all the lives i lived in the lyrics of songs
you took me to your best friends house showed me the round about(tongue tied grouplove)
walking in the cemetery at 3 am(fool Cavetown)
watching the sunset with you cause we cant speak cause we're too bored to(are you bored yet wallows)
im the motel boy that sees you come to the same place with a new person every once in a while and have sort of loving you too.(motels royel otis)
indecisive in my bedroom knowing you're online and if i should call you or not( can i call you tonight dayglow)
being in my house where i hate my folks, thinking about you who died, but still feel you around me (visitor omam)
smoking a cigarette under streetlights, far from where you live, trying not to think of you but I never come close to doing it (7 catfish and the bottlemen)
being middle aged, having a partner and kids and hitting a niche but zoning out often to the past lovers and how life would've been with them(in another life the killers)
going clubbing so often, to drink dance and sleep with strangers to fill the void but the hollow only grows deeper( habits tove lo, perfect places lorde)
living in mediaeval times, finding your royal princess crush and romanticizing things with historic references(past lives borns)
feeling fucked up and helpless about your addictions to substance, but realising it often at afternoons after waking up to a hangover that I'll be on my own no matter what and it's okay to let shit be(die a little yungblud)
taking a whole day to climb a hill top by the city by myself and to watch people look small and insignificant and worthless and think about our existence and it's futility (pompeii Bastille)
waking up on a spring morning with my lover and going on a walk together seeing life around me, the grass, little kids and the dew sparkling bright on the grass blades(how beautiful life can be the lathums)
seeing an argument aggravate and go physical between my friend and another group and me clenching fists loading arma for a fight in public(sacrilege yeahyeahyeahs)
going to a club to drink and dance and instead ending up feeling all low and depressed(lazy eye sspu)
crashing into the dead end barriers at midnight , overspeeding blasting rockmetal(song for the dead qotsa)
shouting-being-shouted-at mad at partner, because of the failing falling marriage because nothing stays not even love and the kids hearing all that from their room(kissing families sspu)
spending another dark midnight locked up without actually being guilty and thinking about how wrong the world is and it'll never change(little dark age mgmt)
sprinting away from a trail in a forest you thought might've been haunted(the cure a forest)
being a simulation and waking up after death on here(lamb's wool foster the people)
hitting on the accelerator pedal as hard as one can while breaking down and feel oneself driving far away from the world(be quiet and drive deftones)
Coming back from rehab, feeling the sunshine and the grass like you did in your childhood and couldn't later cause you got lost in the haze and the bright lights(empty nest sspu)
all the work oppression acervating to the day it all comes out, you land two on your boss's face right on and walk out the office and when he rushes into his cubicle for napkins to stop the bleeding, sees your resignation letter on the table (killing in the name Rage against the machine)
busting w weed and then justifying saying that it isn't yours, it's for a friend (vignette twenty one pilots)
realising you've always felt some weird way since childhood that you couldn't really do justice to it and now you just often scream about it through songs alone in your room(smells like teen spirit nirvana)
tearing down all the posters and photos of yourself from the wall in your room because you dissociated recently and it's just been pricking you and you scream in your room and scratch at the walls doing it and they bleed( you know you're right nirvana)
busting with weed but it isn't your first time so you're more chill about it and js know that you're cooked anyway so you just play this song in the car with the fuvkass cop innit and take your vape out (have you ever seen the rain - ccr)
waking up on the sunlit wet grass with alcohol and ash in your mouth, having no clue of what happened last night and tryna walk back home limping cause you're injured in a drunk fight and passed out((joe gets kicked out of school for using) drugs with friends - cshr)
doin laundry(instant crush - daftpunk Casablancas)
walking in into, a venue , a competition ( swerve city - deftones)
winning and walking out(radiant city - deftones)
when it's all burnt to ashes and fading away and then you look at everything else around you and see that nothing's really changed, it never really did(not - big thief)
raging within is raging too. (digital bath acoustic - deftones)
Going through a mist ladden forest on a bicycle.(Blurred view - big thief)
Being me tonight, because tonight feels lower than the usual, the way you fail to reason your way out of grief.(Bitches broken hearts billie eilish)
Grieving to lost connections (hearts/wires - deftones)
Hitting the gas pedal so hard, just to crash on the blind turn(bitches brew - crosses)
Intermission in bw a horror movie literally(intermission - tool)
Waking up to realising a memory that isn't yours at all( butterfly caught - massive attack)
