okay but like look me in the eyes and tell me that seonghwa is not one hundred and ten percent the crush that you have on your best friend’s older brother. like hes just so nice and funny and slightly older than you and off limits for sure but that doesnt stop your heart from skipping a beat or two when he walks into the room and ruffles your and his sibling’s hair before stealing the last slice of pizza and you watch him leave with the slightest feeling of disappointment while your friend yells at him before focusing back on whatever it was that you were doing together before their brother walked in. the phantom feeling of his hand in your hair stays with you the rest of the night.
and mingi… god hes like the best friend that you dont realize youre in love with until one day you look at him while hes doing something dumb like he always does (this time its a special animal themed race between him and some other friends and oh god he chose giraffe and oh god why do i think that that is so endearing) and its all you can do to just. smile and wave boys, smile and wave… and like yeah you arent subtle so your entire friend group, the people at the smoothie place, and god know but like… hes not the most observant about that sort of thing when it comes to you so its fine bc you arent going to screw this up and you are gonna keep the friendship the same. even if it means that you have to fight the heat rising to your face whenever he throws his arm around your shoulders and pulls you to his side to use you as support while he laughs at something yunho says
san is The Crush. the one that you have where you pine from afar and become a stuttering blushy mess who suddenly is the clumsiest person on earth when he talks to you. and you try to find something bad about him to dislike so you can get over him but hes just??? so nice???? he held the door for like 15 people and youre just sitting in the quad like bro??? angel perhaps???? and then you see him do something just. so cringe that you’re like oikay so we’re done with that crush then. but secretly you still think about walking with him under the autumn colored leaves holding his hand bc he has dimples and when he smiles his eyes scrunch up and oh no maybe you arent over him maybe you do still think about kissing him under a cherry blossom tree in the moonlight while petals fall softly to the ground around you both but it’s f i n e everything is f i n e
jongho is the steady crush. the type of crush that you have on someone when youre in like middle school and you liked him last year and over the summer your feelings hadn’t gone away even though you only bump into him and his family at the grocery store every once in a blue moon and you only interact through likes on instagram. but like you still feel steady about it. like you arent losing your feelings bc after all, distance makes the heart grow fonder. but when you rush into your homeroom for back to school night to claim a desk and set your supplies in the closet you see him and you greet each other with a bright smile and a shy hug before your friends drag you away to put your notebooks and folders and binders in your lockers. you look over your shoulder as you go and his smile is still there and you go to sleep later that night filled with hope. after all, he did claim the desk next to yours
yeosang is definitely the type of crush that you develop on someone bc you take the same transit route in the morning or you always see him at the same time in the coffee shop in the afternoon with his same order. its not super serious, just a passing fancy right? but you cant help the pang of sadness you get when you sit on the bus and he isnt there. or when you walk into the coffee shop and your eyes stray to his regular seat in the middle of the shop, right next to the display of whatever type of promotion is happening that month, and its filled instead by a mother and her daughter. and so you leave the shop, drink in hand and without your usual croissant bc of course theyre sold out on the day you dont see your schedule buddy. but that next morning, bus unusually crowded for a thursday, if he sits next to you, or if the seat across from him is the only one in the cafe and he offers it to you on a rainy wednesday afternoon and you meet his eyes and oh… his smile is breathtaking…
wooyoung and you arguing is nothing new. walking into the courtyard at 13:20 and not hearing your voices rising and echoing off of the buildings surrounding you is a rare occurrence. it doesnt cause alarm to anyone who knows you both, the arguments are rarely about anything serious. things like whether or not choco mint is a valid flavor (it is but its cute to see him get so passionate about an ice cream flavor so you argue against it. please dont tell hwa and joong. they think youre on their side and buy you ice cream that isnt choco mint flavored whenever you want and you cannot lose that access to free food) but anyways. wooyoung is the type of crush that is a grown up version of “accidentally” kicking your crush’s leg from where you’re sitting behind them or when you toss them a pen instead of handing it over like a normal person bc you cant let them know you like them cant they just read your mind instead??? and thats what you have with him. you know how to talk to him instead of shouting, and you have ! on several occasions!! but… shouting is easier. its less likely that youre gonna slip up and say something about your true feelings. and if seeing him breathing heavily in his black t-shirt that fits just right is a consequence of the arguing? well then. i guess youre just gonna have to deal with it.
hongjoong is the inevitable crush. the one where you know from the minute you meet his eyes and introduce yourself that you will end up liking him. he’s just that kind of person. hes so passionate and cares so much about people. the people around him, of course, but he cares about the random person on the street who accidentally apologizes to the mailbox. is he kinda intimidating when he focuses all of his attention on you as if what youre saying is the most important thing to him even when you’re just asking him what he got for question 8 because you didn’t understand the question and you’re pretty sure the prof hates you so theres no way youre going to ask him and you stop to take a breath and his dark brown eyes are focused on you and you lose your train of thought and just end up going … so yeah…? its the type of crush where you tell yourself that it doesnt mean anything. hes a polite person, hed lend anyone his jacket when theyre shivering. he would grab a water for anyone if they asked him while he was leaving to get himself a drink. it shouldnt set your heart fluttering when you see him pet a dog and procure dog treats out of thin air and offer it to the dog after getting the owner’s permission. you know you definitely go starry eyed at him a good amount of the time youre around him. and you know hes not funny when hes doing it on purpose. but you cant help the small giggle that comes out after he tells you the punchline of his cold joke. seeing his toothy grin and smiling eyes is worth anything.
yunho is the crush you feel came literally out of your dreams. the crush you dont believe is true bc no one is that sweet, that handsome, that kind, that, well, everything! hes the summer romance crush, picking you up at the beach and pretending to toss you into the water before spinning you around but trips and takes the both of you down into the water. but hes also the autumn love where he takes your hand in his and puts it in his jacket pocket, smiling cheekily when you hide your face in his arm. hes the romantic lead you always loved but also the second lead you always wanted. you dont dream of kissing him under the moonlight. you dream of kissing him on a sunny day in the shade of your favorite tree at the park with the sound of people laughing and kids playing and dogs barking that all fade into the background when his hand touches your cheek. hes the kind of crush that you still have even after youve been together for a while. he doesnt set your heart skipping and flopping around. he makes you feel calm, centered, at home. because thats who he is to you. home.
