Did you catch how SOFTLY Bellamy says Clarke's name in that last scene with them??? Tbh that was more telling than the whole unfinished "If I don't see you again..." confession. What was your take on that epic glorious scene?
The way Bellamy says Clarke’s name is actually the first thing that caught my attention about that scene - it’s so soft and serious and when he turned to face her I thought for a second that maybe he was going to hug her.
The whole scene was incredible, right from the very first exchange:
“I’m going to take the rover back to camp.” “Octavia?”“Pathetic, isn’t it? She hates me but I keep coming back for more.”
As always, Clarke knows exactly what’s on Bellamy’s mind. This is the third time this season she’s picked up on his worry over his sister and tried to assuage it with words of encouragement. And Bellamy’s words are so telling (and heartbreaking): Clarke is the only person in the entire world he would admit this to. She’s the only person he allows himself to crack around.
This whole scene is just a culmination of things that have been building throughout the episode. Bellamy’s fear of time running out with feelings (both in regards to his sister and Clarke) unresolved; Clarke’s growing ability to accept and return love (the scene with Niylah and the scene with Kane); how well they understand each other even without words being spoken (”Octavia?”, “Being Clarke", their teamwork while in different vehicles to kill the Azgeda warrior).
So, in my opinion, “she’ll see how special you are" is an admission on Clarke’s part as to how she feels about Bellamy (since, as I’ve pointed out before, L/xa is the last person Clarke called canonically special). And Bellamy gets this; he understands (at least in part) the importance of what Clarke was trying to say.
And I think Bellamy had already been considering telling Clarke how he feels, possibly ever since he found out Octavia was “dead” and realized up close and personal that you don’t actually know when the last time you see someone will be. But hearing her tell him he’s special only solidifies his desire to do this; you can see him process her words, think about what they mean, and then come to a decision.
The way he says her name reminds me of how he said it in 2.16, when he was pleading with her to stay; of course, this time he’s the one leaving but the emotional weight behind the word is the same. This is a personal confession on Bellamy’s part, one with a high emotional cost.
How was he going to finish his sentence? I don’t know. But it honestly doesn’t matter, because you don’t frame words to someone like they’re the last you’ll ever say unless you’re about to tell them something damn important. As a hypothetical: if you could tell the most important person in the world to you something because you know you’ll never see them again, what would you say?
(You tell them how much you love them, of course. You tell them what exactly they mean to you. And if you happen to be in love with that person and know you might not get another chance–)
And Clarke knows this. The majority of the episode focuses on how well she understands Bellamy; of course she knows what he was going to say. And she stops him not because she’s not ready to hear it (imo), she stops him because the idea of saying goodbye to Bellamy is one she doesn’t want to contemplate. This whole season, while Bellamy’s been accepting the very real possibility that they might not save themselves, Clarke’s been absolutely determined that they’ll save everyone, to the point where she lies to herself and shuts what other people are saying out. (At some point, Clarke is going to come to the same realization Bellamy has, which is that they might not save everyone or even themselves, and then…)
In addition to that, Clarke is used to people telling her they love her as a goodbye. And usually shortly after that sentiment is expressed, the person in question dies. So she’d be understandably reluctant, to say the least, to hear those words from Bellamy.
And Bellamy is willing to respect her wishes (personally, I never got the vibe that Roan stopped him from finishing his sentence. Clarke did that, and once she said “No” he wasn’t going to continue). You can see his lips purse–he’s not happy about not telling her, which is why I think he might say it next time they see each other. Especially if stuff happens in 4.07 and 4.08 to make them even more aware of their mortality.
All in all an A+ scene, an undeniable turning point in their relationship that I fully expect to build into something even more rewarding somewhere down the line.
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