I don’t even know any minors irl to do something like this lol. It’s the bitter discord kids spreading weird rumors about me. I have a whole ADULT boyfriend. All my friends are 21+ and I know no minors to SA in the first place. These are honestly hilarious. All this over a BAN in a DELETED server is crazy. Anyway, linking the evidence below. I honestly never thought they’d say something so disgusting. But can’t put anything past weirdos. Seek mental help guys. Genuinely. This is really disturbing. I literally tried to never talk about them and leave them alone. I wish they’d do the same for me. But they are incapable. Idc that they are minors. You can’t possibly think I’d be okay with this. Or that I wouldn’t defend myself. You should be embarrassed.
Video evidence and the doc me and my mods made at the time debunking and explaining everything.
TikTok - Make Your Day
Quick document to clear up everything that's going on or that has happened. For starters, this all started after seirei started a server fo
Got one awhile ago too, saying they knew where I was and whatever. (Didn't get a screenshot of the first message they sent because they deleted it)
If you're going to send me threats or try to scare me. Stop deleting your messages before I can actually see them 😭 because at this point you got a crush on lil ol' me. Ps, yeah my name is Valeria. Name drop lore 🤤🤤
Anyways that's all, I am happy to be back!!! Currently obsessed with Gorillaz and Creepypasta
There has been a shit ton of hate going around after Wade posted again, clearing up the three different versions of Toby. I've seen a lot of people speak about it and wanted to speak up, too.
!! FIRST: !! This is all my opinion and what realistically/psychologically would make the most sense. I do not see how he would be abusive! Do not take this the wrong way and read the full thing before judging. I see where Wade is coming from with all of the current 'drama', but again, I don't see how Toby would actually be abusive. If you don't agree with me, that's okay. But hatred is not a way to "fight it".
Why was he suddenly turned into an abuser?
I don't even know where to start, so I'll jump right in. From all of the recent writing I've seen, it is very obvious Wade is expressing his harted towards Toby, which I can't judge him for. He's been through hell and back, dealing with endless harassment, death and rape threats on a daily basis, and that since he was what, 13-14? Which is insane. A decade of pure hatred over creating a character, mind you.
Maybe he wants to make Toby unlikable, so people finally leave him alone & stop using him as much, considering they romanticize serial killers and turned Toby into a "shy twink thats edgy and depends on [any other crp hes shipped with]". I'm not saying it's wrong to headcanon him as shy or anything, it's just what people turned him into in general - Innocent. I wouldn't want my vent & serial killer OC to be turned into an innocent puppy that wouldn't harm a fly, either.
Missing Depth:
From the newer versions, Toby's soft side is missing, in my opinion. The one that makes him human and got so many people attached to him. He has a tragic backstory and carries a lot of depth/emotion. From the conversations I had with Wade, I can only assume he took that side away due to, once again, hatred towards the character. A character he created to express himself with that has been ripped away from him. Since seemingly that soft side is missing in Wade's eyes, he turned Toby even colder, even more sadistic and even more selfish.
His intentions were never to romanticize abuse nor to turn Toby into someone that beats his partner or anything - He wanted people to understand that Toby's a horrible person. Since him being a serial killer, sociopath and sadist clearly didn't help, maybe he added the abuse part as an "emergency solution", desperate hopes of making others understand.
And before anyone jumps me for putting the word sociopath in there, I'm diagnosed with it myself. I don't have experience with romantic relationships, but plantonic ones are already very hard to keep, so I know that romantic/sexual ones will be an even bigger struggle for sociopaths, sadly.
From what he told me when I asked about how Toby is in relationships, he mentioned Toby wouldn't necessarily be physically abusive (Which I would've never assumed anyway LOL). I think it's important to mention that, since physical abuse is the first thing people think of when that word gets dropped on them. NOT saying the other types of abuse aren't as bad: THEY ARE. Any type of abuse is horrible.
Why he wouldn't be abusive in my opinion:
I can see how Toby would be a terrible boyfriend; He lacks empathy, he's selfish, he's sadistic, craves dominance and constantly needs his fragile ego to be stroked. But abuse is a strong word for him. Toxic, ya. Intentionally abusive, no. He wouldn't harm anyone he's fond of. He was highly protective over his sister & mother and lived as an literal punching bag for YEARS just to keep them save. Not to mention that even possessed under Slenderman, he still tried to refuse when it came to killing his father. The person he hated with a passion and would never ever want to be like.
