[codename-camilla]

Ace in an Allo World #5

When you see a popular superhero movie and your response is:

“I don’t want a girlfriend

I don’t want a boyfriend

I want a tree.”

[codename-camilla]

Pagan Amongst Protestants #5

when you’re reading a story to your nieces and nephew who are squashed together trying to all fit in your lap and you are hit with that “What If” monster, because what if you came home with a girlfriend, or were more open paganly, or ended up in a poly-relationship... you know she won’t separate you entirely from her progeny, because she isn’t cruel, but you know it would change the dynamic, and you know it could cause distance to be pushed between you and these tiny humans who love you so much

[codename-camilla]

Polytheist and the Catholics #5

when your student is talking passionately about the greek gods and you think “Damn, she’d make a fabulous Hellenic Pagan” and a part of you hopes she is able to become pagan, because you think she would be happiest there, but the other part of you hopes she doesn’t because it is so, so hard being that black sheep in the Catholic/Protestant flock

[codename-camilla]

Pagan Amongst Protestants #4

When your parent tells you your gods can’t actually show you true affection and it’s one part grief

because you know you will always disappoint your parents and always be disconnected from them

and one part indignation and outrage

because why would you have chosen these gods, loved them, befriended them, if you did not believe you could trust them, if they had not shown themselves to be kind and giving and selfless

[codename-camilla]

Polytheist and the Catholics #4

When your student is talking about how funny Rick Riordan’s fat/drunk Thor was and you try to be supportive but inside you are burning with the rage of a Viking and desperately wishing to defend Thor’s honour.

[codename-camilla]

Pagan Amongst Protestants #3

When your parent says:

“What’s the difference between you staying here or living on your own? Here you don’t have to shell out money every month. Plus, we buy you food.”

And you want to say:

“Because I don’t feel comfortable doing rituals in your house, because I want to be respectful of your beliefs because I love and respect you so much, but I also want to be able to worship my gods freely, which I can’t do here - - I can’t even talk about anything related to my beliefs, which sucks - - so I’d like to be on my own to have freedom of religion and rituals and all that stuff.”

And instead you say:

“I love all you do for me, but I am really independent and would like to be able to live on my own one day.”

[codename-camilla]

Ace in an Allo World #4

when your cashier is super cute and you find her kinda’ attractive but you don’t actually know how to flirt with anyone because you are asexual and mostly aromantic so you just make vague noises and blank out when she asks you simple questions and you go home and hide your face in a pillow

[codename-camilla]

Polytheist and the Catholics #3

When during a lecture you mean to say:

“Because St. Augustine didn’t believe the gods were real”

and you accidentally say:

“Because the gods aren’t real”

and you silently pray to Juno not to strike you down dead and you hate your life just a little.

[codename-camilla]

Pagan Amongst Protestants #2

When your bother makes a comment about gay people during Thanksgiving and you try really, really, hard not to say:

“So this would be a bad time to tell you that I’m just as likely to have a girlfriend as a guyfriend because I like both equally?”

[codename-camilla]

Ace in an Allo World #3

When you’re cleaning up toys from awful children and a random stranger comments:

“Great practice for when you have your own kids”

And I say, “Oh, I’m not having kids.”

And stranger says, “That’s what you say now!”

And I say nothing about how I’m asexual, or sex averse, or not interested in babies, or the fact that I could be infertile, or that my reproductive choices are really not his business, or that he’s an absolute ass for watching me clean up a mess and making no effort to help me the inconsiderate slob.

[codename-camilla]

Ace in an Allo World #2

When you want to cuddle and snog someone but you can’t because:

1) You live in a basement with conservative protestant parents

2) You teach in a basement of a Catholic conservative school

so you never spend time with anyone other than parents, moms, and students

[codename-camilla]

Polytheist and the Catholics #2

Student: You’re not Catholic, are you?

Me: No.

Student: So you’re Christian?

Me: I grew up Christian.

Student: So what church do you go to?

Me: Look! A distraction!

[codename-camilla]

Ace in an Allo World #1

When someone from your dad’s church says:

“You are definitely going to have a baby one day.”

And you say, “No, I’m okay with that not happening.”

And they say, “No. You will have a baby. You will change your mind.”

And what you want to say is:

“BUT I AM ASEXUAL AND SEX-AVERSE AND I DO NOT WANT TO HAVE SEX AND I DO NOT WANT TO HAVE BABIES BECAUSE OF SO MANY REASONS, BUT THE BIGGEST THING IS YOU CANNOT HAVE BABIES WITHOUT SEX WHICH I DO NOT WANT TO HAVE ALSO HOW IS THIS YOUR BUSINESS YOU DO NOT EVEN KNOW ME AUGH!”

And instead you just smile and nod and politely excuse yourself from the idiot.

[codename-camilla]

Polytheist and the Catholics #1

When your one student says something super homo-phobic/anti-homosexual and you face the white board pretending you’re erasing something but really your face is just being like: “But no.”

[codename-camilla]

Pagan Amongst Protestants #1

Going to a Beltane Festival and having a rad time and wanting to tell your parents about it, but can’t, because they are super Christian and you’re super not and the conversation goes something like:

Mum: Where exactly are you going?

Me: *mumblemuble* Hippies *mumblemuble* Festival *mumblemumble* May.

Mum: …. Okay? Have fun?

[codename-camilla]

Who I Am

An Ace/Aro Poly-minded/non-monogamous Bi-Sensual Eclectic-Polytheistic-Pagan Person...

Teaching at a Catholic School...

Living with Conservative Christian Parents...

Surrounded by Catholic/Christian moms...

And students...

And siblings...

And people who have known me since the late 90′s.

0_0 

[codename-camilla]

Pulled three cards for myself for the coming year (specifically the next 6 months). King of Wands, Five of Wands, Nine of Wands, all reversed. Noticing a theme of: "gonna be mad chaos, battle, vigilance, but you got the skills - you’ve just forgotten. If you keep on, you'll be victorious." Nice to know it will work out, but not looking forward to the hard work. -_- :P