Words Mean Everything

Just one man's contribution to the writing community. Sci-Fi & Fantasy Stories, Fan Fiction and Poetry.

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I'm out of time. I'm out of want. I'm out of cares. I'm out of fucks to give. The words smeared on a page, ink like blood on a blurry canvas where you used to be the background. I stare at the blankness and bleakness of the pages of life before me and tear them from the book. Cast them onto the wind for them to blow away. Cannot stop the pages I cannot stop time. Don't worry, if I keep saying it, one day I'll believe it. I'm fine. Smile hard, smile true. The only one you can trust to let you down is you. #writing #mywriting #wordsmeaneverything #poetry #feelings #hidetherealme #smilelikeyoumeanit

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Dancing at the station, smiling on the outside. Dying on the inside, hiding the fragile glass bubble that is my heart. I tried to mend it but I had no glue, I tried to sew it together but all I thought of was you. Don't look too deep, my shell is poorly covered and it may break. Smiles on the outside don't look beneath. #writing #poetry #feelings #mywriting #wordsmeaneverything #thoughts #hideallthatiam

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Forever forgotten, forever left behind. Man down, the soldier left behind enemy lines. Forever a slave to a heart that often speaks, forever a submissive, to a soul that often weeps. Always the wanderer on shores you left behind, always the discarded treasure waiting for someone else to find. I've given up the hope that you will ever once be mine, I'm clearly the diamond glass, that's lost it's tempered shine. #wordsmeaneverything #writing #mywriting #poetry #poems #feelings #neverenough

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The land sundered, torn apart by violent shakes as heaven and earth collide together. Self doubt creeps in at every angle and I no long see myself in the mirror, just the blurred haze of past memories. I often think of her, the fading twilight of the moon forever eclipsed and ever out of reach. Like an arrow chasing the target I am a breeze chasing the leaf, forever to want and never to have. #wordsmeaneverything #writing #heart #feelings #mywriting #poetry #doesnthavetorhyme

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Those days where you just want to shut out the world. Where one careless comment pushes you towards an unseen edge. Where one relationship ends with nothing more than a shut door. Where the turmoil begins and you question every word you said and wonder if you should have said more. Forever looking towards the horizon but no destination in sight. A train running on unseen rails, in the cold dead of night. #wordsmeaneverything #writing #mywriting #sorrow #heartbeat #feelings

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Looking at life yet not seeing anything. No directions and no roads to choose from. No guiding star to chart my course and no road signs on an ocean of uncertainty. But I am what I have always been, on my own. I don’t need you, I never did. Forever searching for a star and a new horizon, darkest before the dawn I carry a torch I’ll shine my own light. #mywriting #wordsmeaneverything #writing #motivationalquotes #motivational #cantstopwontstop (at Paisley, Renfrewshire)

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When you lie staring at the ceiling in the darkness realising that the only thing you can hear and feel is the sound of your own heart screaming in your own chest. Reaching across the bed but only cold empty covers. If loneliness were a blanket I could wrap myself in it one hundred fold. #writing #poetry #mywriting #wordsmeaneverything #rambling

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I hate you. Your poisonous, the relationship between us two broke down years ago and I don't even recognise you anymore. But I can do without you, I'm not listening anymore. That's right! Shut the door and every time you rise to put me down and drag me under with you I'm just gonna smile and keep swimming. You no longer have any hold on me. Just a reflection in the mirror I see you but no longer listen. Reflections of self doubt, no longer haunt me. #writing #mywriting #selfdoubt #forgiveyourself

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Exert from current writing. “”The creature was huge, bright red eyes behind an almost beastial Neanderthal skull, that evolution had skipped to evolve, it's long hair was carefully braided and well maintained, it bore multiple tattoos and brandings showing an almost tribal nature but its size was dominating. Laith was no small man standing nearly 6 feet tall, however the orc's stature dwarfed Laith, its arms the thickness of his human counterparts legs and just as strong. It's fanged teeth protruded from its mouth as the lips curved into a cruel smile, it's voice was gutteral as it mouthed the common tongue of the human with some degree of difficulty, "Here, to meet death Human? Then let me introduce you!”” #story #writing #mywriting #orcs #fantasy #fantasyart

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Getting weird looks at the train station. Ok so I’m dancing on the platform. Big deal :) I’m in a good mood listening to the last bits of my workout play list. #doingsillystuff #music #postworkout #dance #idontcare #idontcareifpeoplestare (at Glasgow Central Station)

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Next line? Our next line is a blank page. Unwritten and un thought of. I have no more ink to give you, my words poured out like blood on a page that you never read. Open my veins for another drop but only dust and sand exists. The future is crumpled, words pail and I am nothing but a blank page. #writing #mywriting #wordsmeaneverything #writingcommunity #wordsforme #believe #motivateyourself #keepbreathing

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In a life without purpose I have no guiding star. No one to help me chart my course, stumbling in the darkness reaching for the hope of light. I shall walk this path alone, cause I’ve always been alone. Funny thing to be a stranger in a crowd of people. Dismiss me all you like, when you turn to find me I’m not there. You cannot see me cause there is nothing left to see. #writing #mywriting #wordsmeaneverything #poetry #writingcommunity #wordsforme #feelit #believe #believeinyourself

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But you can’t stop me. I am a leaf on the wind. Discarded yesterday but floating away from you onto new horizons. I don’t need you, truth is I never did. Want and need, two different concepts on the same coin, so now I choose to spend my energy elsewhere. I am a leaf on the breeze not Holden to you I float onto pastures new. #mywriting #writing #emotive #wordsmeaneverything #motivationalquotes #floaton #leafonthewind

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I question everything. Am I worth nothing. Just another scrap on the wind, carried by an uncertain wind. You discard me like an unwanted skin, held so close for the briefest of moments and then cast aside. Without words or without warning. #mywriting #wordsmeaneverything #imokay #poetry #emotive #writing

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Don’t focus on what other people see. Cause I can’t even focus on me. I just can’t see past what you’ve done. Treat me like a stranger, an outcast, no one. I wish I could get you, out of my head. Cast my feelings aside, put my hurt to bed. You ghost me, shun me, and push me away. In the shadows I sit, in the darkness I’ll stay. With eyes sealed tight shut, I’ll change myself. Your no longer needed, I’m not on the shelf. The time will come soon when your not in my head. Those feelings gone, they are withered and dead. #writing #mywriting #wordsmeaneverything #motivation #betterme #idontneedyou

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Cracking into this early and contemplating what a year it has been. I wish all my friends and family a wonderful New Year and May 2018 be everything you want, hope and wish for. I’ve made changes to myself and I’ll continue that journey. Remember the destinations not important it’s the journey that counts. Love you all :) #newyearseve #newyear #motivation #family #friends #christmas #writing #mywritting #wordsmeaneverything

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You trod on my dreams, and dismisses me in kind. You abandoned the parts of me you couldn’t steal, you left them behind. But I no longer see myself as your punching bag, the toy solder you play with when your feeling bad. I’ve had enough of you and cast off my shadow, and shed my disguise. Like a Phoenix reborn, from flame and ash I rise. #wordsmeaneverything #mywriting #nofilteronlife #itsoktonotbeok #idontneedyouineverdid