clown bitch

22yr - autistic - he/it - clowns - woof woof - gimme your teeth🤲 disabled 🐾taken🐾

[clown-bitchh]

i love doing entire budget calculations and research and just getting every aspect of a plan together that will never happen.

[clown-bitchh]

i have an appointment ive been waiting for for 4 years with a geneticist for my heds on my bday on the 16th and im terrified. im in so much pain and im just scared ill have waited all thos years for nothing. ive heard good things about her tho-

[carrionhearted]

Sorry for infodumping about my special interest out of nowhere, you said a keyword and it activated my unskippable dialogue

[bebsi-cola]

actually pigs shouldn't be at pride even outside of uniform. fuck those guys

[bebsi-cola]

if you decide to become a police officer then that outweighs any other marginalised identity you can rustle up like. not sorry, who asked you to willingly become a pig

[memory-of-stargazing]

“It just means you have to work double as hard as most people!”

Well maybe I don’t WANT to work double as hard as abled people!! Maybe I deserve a BREAK!! Maybe I’ve been working MORE THAN double as hard for MY WHOLE LIFE and it’s led me to immense burnout & caused me to develop several MORE disabilities!! Maybe I should be ACCOMMODATED so I don’t have to KILL MY BODY AND BRAIN over trying to do what abled people can do!! Maybe I DON’T have to work double as hard!! Maybe if there’s the option to let me NOT work double as hard, I should have it, because I’m already working double as hard JUST TO SURVIVE!!

Why do you think disabled people deserve less rest than mentally & physically abled people?

[v4mpyrsp1t]

POTS is so fucking ridiculous like ah fuck shit sorry it’s a little too warm in here so i’m about to look like i’m having a category five medical emergency. but really i’m all good. also to prevent it i just have to lower the temperature but not too much and also make a quick stop by the X-axis for like five minutes. i’m like a tempermental plant if it was cunty. do you guys hate me

[v4mpyrsp1t]

this post is making the rounds again like clockwork now that summer is coming up

[clown-bitchh]

shout out post to my amazing bf for putting up with my fatigue.

all week ive passed out while typing. and waking up hours later to chat being open and my finger on the screen still.

[clockwork-col]

i hate being disabled

i hate that i can’t even properly grieve and rage against the life i could have had because grief and rage exhaust me

hell i can’t even write a post longer than a few paragraphs anymore cause that exhausts me too.

fuck this. fuck this stupid life. i don’t even see the point in living anymore when i can’t do the things i love.

i want to cry but i don’t even have the energy to do that.

[foldingfittedsheets]

Had a coworker tell me they hadn’t texted once because of the time. “I didn’t want to wake you.”

I stared at them through the dawning realization that they lived in a world where that was remotely possible. “My phone is on do not disturb if I’m sleeping. Why would I let random texts wake me up? My sleep is important.”

Equally baffled they replied, “What if someone at work needs you?”

“I am not a manager. No one at work will ever need me badly enough to interrupt my sleep. If I’m not working then there’s no reason to be calling me.”

“Not even if you need to cover?”

I laughed, “I don’t need to cover. They could ask me to cover but good luck getting ahold of me if I’m sleeping.”

They looked distressed at this idea.

To console them I added, “I have important people like my mom and my wife set to override. If they call they get through no matter what.”

There was a small pause before they asked, “You can do that…?”

So friendly reminder. Become unreachable. Work does not need you that badly. Sleep.

[jakeperalta]

not using AI genuinely feels like the rest of the world is experiencing some kind of mass amnesia. if someone says they never use it, the immediate response is that can't be true because "everyone" uses it to write their emails or answer their questions. saw a comment suggesting that not using chatgpt to write an essay is "like the 90s". girl I graduated in 2021 and we weren't doing that! how is it that everyone has suddenly forgotten that they were entirely capable of doing these things all by themselves for their entire lives up until the past few years!! am I going crazy!!!

[dustbunnyaac]

I think any time anyone has a migraine $2,000 should be directly deposited in their bank account as compensation

[rooster-booster]

tinfoil hat ? nah. faraday fursuit

[lustcannibalism]

the desire to engage in my hobbies leaving my body as soon as I have the day off even though I was looking forward to it all week

[rooster-booster]

i am no better than a horse …..

[clown-bitchh]

its bad man.

[fibromyalgicaf]

Hey if you have chronic pain, you gotta remember that the cognitive load of dealing with that is exhausting. Just that alone. Never mind what else you've got going on.

You're not lazy or being dramatic; you're overloaded.

[xxbl00dsh3dbunnyxx]

Pain free days feels like a lie invented by the media

There's NO WAY everyone else just feels fine 99% of the time...no headaches, no leg pain, no hand cramps, no nausea

SCAM

[clown-bitchh]

im so stressed from work this week im experiencing the most nauseating overthinking anxiety.

ITS SO STUPID. IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH WORK. ITS SO RANDOM. WHY AM I WORRYING ABKUT THAT????

my brain likes to immediately at the sign of any anxiety. go straight to "omg my gf doesnt like me. ive upset him. im annoying. hes gonna leave me" LIKE NO!!! THEY ARNT !!! WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME THIS. then. i get worried im asking for reassurance too often 🫠

i cant read tone over text AND i look to hard into things.