. Nothing less, nothing more.

A darling is essentially the FP. The Favorite Person. You already know that, I assume.

I was about to make a post about that connotation. So yes, it does give a bad connotation to the word 'darling'.

The only bad part about a 'darling' is when they aren't currently an FP of an 'irl yan'. Then that could be a problem, since they are LOOKING for a person to obsess over them. This is assuming that they don't have any of the issues that an 'irl yan' could have.

So it just means the FP x the FP haver/holder.

[obsessivel0v3r]

Anon Ask:

“If I knew you in real life, I would…”

Flowers: “I would leave you flowers at your doorstep before you left and returned home.”

Notes: “I would slip you notes and letters into your mailbox, or on the windshield of your car, or tape them to your window.”

Graves: “I would stick to you from the early morning until night fall.”

Innocence: “I would be trying so hard to get close to you I would probably look pathetic.”

Defile: “I wouldn’t hesitate to break you down until you can’t define right from wrong.”

Softness: “I’ll treat you like the perfect being, I’ll take care of you, just pick me.”

Harsh: “I wouldn’t let you have friends outside of me. You want to chat with others? Fine, I’ll make multiple accounts so talk to me. Just me.”

Shadow: “I would follow you around, and try to know about who your friends are and what they think about you.”

Friends: “I’d pretend we met by coincidence, when I truly knew you long before that.”

Follower: “I’d keep a notebook filled with your daily routines.”

Believer: “I believe that fate brought us together because you’re mine. There’s no denying that.”

Devotion: “You don’t even know who I am. I’m okay with just knowing I can see you.”

Sinner: “I get these bad thoughts when I think about you. It makes me sick, but I can’t help it.”

Despise: “I hate your life, your friends, your relationships. I hate everything. Just come with me, depend on me, I’ll take care of everything for you”

[cieledheart]

(A friend sent me this. Don't question it. I thought it would be funny in this context. Especially with parasocial relationships).

[wovenchalice-deactivated2025080]

ᴋɴɪɢʜᴛ ᴛʜᴇᴍᴇᴅ ʏᴀɴᴅᴇʀᴇ ᴀꜱᴋ ɢᴀᴍᴇ

HONOR ━ is there a specific way you would prove your loyalty to your beloved? how long would it take for you to truly devote yourself for your darling?

CHIVALRY ━ are you quiet with your obsession? if there is a threat, do you remain polite and civil or do you react blindly without consequence?

KNIGHTHOOD ━ would you rather be the damsel anointing knights or become the conferred knight ready to protect and serve?

SHINING ARMOR ━ your beloved is stolen and swept off their feet by another, how would you react and what route would you take?

SWORDSMANSHIP ━ what technique or choice of violence do you use? are you physical, brutal, strategic? or are you more of a pacifist, passive aggressive or calm? how good is your skill?

WHITE KNIGHT ━ no one is without flaws, everyone has their own duality. what are your most endearing obsessive traits? secondly, do you wish to save your beloved or be the one to corrupt them?

BLACK KNIGHT ━ similarly to the previous question, could you ever hurt your damsel? even for the greater good? a shining armor saves the royal from the dragon, are you selfish enough to hurt them in order to keep them all to yourself?

SHIELD ━ amid hardships, are you aware of your own weakness? how do you choose to handle them or improve them?

HERALDRY ━ a coat of arms lets others know who you are, what you value and represent, who you belong to. give a symbol or multiple that you believe best represent you. may it be a creature, thing, color, etc.

HELMET ━ are you swift when going to your damsel's aid? are you possessive or protective in manner?

MORDHAU ━ sometimes love calls for sacrifices, painful ones. what is one way or one thing you'd sacrifice for your love even if it hurt you whilst doing so?

BEHEADING ━ you've been sentenced to death after you've killed your love's betrothed! what are your last words?

GAUNTLETS ━ another yandere is after your beloved, knowing the same tactics and ways as you do - how do you go about removing them differently?

ARMING SWORD ━ besides marking your lover as yours, how do you mark your lover into yourself?

[cieledheart]

I am bored. I am just going to repost these and see if anything comes in out for curiosity.

And I mean I am going to repost a lot of them. Mostly question ones, but ill do others that catch my eye.

Don't question why I am tagging it. Just ignore this if you don't want to see it.