Past relationships:
He would 100% need to learn how to keep a relationship healthy, needs a LOT of reassurance and communication - so the first few weeks of him getting into a relationship might be rough. He's a stubborn bastard. Toby would most likely try to be tender (as much as he can, at least) in his own way. So, still shitty but willing to adapt.
He used to be canonically in a healthy relationship with Clockwork, too, so why would he realistically suddenly switch into an abuser? Again, it's most likely a desperate attempt of getting people to drop Toby & expressing his own hatred towards him. In ways that don't make sense. Toby was touchy, caring and sweet, which still suits his character to this day, in my eyes.
Little side note to TicciWork; NOT an appreciated ship lol. It's a victims vent oc x the predators oc. The ship started irking me out once I found out about Clockworks creator being a rapist. I would never ship a rapists & pedophiles OC x a victim's OC, it's morally wrong and fucked up in so many ways. Imagine going online and seeing your trauma OC being shipped with a horrible person's self insert.
Back to Toby; He is canonically caring of fond ones. Still sadistic, until their wounded in a serious way. Then, even Toby takes em serious. That proves against the abuse part, too.
Canon or Not?
Now please note, the abuse part is only in WADE'S AU! It is not necessarily canon! It's the version he has in his head, that's it. He never pushed it onto someone or tried to get people to make Toby abusive. In fact, he mentioned Toby not being a rapist or someone who physically hurts his partner on DA. So no, it's not canon. You do not have to use the abuse part or be reminded of it when thinking of Toby.
Main problem:
The main problem with Toby being abusive is younger fans that ship their OC with Toby hearing about it. They might think it's normal, or worse, romanticize it & get abused in their future. HOWEVER: This is the CREEPYPASTA FANDOM. They (the characters) are all fucked up in the head. They are murderers and evil shits, roughly said. No one young enough to think "abuse = good" should be in this fandom or on the internet in general. Not talking about people that have been abused and genuinely don't know what abuse even is. It is the parents duty to take care and watch over their children. Control what media they consume. Kids should not be in this type of fandom. I used to know someone that developed an literal gore addiction because of it.
Yes, a lot of people are attached to Toby and don't want to view him as an abuser, so I can only repeat: It's not canon. He's not an abuser. His old versions have been the opposite of an abuser and it's only in Wade's AU, which he doesn't even work on or expand. He's not in the fandom anymore.
What I do see is Wade being upset with people calling him "boyfriend material" or turn him into a fetishized yaoi sex character. Nothing against male x male ships, it's just people fetishizing gay relationships to get off to them, which is disgusting. Another leak hole of where his hatred came from.
Is all of this worth harassing Kastoway? NO. It's not. HIS OWN AU is HIS OWN AU. People literally asked him to share it. Pressured and forced, even. Do NOT harass Wade over a creation he clearly wants nothing to do with. Stick to your own headcanons, respect his boundaries and boom, life goes on.
In my AU, Blood Of Salvation, Toby isn't abusive. He struggles and doesn't want to empathize with people, except with fond ones. He would be unaware of how toxic he is at first, but communication and someone willing to help him heal changes that. So no to the abusive part, just a fragile dumbass with a high ego that needs to learn how relationships work due to his lack of experience. This is me trying to keep him as canon as possible & adjusting him a bit to my liking.
Another sidenote: when I call myself "irl ticci toby", I EXCLUDE the abuse and murder part!
This fandom is dying out anyway, so is Tumblr, so I don't get why people bother hating on creations they don't need to use. Stick with whatever you view Toby as, as long as it doesn't go against boundaries. After all, it's still someone's vent character.
Sorry if this is messy, I just started yapping and typing out my thoughts without caring about some order or organizing it.
I might edit it, but very very roughly said: I don't agree with the abuse part, see where Wade is coming from and think all of the harassment is fucking stupid
Genuinely, I feel like Katsoway shouldn't have reached out or been in communication with Plague. Katsoway has spoken out a lot about how much hate they had gotten while being in the fandom, but talks to Plague who is very well known for doing the same thing.
