Tw: blood, toxic relationship
You stood beside me.When I was out of my mind.
When I come home I see you in the midst of your self-made chaos. You are standing in the middle of a huge heap of debris from your furniture, papers and clothes. Your body trembled as you keep wrecking your room, randomly throwing things at the wall while screaming.
I broke the Glass.And you were there to sweep it aside.
I'm making my way through your mess and you don't even seem to notice me. You're too deep in your pain. I put my hand on your shoulder and your whole body stiffens under my touch. With the chair's broken wooden leg in your hand, you turn and stare down at me, wide-eyed. All your emotions are reflected in them. A few tears grace your face.
And if you leave me. Rest assured it would kill me.
Your arms wrap around my body. Shaking, you press your face into the crook of my neck and start to cry. My hand runs soothingly down your back.
I make a mess. And you’ll be there to help me undress.
As your legs buckle and we both sink to the ground, your grip on me tightens even more. Your fear that I would leave you was overwhelming for you, no matter how many times I promise to stay by your side. I'll help you out of your clothes soaked in your own blood. I'll take care of your wounds and make sure they heal well.
I’ll be unclean, I’ll be obscene You’ll be the rest.
And suddenly you start talking. About your hatred of this city and the contempt for the people who have wronged us so much. You want every one of them dead, accountable for all their heinous deeds that are overlooked and covered up by everyone.
And if you leave me. Rest assured it would kill me.
And I promise to stay with you, even if it means my own end. I'll stay with you until the end.
Like an Oleander. White, white leaves.
Even if you continue to ignore me after this day, I won't go.
Of an Oleander.White like me.
Your words poison me,make me sick .They eat through my body and rot me from the inside. Your kisses leave a bitter taste on my lips. Your touch runs through my bones. I will crumble under your hands.
I’m like the child in the sty. I play with vile, I burn you right out. I burned your bible.
You're trapped inside yourself, playing games with people who are too dangerous. You cloak your identity under a burning city, terrorized by you. You also make a part of me burn and I will never find that part again. It is forever destroyed and buried under your shoes.
You tried to cry, put on a smile.
Sometimes I don't know who you are anymore. You are changing more and more every day into the person you seem to think you are. I play your game. Hide my emotions deep inside me. Nothing has changed on the outside, but a constant storm is raging inside me.
And if you leave me. Rest assured it would kill me. Rest assured if you leave .
You know full well that I would never leave. I belong to you, but I don't know if you think the same. Whether I am a means to an end or you like to see me suffer.
Like an oleander. White, white leaves.
Your affection tears me apart. Makes me feel weak and helpless. I am your water that you need to survive. Your roots dig deep into my flesh.
Of an oleander. White like me.
And yet I'm standing next to you. Help you with any of your ideas. Even though you don't give me much in return.
Of the oleander. White, white leaves.
At some point I won't be able to give you any more water to keep you alive, but I'll try as long as I can. I don't know how much longer I can hold out until my body surrenders to yours.
Of an oleander. White like me.
But I want you to know that I've always loved you.
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