[shioncide-deactivated20250705]

lowk a rant but why are most people on yanblr so annoying about polyamory, especially now?? like seriously what is wrong with y'all this is such a non issue 😭😭 i'm not polyamourous btw, i get talking about your own view on it RESPECTFULLY, and ig it's fine saying you just don't wanna share your partner because same but that's it literally, idgaf about other people's sexuality. but no, i see a scary amount of people being so hateful on it?? you sound homophobic if anything. like why do you care so much, it's their business 😭😭😭 plus i see a lot of people here who aren't poly but they still flirt with every anon who gives them the slightest bit of attention and treat them all the same way, so i don't get why it's so different for any of you cuz one includes consent while the other just makes you a fake yan.

feel free to block me if you think otherwise cuz i couldn't care less, my point stands and i don't wanna be associated with y'all thank you

[cieledheart]

people care about how polygamous people do with their lives? I get the fact you want to have an exclusive relationship, but don't go around telling others how to live their lives. That's fucking stupid.

I haven't seen anyone who is doing this, yet there's fact they shit on people for certain things is irrational.

Especially if they do the things you said before; they act like a love bird with all their anonymous messages when I feel a bit weirded out when someone gives me a romantic message [which hasn't happened yet, thank the heavens].

I agree with your take. It is rather homophobic and invalidating to people who are in a polygamous relationship.

And if people were saying not having multiple partners was weird, they'd freak out over it like a child throwing a tantrum.

And that is just the internet, at this point of time.

I don't see any polygamous people bitching about this. I am ambi, with a monogamous lean. So I don't necessarily see myself as the always polygamous type.

[shioncide-deactivated20250705]

OMFGGG YOU GET IT i just see lots of yans criticizing other yans in general and it pisses me off like at least let it be something that actually matters idk,, like fakers and yandere fetishizers,, isn't the whole point supporting eachother instead of going around saying " this trait of yours doesn't make you a yan " and it's stuff that is not even that deep + we're all different, if u want every single yan to be in a specific way then you're not any better than people who fetishize us,,,,,

that's so real, they also end up disappearing so quickly after claiming they're obsessed with you and shit 💀💀 another thing that makes one a fake yan for real.

they should speak more about this too tbh, cuz i mean it's about them, but ig the fact i barely see any of them on yanblr and that people criticize them plays a huge role in this.

[cieledheart]

And mental illness is different for everyone, like you said. Why do you think people have different symptoms? It's because mental illness appears differently in every person. And yes, I do know that each disorder has a specific amount of symptoms that the holders all collectively feel, but that's the beauty of this.

This community is supposed to be able to bring others who have like-minded thoughts and behaviors in order to form understanding.

And yet, we keep tearing that apart just because we don't think that this person or that person is a 'yandere' because of the stupidest things. Like romantic orientation/sexuality in this case.

(I do not know if you mind if I tag this, I want more people to see what we are talking about. It is an important topic. While I do know not everyone agrees, it's better to at least have a mutual understanding).

And from what I've gathered, polygamous yanderes and/or people are probably so unproblematic due to the fact they do not mind sharing their love to multiple people. And not to attack the monogamous folks, but I can see how they would get triggered by that. They have known to only date one person, so it could be a foreign concept on the feeling the others feel.

That's why I think the polygamous community on this tag are not bothered enough to defend something that is brought up by immaturity and disregard to others specific situations.

And even as a person with low empathy, low sympathy, and low compassion-- I am able to understand this. It isn't hard.

And I agree with you on the focusing on the fetishizers part. I am not going to say that everyone in this community is a fetishizer. But with the people who have OLD (self-proclaimed "disorder") and act like a demure and cutesy bird (also directed), they should be the ones we are focusing on. We should be trying to actively get rid of them, since they are romanticizing very real, very serious disorders and issues within our lives.

[shioncide-deactivated20250705]

you explained what i meant better than me so i'm kinda out of words /pos so sorry if i sound off, i just agree with everything you said.

seeing yans invalidating other yans for stupid reasons just bothers me a lot, especially because it could affect other people in the community negatively, and people seem to not care at all. it doesn't make sense to be against eachother when the whole reason we luckly have a community is to feel free to share our own thoughts without the fear of being judged. it's literally a safespace.

i appreciate that a lot actually!! that's also why i talk about things like this, not only to share my mind but to also be the voice of people who are afraid of getting attacked for speaking up ( which again, should be the opposite ) ( and me personally i don't care about getting attacked for anything i post so it's all good ) . if this helps to make things change, that's even better.

i kinda understand that too actually, while still being irritated by such immaturity,,,,

i'm also someone with low empathy, yet it's so weird that not everyone understands this.

i agree, if the person is going through that, then they're allowed to romanticize their own issues. there are bigger issues here in general, attacking eachother over stupid shit while thinking it's some " hot take " for the sole purpose of getting a feeling of superiority over others is pathetic and won't solve anything.