I cannot be serious reading this post knowing it was written by Plague because it's just hypocritical. Katsoway either should've done more research on who they were talking to or don't care what Plague has done. (Which they should because honestly, they know what it's like being harassed by others). Posted the Document so people can read.
Also being a minor isn't an excuse either.
Last updated: 9/11/2025 Document Masterlist on Creepypasta | Blood of Salvation. (If you are on mobile, it is better to read this doc from
Cold autumn sunlight poured into the room through the window.
Toby snores loudly as he sleeps, Sebastia leaning forward in her chair with her hands under her head is sleeping on the edge of the bed Toby was laying in.
They had fallen asleep while talking together.
Sebastia slowly opens her eyes, her gaze landing on Toby. Sebastia’s heart pounds with fear. It felt wrong to be so close to him. This moment wasn’t intimate at all. At least it wasn’t supposed to be. They had just happened to fall asleep. They weren’t touching. They weren’t even next to each other in the same bed. Most of Sebastias body was still on the chair.
Sebastias heart pounds faster, looking at Toby. She thinks about how he touched her yesterday during training. She knows it’s not intimate. None of this is. It’s not supposed to be. But she remembers the contact. How dirty she feels. How happy she feels. Even though she has this underlying fear of him for many reasons, she finds herself wanting to be around him.
Maybe it’s because he’s one of the only people in this place she knows. Maybe it’s because he saved her life multiple times already. Even though Toby was pretty mean to her, he still takes care of her in a way. And she loves it. Maybe she’s becoming too attached to him already.
She curses herself. Getting attached to a man so quickly is how she ended up here in the first place. But since she’s already here, does it matter anymore? Should she just let herself get attached?
Sebastia watches as his chest rises and falls. She thinks about their interactions. Every word they’ve exchanged.
Toby probably doesn’t want to be attached to her. At least not the way Sebastia would want to be attached to someone.
No. It’s a stupid thought. Of course he doesn’t want to be attached to her. He’s so upfront about how he feels. He blatantly called her ugly the first time they met. He expressed how annoying he finds her especially during her breakdowns and lashing out.
The saddest part is that she can’t blame him.
Sebastia thinks back to her old life. How cheery and social she was. How kind she was. How naive she was. Even with her low self esteem, she was normal. It feels like a lifetime ago. It feels like a different person.
If Toby had met the old Sebastia would they have been friends? Would he be less annoyed by her? Or would things turn out the same as now?
Does Toby even like her now? He insults her but also helps her. He said she’s “not bad company” but that can be said for almost anyone. Does he care about her? Does soneone like him have the ability to do that?
No. It’s only been a few short days. What was she thinking? Why was she thinking about this? Why did she care? This was a temporary place to stay until she was cured and could get back to her old life and leave this behind. Pretend this all never happened. Yeah. That’s what she wants. That’s all she could hope and pray for.
She looks at Toby again, his snoring subsiding temporarily.
Sebastia leans forward over him putting her face close to his. Her long jet black hair falling over her shoulder. She didn’t know why she’s doing it. Her heart is pounding. She’s terrified. Her heart is pounding. She wants more. Her heart is pounding. She hates herself.
This isn’t intimate. None of this is. But Sebastia wants it to be. And she’s disgusted by it.
Even after everything she’s been through, nothing has changed. It’s even worse than before. Clinging to the first person that shows her a bit of kindness. Wanting to be wanted. Wanting to be needed.
All of the feelings that got her here.
Her somewhat soft and thoughtful look fades into one of disgust and hatred as she looks upon Toby’s sleeping face that she’s still centimeters from.
“I hate you. For making me feel this way.” She whispers.
Sebastia doesn’t mean that.
“I should kill you. You think I’m annoying anyway. Think im ugly anyway. You’re going to get tired of me and kill me anyway. You’re going to hurt me anyway. I should kill you before you destroy me.”
Sebastia didn’t even realize it, but she was on all fours hovering over him as he laid in bed.
This isn’t intimate. This isn’t romantic. She needs it to be. She needs it now. She needs to be needed.
