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I’M OFFICIALLY IN RECOVERY

I don’t know if I would ever delete this account, anyway you’re free of chat me for any advice, support, or just talking.

Stay safe, dears.

I’ll do my best to help you, I’ll be always here

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ED community survey:

If you could make something 0 calories- anything at all - what would it be?

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Vodka

Avoid binge at the outdoor meal:

wear a belt and tighten it as you can. Try to feel comfortable in it, and when you are at the table eat everything you want, the belt will advice you when you eat too much, the physical pain will stop your hunger and you will sense fullness in your stomach.

we are just stronger then our hunger ✌🏼

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The thing about starving

I think the addictive thing about starving is that we feel skinny while doing it.

Probably 99% of us suffering from an ed feel gross, fat and ugly 24/7 and after a while we decide to fast and not eat anything at all for a while. Yes, the first 24 hours may be difficult but once your mind is so focused on not eating it gets easier.

It gets easier to say no to something delicious, it is no problem to ignore the hunger or withstand the cravings.

Why? Because being empty, consuming no calories makes you feel skinny.

Once I hit that point of feeling skinny because of my empty stomach, I have no problem with continuing my fast. My mind gets wrapped around the idea of doing more of that to feel even better. Even if you won’t feel better (headache, dizziness, low blood sugar etc.) it makes you feel powerful.

(I do not promote this kind of behavior, ed in general. These are just thoughts and self destruction.)

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Body dysmorphia moods

There really isn’t any information out there about body dysmorphia so I’m just gonna share a few things that I’m sure a lot of you can relate to, just so you know you aren’t alone, this isn’t your fault.

-Only being able to wear loose, baggy, or oversized clothing when you feel dysmorphic

-Not letting people hug/touch you because you’re scared of them feeling your fat

-having recurring nightmares about the way you look

-avoiding mirrors

-excessive body checks

-thinking everyone is smaller than you even if they have a larger BMI

-feeling sick/ feeling like a failure when you look at your stomach, even when you haven’t eaten in days

Feel free to reblog and add more, more awareness needs to be brought to body dysmorphic disorder. You are not alone

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I miss sincerely and lovely hugs 😢

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When someone try to insult me by calling me “skinny bitch”:

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am i the only one terrified of my friends skipping a meal, even going on a diet? just in case they end up with an ED.

i know it’s irrational but i’m like “eat.EAT! we stan well fed queens only, get stuffed bitch”

during the new-year-party a boy kissed me, and he wanted to have sex with me

the day before two friends, while they were discussing, accorded that I’m the prettiest and hottest girl in the group

in the same day, one boy I had sex with, almost a month ago, sent me a message. he was jealous because of a photo I posted on Instagram. and asked me if we could have a date.

few day before a close friend of mine said that he could do anything for an hour of sex with me

but I never had a bf, am i not enough for love?

am I to much crazy, weird, out of control?

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My follower count has skyrocketed in the last week & normally it would be something that excites me but all I can hope is that all of you who recently followed me did so because you already suffer and not because I inspired you to want to suffer fuck it hurts my heart to think about this PLEASE STAY SAFE AND I LOVE YOU ALL.

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via instagram

merry Christmas at who, like me, is sitting on the bed crying, choosing to a dress that will never be fine, thinking at all food eaten during the last dinner, and watch it! it’s just on your fat, disgusting stomach. nothing could cover this fat, no one dress.

merry Christmas at who has a mental illness, an ED, depression or anxiety. everyone thinks at the poor children in Africa, at who lost family. I’m here for the other part of the Christmas: when you have to party, be happy, even if food makes you sad and guilty, even if you can’t stand staying with a lot of people, even if you’re anxious about the fireplace.

Nobody cares, but merry Christmas dears. this could be the best Christmas family reunion. I love you