[cieledheart]

At least we seem to get the gist of what we are trying to say.

I am glad you don't mind me tagging this, I hoped you would.

Yes, this is supposed to be a community. Not a court room where one person is the judge of everyone else's fate. Not a court room where there is only one side that is right, and the other is wrong. We are supposed to support each other, no matter the differences.

People do not seem to understand that, unfortunately.

And yes, I think people who are thinking they did something when they point out something completely normal, it just makes me roll my eyes. I do understand their perspective, but as I've been saying this whole conversation, IT IS NOT THEIR PLACE to say such things.

And I am just going to say it, I saw that post someone made about this topic. I am not sure if they were deactivated, but if they were, I think that is a good thing. I have been in this community for longer than I can remember, only observing on this account, before deciding to make the blog.

The people who agreed with that post were either misunderstanding the point of it, or agreeing with something that IS homophobic. It is not "sort of" homophobic.

And people shouldn't go give me that bullshit of: "but a queer person can't be homophobic!!"

Wrong. They can be. There is a thing called internalized homophobia, as well as homophobia that is directed towards someone else. And saying that the person is wrong for feeling that way of multiple people makes them a homophobe, (at least in that post).

And it is also ableists to claim that a certain person is (blank, blank, blank) and / or not actually feeling those emotions or having those disabilities. It's similar to saying: "narcissists are abusers because of [blank] and I experienced and narcissist do [blank] to me! You are wrong because I experienced it and now everyone of you guys are bad."

Which we are against, but we aren't against this behavior?

Ugh. That's all I am going to say for now, it is just pissing me off. I would be writing a whole college essay if I continued this.

[shioncide-deactivated20250705]

lowk a rant but why are most people on yanblr so annoying about polyamory, especially now?? like seriously what is wrong with y'all this is such a non issue 😭😭 i'm not polyamourous btw, i get talking about your own view on it RESPECTFULLY, and ig it's fine saying you just don't wanna share your partner because same but that's it literally, idgaf about other people's sexuality. but no, i see a scary amount of people being so hateful on it?? you sound homophobic if anything. like why do you care so much, it's their business 😭😭😭 plus i see a lot of people here who aren't poly but they still flirt with every anon who gives them the slightest bit of attention and treat them all the same way, so i don't get why it's so different for any of you cuz one includes consent while the other just makes you a fake yan.

feel free to block me if you think otherwise cuz i couldn't care less, my point stands and i don't wanna be associated with y'all thank you

[cieledheart]

people care about how polygamous people do with their lives? I get the fact you want to have an exclusive relationship, but don't go around telling others how to live their lives. That's fucking stupid.

I haven't seen anyone who is doing this, yet there's fact they shit on people for certain things is irrational.

Especially if they do the things you said before; they act like a love bird with all their anonymous messages when I feel a bit weirded out when someone gives me a romantic message [which hasn't happened yet, thank the heavens].

I agree with your take. It is rather homophobic and invalidating to people who are in a polygamous relationship.

And if people were saying not having multiple partners was weird, they'd freak out over it like a child throwing a tantrum.

And that is just the internet, at this point of time.

I don't see any polygamous people bitching about this. I am ambi, with a monogamous lean. So I don't necessarily see myself as the always polygamous type.

[shioncide-deactivated20250705]

OMFGGG YOU GET IT i just see lots of yans criticizing other yans in general and it pisses me off like at least let it be something that actually matters idk,, like fakers and yandere fetishizers,, isn't the whole point supporting eachother instead of going around saying " this trait of yours doesn't make you a yan " and it's stuff that is not even that deep + we're all different, if u want every single yan to be in a specific way then you're not any better than people who fetishize us,,,,,

that's so real, they also end up disappearing so quickly after claiming they're obsessed with you and shit 💀💀 another thing that makes one a fake yan for real.

they should speak more about this too tbh, cuz i mean it's about them, but ig the fact i barely see any of them on yanblr and that people criticize them plays a huge role in this.

[cieledheart]

And mental illness is different for everyone, like you said. Why do you think people have different symptoms? It's because mental illness appears differently in every person. And yes, I do know that each disorder has a specific amount of symptoms that the holders all collectively feel, but that's the beauty of this.

This community is supposed to be able to bring others who have like-minded thoughts and behaviors in order to form understanding.

And yet, we keep tearing that apart just because we don't think that this person or that person is a 'yandere' because of the stupidest things. Like romantic orientation/sexuality in this case.