Sebastia is hovering over him centimeters away from his face. Her heart is pounding. She’s almost touching him. The feeling is disgusting. The feeling is wonderful. She’s disgusting. She’s wonderful. Toby’s disgusting. Toby’s wonderful.
Toby’s eyes snap open. Looking straight into Sebastias. Their faces still centimeters apart.
Sebastia’s eyes widen in shock and fear. Not even fully aware of what she’s doing. She stares back into his.
“Sebastia.”
“Yes…”
“What the hell are you doing?”
“I uh-“
The door opens. The two look at the person in the doorway.
It’s a woman that Sebastia doesn’t know. A woman Toby seems to know all too well.
The woman squints her eyes at the sight in disapproval.
“Hey, Nat.” Toby says awkwardly.
“Hi…” Sebastia says uncomfortably as she’s now been caught by two people.
“Hello.” The woman called Nat speaks.
Sebastia was still frozen hovering over him, unsure what of what to do. So she quickly gets off of him, standing next to the bed.
Toby watches as Sebastia moves off him. He’s confused as to what that was, but is excited he has something new to make fun of her with. Toby was definitely never letting this go.
Toby stands next to her.
“This is Sebastia by the way. Weird girl I found in the forest, yadda yadda. Im sure word got around.”
“Oh? The Sebastia that put Jeff through the wall?”
“Yeah! That one!”
Sebastia looks away in embarrassment. This was humiliating on so many levels.
“Toby, I need to talk to you.”
“Yeah? About what?”
Nat looks at Sebastia asking for privacy, silently.
Sebastia quickly nods and leaves wanting to be out of there as soon as she could be.
“Toby.”
“Nat.”
“Natalie.”
“Damn you were serious about the name thing?”
“Yeah. I was.”
“Okay, Natalie. What do you need?”
“Do you think it’s a good idea to have that girl here?”
“Sebastia? Yeah. I brought her because she could be useful. Slenderman agreed. So what’s the issue?”
“She’s unstable.”
“So am I. So are you. So is everyone here. Again. The issue?”
“You know what I mean, Toby. What if she goes crazy and kills you one day? She seems…emotionally unstable.”
Toby raises his eye brows gives a sad smile.
“Go crazy and kill me, huh? Like you?”
“Stop. I’m sorry, okay? You know I didn’t want that. I’m just worried about you. I still care.”
“Yeah. I know.”
Toby says it sadly and dismissively.
“I mean it! I don’t want to see you get hurt, Toby!”
“I got it. I don’t need you to keep me in check anymore, okay? We’re not nineteen anymore.”
“I know. I just…look to put it bluntly, you make stupid decisions. I think this is one of them.”
“Nat-“
Toby sighs.
“Natalie. Trust me. I got it. I dealt with you. You know I can handle anything.”
Toby smiles reassuringly.
“I just don’t want her to throw you through a wall because you hurt her feelings is all.”
“If she tried, I would dodge it. You know how good I am.”
Natalie playfully roles her eye. Toby has always been so dismissive of danger. She’s almost glad to see nothing has changed. Even after everything the two of them had been through.
“Are you and her…a thing?”
“Me and Sebby? No.”
“You already have a nickname for her?”
“Her names too long. I’m not saying that every damn time.
“Oh? So she was just on top of you for fun?”
“I..don’t know what the fuck that was, honestly.”
“So my point is proven? She’s unstable?”
“I never said she wasn’t. She’s so unstable. She’s always falling apart. Always. She’s annoying. She’s confusing.”
Toby’s vents a little.
“I mean, the woman won’t even touch me. Or let me touch her, but then I wake up to her on top of me. But when I was on top of her it was a whole big issue that warranted a breakdown. I know she’s unstable. Believe me, I do.”
Toby runs a hand through his hair.
“But I trust her. I don’t think she’s actually going to hurt me. Or anything like that. If that’s what you’re worried about.”
“You were on top of her?” Natalie teases.
Toby’s eyes widen.
“Wait- not like that! We were training and I… pinned her to the ground? We were fighting and I-“
Natalie laughs. It felt like they were younger again, Natalie teasing him and making him kind of flustered. She felt happy at the fact that Toby was still himself around her. She was one of the few people he’d be fully vulnerable with. Natalie hopes that never changes, even though they both have.
