always tired

sw: 177 , cw: 168 , gw: 140 ugw: 120

[mclennonyaoi]

everyday i wake up and i go “god i’m so tired. i can’t do this anymore.” and then i get up and i continue to do it

[midnightinjapan]

[twoheadedfawnn]

you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they’re gonna find out

[choysum]

[harmony-unfortunately]

i hate eating but also hate not eating. I don't eat and I'm not hungry but I'm exhausted and dizzy and depressed but then I eat and I get a hunger pang

I literally ate 32g of protein 405 calories and an apple why am I hungry when I wasn't hungry before I ate??

[clean-nicotine]

my work is saying they're getting food from Charley's for us....pls tell me why the only calorie safe meal is a loaded potato soup. WHY is a basic salad over 1000 calories??? are they injecting the lettuce with LARD????

[clean-nicotine]

TW: mentions of depression///vent

those days where the depression feels so physical- like I can almost FEEL a slow tug deep in my soul-its so crippling.

I don't know how I'm expected to just show up to work and act like everything is normal.

It feels like I'm barely keeping my head above water, sounds I hear being muffled from the waves. I'm just so tired, my thoughts are so irrational and all consuming, I'm so exhausted.

[starvingdoll03]

Feeling full makes me feel dirty and disgusting

[clean-nicotine]

morning skinny is the best motivation to wake up to I swear

like why would I want to ruin how I look just because I'm hungry?

let's keep these good vibes goingggg WHOOOO!!

[randomgirl162]

kate moss inspo <3

[clean-nicotine]

just tried on my swim suits for the first time for this summer……hey!! why did i do that!!!

[clean-nicotine]

whhhyyyy are the last few hours of a fast so difficult?? i can handle the hunger, its the BRAIN FOG that gets me. i feel like im floating and just cant focus on ANYTHING

[ch3rrycokel0vr]

— thinspo —

[clean-nicotine]

my belly feels soooo flat rn, even tho fasting hurts the longer I go i LOOOOOVEEE the emptiness in my stomach

[clean-nicotine]

starting my day with black coffee w a little sugar free sweetener. so far I'm on hour 19 of my fast, gonna go till 24 hours probably. I might push it a little farther tho who knows. I have a salad packed for lunch today in case I wanted to break my fast at the 24 hour mark.

I'm hanging out w my bf later today and its gonna be a little difficult to restrict around him bc i feel like he'll notice, i rlly hate making him worry :(

any tips would be appreciated other than the "im just not hungry"

[fox-needs-000]

This shit was easier as a teenager. Now I'm 24, still sick and need to work clean cook maintain relationships and do like a million other things while worrying about not being thin enough.

Just prove that this shit stays with you forever.

[clean-nicotine]

fr tho like having this disorder as a 14-17 yr old was a walk in the park bc i had no REAL problems or responsibilities yet.

In the end I never actually got better, I just got distracted.

[st1tch-th3se-w0unds]

the dog in me when i don’t lose 40 lbs overnight

[an-epil0gue-of-youth]

Man, I do not like myself at all.

Fucking cringe, rude, hypocritical piece of shit.

[edit: and selfish! I forgot selfish.]

[ash-onthe-edge]

fuck recovery. im over it. coming back once again

[clean-nicotine]

me rn, i always end up coming back no matter how much i try to convince myself im healed