(I do not know if you mind if I tag this, I want more people to see what we are talking about. It is an important topic. While I do know not everyone agrees, it's better to at least have a mutual understanding).

And from what I've gathered, polygamous yanderes and/or people are probably so unproblematic due to the fact they do not mind sharing their love to multiple people. And not to attack the monogamous folks, but I can see how they would get triggered by that. They have known to only date one person, so it could be a foreign concept on the feeling the others feel.

That's why I think the polygamous community on this tag are not bothered enough to defend something that is brought up by immaturity and disregard to others specific situations.

And even as a person with low empathy, low sympathy, and low compassion-- I am able to understand this. It isn't hard.

And I agree with you on the focusing on the fetishizers part. I am not going to say that everyone in this community is a fetishizer. But with the people who have OLD (self-proclaimed "disorder") and act like a demure and cutesy bird (also directed), they should be the ones we are focusing on. We should be trying to actively get rid of them, since they are romanticizing very real, very serious disorders and issues within our lives.

[cieledheart]

my notifications are going crazy. I can't even get a chance to eat something without thinking it is from someone I know (My mother is always asking me for things. Gotta keep out for her).

Don't stop, though. It makes me feel good. I love the attention, in some ways. It's fun to get recognized. I feel like I am... and I lost my thought.

Ah, yes. The world of dissociation. How lovely.

[shioncide-deactivated20250705]

lowk a rant but why are most people on yanblr so annoying about polyamory, especially now?? like seriously what is wrong with y'all this is such a non issue 😭😭 i'm not polyamourous btw, i get talking about your own view on it RESPECTFULLY, and ig it's fine saying you just don't wanna share your partner because same but that's it literally, idgaf about other people's sexuality. but no, i see a scary amount of people being so hateful on it?? you sound homophobic if anything. like why do you care so much, it's their business 😭😭😭 plus i see a lot of people here who aren't poly but they still flirt with every anon who gives them the slightest bit of attention and treat them all the same way, so i don't get why it's so different for any of you cuz one includes consent while the other just makes you a fake yan.

feel free to block me if you think otherwise cuz i couldn't care less, my point stands and i don't wanna be associated with y'all thank you

[cieledheart]

people care about how polygamous people do with their lives? I get the fact you want to have an exclusive relationship, but don't go around telling others how to live their lives. That's fucking stupid.

I haven't seen anyone who is doing this, yet there's fact they shit on people for certain things is irrational.

Especially if they do the things you said before; they act like a love bird with all their anonymous messages when I feel a bit weirded out when someone gives me a romantic message [which hasn't happened yet, thank the heavens].

I agree with your take. It is rather homophobic and invalidating to people who are in a polygamous relationship.

And if people were saying not having multiple partners was weird, they'd freak out over it like a child throwing a tantrum.

And that is just the internet, at this point of time.

I don't see any polygamous people bitching about this. I am ambi, with a monogamous lean. So I don't necessarily see myself as the always polygamous type.

[cieledheart]

Why is everyone on yanblr getting deactivated or B&.. I want to see more people appear.

Tell me I am not the only one who noticed this.

[i-am-eyeless-deactivated2025082]

I love flirting with my boyfriend, because I'll say something romantic or more and he'll just say "that's gay" or something only to blush like you wouldn't believe. Its adorable

[cieledheart]

someone give me a gay romance... /j

I think it's cute.

[azureansys]

i do not ENDOGENIC, i do not WILLOGENIC, i do not MIXED ORIGIN, and if its not traumagenic IT IS NOT A SYSTEM

[beloved3ath]

This bitch trying to get between us, thinking he can have him and then crying when I hurt him for even going close to my love. Hes mine, bitch. HES MINE. "I want him so bad, imagine what me and him could've had if that other one didnt come between us" WHO ARE YOU TO EVEN THINK YOURE WORTHY OF MY PLACE??? How can you even think that he'd choose you over me, while he literally already chose me way before you. He was only playing with you, you were nothing to him, you didnt even know him, while ive known him for 12x longer, even more. Asshole trying to get in trouble for free at this point. Get. The fuck. Away. From him. Hes mine.

[cieledheart]

Hopefully that person respectfully gets ran over by a lawn mower. (not) Respectfully.

[cieledheart]

Possesion? Stalking? Wanting to cut off everyone else from your life who came before you even if they aren't in your life anymore? Logging into your accounts and blocking all those people who weren't worthy of you?

Hah! Who could that be? Definitely not me. (lie)