“I’m messing with you.”
“Damn it, Nat, you know how you get me.”
“Sorry. Couldn’t help it.”
Natalie puts a hand on Toby’s shoulder.
“Look. I care about you, okay? And I don’t want to see you hurt or in danger. Well, not anymore than you already are. So please be careful.”
“I got you. I’ll be fine. I promise.”
Toby smiles reassuringly.
“Now. I gotta go find unstable Sebastia, and have a hilarious conversation.”
Toby puts on a black tee shirt and leaves.
“Later, Nat.”
Toby walks down the hallway.
Natalie watches him leave, a concerned look on her face.
“Later, Tobes…”
Sebastia aimlessly wandered the halls luckily not running into anyone, thinking about how embarrassed she was.
‘Oh god what’s wrong with me?! Why’d I do that?!’
Was all she can think. Her thoughts were cut off by a door with her name on it.
“What?” She said out loud, not even noticing she said it.
She reaches for the handle, nervously.
‘Well if something does happen, I could scream loud enough and Toby would find me….No! I can do this without him! It’s a damn door!’
Sebastia reassures herself, opening the door and closing it behind her. She looks around the room.
“Huh….weird. This would’ve been my dream room when I was a teenager.”
Posters of emo bands, a plaid black and grey bed set, a large cartoony skull rug on the dark wooden floors. Warm fairy lights hung on the ceiling. Ab acoustic guitar in the corner. CDs on a black shelf. A black desk with a simple lamp.
She loved it in here.
“Hello.”
Sebastia gasps and turns around as her mouth gets quickly covered.
It’s Jane.
“I found you like you told me to.”
Her voice is low and quiet, it’s relaxing, even in this context.
Jane releases Sebastias mouth.
“Oh my god! I wasn’t expecting you to be here so soon!” Sebastia locks the door.
“Yeah? Well, couldn’t keep you waiting for answers.”
“How’d you even get in here?!”
“I have my ways. Enough of that though, let’s get to the Q&A.”
Jane sits on the bed, patting the spot near her.
Sebastia walks over and sits.
“I suppose I’ll start. Listen closely, Sebastia I’ll give you all the information I know. Hopefully that will get a majority of your questions out of the way.”
Sebastia nods. Jane crosses her arms and begins to speak.
“From what I gathered, you were unwillingly put through the Miracle Cell expirements that were part of the G.O.D project. Before you escaped, you were for eight months. The G.O.D project is an offshoot of the project I was a part of. And they share the same goal, essentially. To make super soldiers.”
Jane closes her eyes, continuing to speak.
“I was injected with something called Liquid Hate, which gives me all the abilities you’ve seen thus far, along with my appearance. The Miracle Cells have altered your appearance as well, although yours isn’t nearly as drastic as mine. Until you summon that creature, you look pretty normal, besides your limbs of course. From the information I was told, the injection to your head and brain went “wrong.”
Jane opens her eyes and puts air quotes around wrong.
“That’s why you have all the tendrils coming out of your head instead of it taking over your body and brain completely. But if we had an x- ray machine right now, that creature inside you could be seen all over your insides. But not in the way you think. How can I explain this?”
Jane stays silent, thinking about the best way to explain.
“Basically your limbs are completely immune to pain, breaking, anything basically. But the parts of you that aren’t pitch black can still be hurt. However, it’s harder for you to die. The creature can heal you, in its own way. You’re more durable and stronger. That’s because it’s still in all of your body, just not as dense, like your limbs.
“Since you have a similar injection to mine, you share some of my abilities.”
Jane’s body gets covered in the black bulging veins, hovering her hand from Sebastia’s hand up to her arm, black veins forming under Sebastia’s skin.
“Yeah, just like I thought.”
“What does that mean?”
“That your abilities aren’t fully functioning right now, which leads me to my last point. You’re unfinished.”
“What?”
“The reason it hurts so bad when you summon the creature is because you’re unfinished. Your scalp is supposed to be pitch black, along with the rest of you. You obviously escaped so that didn’t happen. Besides, the injection went wrong anyway. It was meant to take over your body completely. Not shoot out of your head. I dont know why that happened.
“How do you know all this?”
“I’m not part of the people that did this to you, however, I’m from a faction that’s meant to take down killers and supernatural beings. I was given you as a target since you fit both of those descriptions.”
“Hey! I didn’t ask to be experimented on! I didn’t kill people for fun!”
“I know. What I wasn’t told is that you were unwilling to participate. At least with mine it was voluntary.”
Jane’s veins go back to normal.
“Any questions?”
“Do you know what this creature is?”
“No I don’t. No one at my faction knows either.”
“Then how did you make a suppressant for it?”
“We used Liquid Hate samples as a base, since they’re so similar. Yesterday was a test run basically. And it worked. The suppression lasts twenty four hours. You have about three left before you can summon the creature again.”
“So why didn’t you kill me?”
“I don’t see a reason to. my intel wasn’t one hundred percent accurate. You don’t seem like a bloodthirsty person, but someone who’s trying to survive. Don’t tell my faction though, I’m breaking a lot of rules.”
Sebastia nods.
“Is…there a cure?”
“It’s highly unlikely that there is. It’s basically embedded in all of you. Inside and out.”
“Is there not even a chance?!”
“You’d have to go to one of their labs. I can track it down for you.”
“There’s multiple?!”
“Of course. Speaking of which, you don’t know how to fight. I assume that’s why Toby was teaching you.”
Sebastia nods.
“I mention it because the scientists from those other labs are definitely going to hunt you down. It’s a good thing Toby found you before I did. Or before they found you. You’d either be captured or dead. You need to know how to fight. Especially because there is a suppressant for the creature. If they used it on you, you’d be completely defenseless. By the way has he taught you anything? He’s an idiot who can go too hard sometimes. He can’t feel pain so he expects everyone to keep up with him.”
“We tried yesterday but I’m really bad, then you came. So not a good day yesterday.”
“God, straight to hand to hand? Do you even know how to shoot a gun?”
Sebastia shakes her head.
“Damn it, Toby.”
Jane pulls out two guns handing them to Sebastia, who takes them, shocked.
“I- I can’t take these!”
“Yes you can. You’re holding them aren’t you?”
“I mean, I don’t know how to use these!”
“I know. That’s why I’m going to teach you.”
“You?! You’re going to help me?!”
“Don’t sound so surprised. I’m a much better teacher than Toby. Consider it an apology for trying to kill you.”
Sebastia looks down at the guns.
“What do you mean I’m not the first woman Toby has brought here?”
“Oh. His ex girlfriend Natalie was the first when he was about nineteen. She was eighteen, I think. It was many years ago. they were together until he was about twenty five. Then tragedy struck those two. Sad, really.”
“Ex…girlfriend?”
Sebastia was triple embarrassed now. Also intrigued about the tragedy that happened.
“Yeah? Why?”
“Jane I-“
Sebastia is cut off by the door handle rattling and knocking.
“Sebby? You in there?”
Jane and Sebastia recognize Toby’s voice.
Sebastia goes silent hoping he’ll go away.
“Sebastia unlock the door, I heard you talking to someone.”
“Damn it..”
Sebastia looks back at Jane, who has disappeared.
“What?!” She didn’t even hear Jane move.
“Sebastia, open the door we need to talk.”
Sebastia puts her head in her hands, not excited to talk about what happened this morning.
She goes to the door, unlocking it and opening it.
“Hey…Toby…”
“Hey. Who were you talking to?”
“No one. I was just talking to myself. Ha ha silly Sebastia..”
Toby squints his eyes. She’s a horrible liar.
“Oh really?”
“Mhm!”
Sebastia sits on the bed, trying to act natural.
“Since it’s just us, let’s talk then.”
Toby closes and locks the door.
Sebastia is sweating and her heart is pounding.
She bounces her leg anxiously. She’d rather be anywhere else but here.
Toby sits on the bed next to her.
“Sick room. Reminds me of mine. Mine is cooler though.”
“How is this room even here?”
“It’s weird, whenever there’s a new person comes, the house reads their mind for a few days and a new room just appears. This place is almost alive because it’s connected to Slenderman.”
“….Should I meet this Slenderman?”
“No.”
Toby’s face turns serious and his eyes get un naturally large and his brown irises vibrate.
Sebastia is looks back at him with wide eyes of her own.
Sebastia had never seen fear in his eyes before. So when it was there for the first time, it made her even more afraid. If Toby’s afraid that means she should be terrified.
Toby’s face goes back to normal just as quickly as the fear crossed it.
“Anyway, about this morning…”
“What about this morning?”
“You were on top of me.”
“No I wasn’t.”
“Yeah you were. We were face to face.”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Are you really gonna do this right now, Sebby?”
“Do what?”
“Fine. Guess I’ll go get Natalie to confirm what she saw.”
“No!”
“Oh? You ready to talk about it now?”
“…No”
“Too bad!”
Toby leans into Sebastia getting close to her face. With his actions came those feelings. The one of joy. The one of disgust. The one of craving. The one of wanting to be wanted.
“What? Uncomfortable?”
“No-yes- I don’t know!”
“Hm. Then why were you hovering over me? I’ll back up if you just be honest with me.
Toby wasn’t taking this seriously at all. He’s doing this to tease her and mess with her. Definitely never letting her live this embarrassing moment down.
“I…can’t tell you.”
“Why not? Do you not owe me an explanation?”
“I…don’t know why I did that. I don’t understand why.”
“Bullshit.”
“What?!”
“Don’t think about it too hard, just tell me. Let it spill out of your mouth. It’s the least you can do.”
Toby gets closer to her, messing with her, but also curious.
“I..you…look like someone. My ex boyfriend, Travis. He’s the one that put me in that lab in the first place. That could’ve set something off in me subconsciously. That and a bunch of other things. I’m not ready to talk about those feelings yet. I’m sorry, Toby. It won’t happen again.”
“I see…”
“Are you mad?”
“Nope. I have a question, though.”
“Yeah?”
“If I look like the guy who did this to you, why are you trusting me? Why’d you come with me so easily?”
“Well, I attacked you at first remember? In my scrambled , broken state of mind, I thought you were him. I thought…he’d come to take me back.”
Toby is still close to her. Sebastia looks him in the eyes as best as she can.
“Then I understood you weren’t him and I had no where to go, like I told you before. So when you offered to bring me here, if I trusted you or not, I had no choice.”
Toby almost feels guilt at this information. She escaped a man she once trusted, who lied to her and used her. Now Toby’s doing the same thing to her. Sebastia had no choice but to trust him and Toby still took advantage of her. She used her as a tool by someone she loved and trusted. Now Toby was using her for the same purpose. He tries to justify it with his next words. To say she had a choice. Like he wasn’t hiding the truth from her. Like this wasn’t his fault.
“Sure you did, you could’ve died out there if you wanted.”
“Toby, I’m serious! I’d be dead without you!”
“I know. I’m incredible, huh?”
Sebastia glares.
“Why aren’t you upset about this morning, Toby?”
“Because I know you’re weird. You were bound to do something weird. We both watched each other have breakdowns within days. Our relationship was bound to be weird from the start.”
Toby scoots a little closer to Sebastia as she hugs her knees on the bed.
“I think it’s only fair we forgive each other. I’m sure the weird interactions and watching each others breakdowns is going to become normal for us.”
“I..guess?”
“I’m so understanding, huh? You chose the right guy, Sebby.”
“Since when did I choose you?”
“Since I saved you in the forest and you never left my side.”
“You came to me most of the time!”
“You could’ve told me to go away anytime. Want me to go away, Sebby?”
Toby jokes.
Sebastia thought about it seriously though. Maybe it’s best if he’s not around so she doesn’t feel these confusing feelings. But without him she couldn’t make sense of this place or the people in it. She’s left bad impressions on almost everyone else. Sebastia knows she needs to stick by him.
“No. I don’t want you to go away.”
“Then it sounds like you chose me, Sebby.”
“Sounds like I did, Toby.”
Toby looks at Sebastia, thoughts racing through his head. Jane was right, Sebastia wasn’t the first woman he brought here. but maybe this time could be different. He didn’t have to make the same mistakes that ruined his relationship with Natalie. Sebastia could be different. This time could be different. This was his second chance.
‘You’re not good for anyone, really.’ Jane’s words rung in his head. She was right. He had been the center and cause of so much death and destruction. Pain and suffering. Even if it’s for his own selfish reasons and to prove Jane wrong, he wants to be good for Sebastia. He doesn’t necessarily care about her. It takes a long time for him to care about anyone. To feel anything for anyone. But still, he wants to be good for her. To prove the whole world wrong. To prove the universe wrong. For his own ego. This was another selfish act, but who is it hurting?
Toby wouldn’t admit it, but part of him loves that Sebastia needs him. Like only he could provide what she needs. He liked hearing her praises and thank you’s. It fueled him to do more. He likes her more than he thinks. He has to, for her praises to matter.
“Like I said. You’re better off with me, Sebastia.”
“Let’s hope that’s true, Toby.”
“Sorry to interrupt.”
Jane’s voice takes Toby out of his thoughts.
“Where’d you come from?! You totally disappeared!” Sebastia says in shock.
“Not telling you. Training starts again today I assume?”
“Why’s that your business, Jane?” Toby glares at her, standing up. “You know you’re not supposed to be here!”
“Because I’m going to help you teach her how to fight.”
“The hell you are! I don’t need your help!”
“Good thing this is about what Sebastia needs. Not you.”
“She doesn’t need you either. Our training was going fine till you showed up.”
“Mhm. Is that why she can’t even shoot a gun? You haven’t even taught her the basics. Besides, I partially know what’s going on with the creature inside her. She needs guidance with that. Guidance you can’t provide.”
“She still doesn’t need you.”
“Don’t be stupid Toby. I’m a better fighter than you. A better teacher. A better person. And I know about what’s going on with her. Sebastia needs me more than she’ll ever need you.”
Toby looks at Jane with pure anger. Not because she was wrong, but because it was a hit to his ego and he wants to be the one Sebastia needs. Not because he cares but because he wants to feel better about himself. It’s all about him.
Sebastia cuts them both off.
“Why don’t you both help me like Jane said, Toby? You know I’m really bad at fighting and I need all the help I can get. Especially because there’s people looking for me.”
Toby hated the thought of Jane helping. He wants to be the only one helping Sebastia. He found her in the first place. Why should anyone else be involved?
“Sebby. What if she’s lying to us? Just getting close to you and helping you so she can use you for something? What if she betrays us?”
Projection at its finest.
“She’s already risking a lot being here, even if that’s the case, she’s the closest thing I’ve got to answers.”
Toby couldn’t deny that.
“Fine. Don’t slow us down, Jane.”
“Wouldn’t dream of it.”
Jane turns to the window to leave.
“Oh and Toby?”
“What?”
“I’m sorry. For yesterday.”
Jane gracefully leaves out of the window, waiting for Sebastia and Toby to join her outside.
Toby furrows his brows, but not out of anger. He’s surprised to get an apology from her. Almost grateful.
Sebastia stands up.
“Toby are you-“
“I’m fine.”
Sebastia nods. One more question on her mind.
“Is Natalie mad at me?”
“Go ask her on your own time. Let’s go.”
Jane’s apology must have affected him a little bit. He’s a bit harsher and wants to stop talking about it so the memories and feelings from yesterday don’t affect him.
“Okay. Let’s go.”
The two follow Jane outside. Sebastia still has thousands of questions. But they’ll have to wait until training is over.
Soooo I'm just now finding out that the piece of shit who made that fake callout against Antlergrave is Hahadit, a hardcore pro/darkshipper who's into p*dophillia and inc*st 😬😬😬
Imagine being so shallow that you'd start a fake callout against another artist all because you envy their talent, and even celebrating the fact that you've just harassed someone, literally finding joy in hurting another person's feelings. PLEASE be so fr right now. Defaming someone who has done nothing wrong over jealousy is so childish and it's such a bad look on you if you are an artist yourself. Seek professional help if you find that ruining a random person's life is humorous. It's not funny at all and you are a psychopath.
Edit: Here's the link to the whole situation explained vvv
I saw a bunch of people really like that creepypasta dating sim but uhm… are we forgetting that the person who made it (Hahadit) makes incest art of toby?? Hello?? No idea if you have to pay for it because I haven’t and am not planning on looking into it but pirate it incase It requires money idgaf if that sounds bad😭😭😭and again block me if you support hahadit y’all r gross
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