•yoshiki •

blog specifically for my fictionfolk experiences

[coldest-forest]

⭐️intro⭐️

hiya! you may know me from my blog @harebrainedlover. im making this new blog specifically for my fictionkin experience since it differs so greatly from my therianthropic experiences that i post on my other blog. this blog gets quite vent-y, since this identity is directly related to my mental illness and trauma, so if topics of poisoning/medical abuse, suicide, self harm, or depression trigger you I'd recommend blocking this blog (I do tag my posts appropriately)

🌙basic info🌙

- pronouns he/him

- you can call me Jack, Coatguy, or Yoshiki

- Yoshiki Tsujinaka fictionkin from TSHD

- Coatguy (NINAH) fictionflicker

- coydog + virifury therianthrope as well as being a fictionflicker

- more info on my main blog :-)

tag guide

(this is my first time doing one of these so beware)

#COAT⭐️ (or "coolest of all time" lol): euphoria things, general fun posts

#🌙swirling void: vent posts, sad lyrics, general emo teenager things

#artguy🩵: art posts!

#pondering the stomach void: questions, working out my identity, my old kinsidering posts

[asexual-amanita]

As summer is approaching, I’d like to remind everyone that you are not entitled to ask someone to cover up their scars, self inflicted or not. I don’t care if they’re big, I don’t care if they’re noticeable, or purple, or all over their body, or what. You can’t police people’s bodies.

[asexual-amanita]

This also goes for my friends with feeding tubes, ostomy bags, central lines and urinary catheters. People are allowed exist in bodies that stray from the expected norm.

[coldest-forest]

being from a newer, more "niche" source has been so isolating.

of course with NINAH I couldn't find any sourcemates either, but that isn't very important because of how I relate to the game and my relationships with others within it.

however, TSHD is mainly focused on relationships. my interactions with my friends, family, and with "hikaru" are the main drivers of the story. I desperately want to find my friends, but because of my source's popularity and that my friends (besides one very recently) are not main characters. I've found several doubles of me and many "hikaru's," but no Asako, Yuuki, Maki, or Kaoru. It'd be even harder to find the adults in my source. I miss everyone, but it feels like I won't find any of my friends or family due to the nature of my source and the people within it.

anyways, any TSHD kins out there?

[coldest-forest]

it's kind of awkward originating from a source about a romance when you have a girlfriend

like yes I love you more than anything but yes this romance still has a massive hold on my psyche

I guess it's a bit easier for me since I don't love "Hikaru" romantically, but I still have some lingering feelings for the original Hikaru and it's all very confusing

[coldest-forest]

people tell me I am not hard to love because of my depression

people then tell me how hard it is to be around me, how difficult I am, how exhausted they are

it's okay to tell the hard truth rather than to blatantly lie

[coldest-forest]

being me is all fun and games until your coworker comments on how you've "lost the sparkle in your eyes"

[coldest-forest]

sleeping is so hard because I'll see him in my dreams and run to him only for him to already be cold and gone

i miss him but also never want to see him again

[coldest-forest]

I feel like most of my kin memories are formed from my brain trying to fill in blank spots in my memory. I have some medication (and then trauma from the effects of the medication) induced memory loss and so I guess my mind is trying to fix the blanks left from that with "memories" from my source.

Brains are odd for sure

[coldest-forest]

It's weird thinking about fictionkin gear for both of my fictotypes when I already look very similar to them lol

[theworldrevolvving]

BEING FICTIONKIN IS JUST REVERSE ISEKAI SEND POST

[coldest-forest]

finally made a fictotype info sheet! I had so much fun drawing all my friends :-)

[14-aeroplanes]

how it feels being on fictkinblr

[coldest-forest]

its really weird to feel like my family and friends from my canon are real, but consciously knowing they're not. I had the thought that I wanted to go hang out with Kaoru, but I don't have a sister. I almost called my actual dad Toshinori in front of my girlfriend. I feel like I see Yuuki and Asako in the hallways but obviously I'm mistaking them for somebody else.

I don't really have exomemories since my experience isn't a past life or anything, but I do feel like those people are real and I have real feelings about them. And I miss them.

It feels like that life and those people are superimposed onto my own now, and I just wish I could find even one of them here.

[coldest-forest]

I feel so silly hiding my fictionkinnity from my girlfriend like she doesn't already know everything about me lmao

I guess I feel a bit embarrassed of myself (go figure)

[coldest-forest]

who knew that experiencing extreme trauma and then watching an entire anime the day of would make my brain latch onto a character who I already deeply associated with

whaaaaaaaaaaaaat

anyways I think that I'm gonna kinfirm this identity, it's been nearly six weeks of me feeling this way and it's just getting stronger and more solidified

[big-clown-car]

*touches blog* ITA that's hot!!! Anyways welcome, I can't believe I found this blog so fast lol!

Could I request kin tips for Yoshiki Tsujinaka from "The Summer Hikaru Died?"

Thanks in advance :-)))

I'M GONNA BE REAL ANON THIS MIGHT BE A LITTLE DIFFICULT, ESPECIALLY SINCE I HAVEN'T WATCHED ANY ANIME IN LIKE OVER A YEAR BESIDES SAGA OF TANYA THE EVIL 💔

I CAN TELL YOU LIKE CATS THOUGH METHINKS, GET MORE CAT THEMED STUFF AND MAYBE VISIT THINGS LIKE CAT CAFES, OR FEED STREET CATS AND SUCH (IF YOU LIVE IN A PLACE WHERE THERE ARE STREET CATS)... IT'S GOOD FOR THE CATS.

YOU CAN ALSO FIND THE HAIR CLIP ONLINE FOR PRETTY CHEAP.

MAYBE LOOK INTO BUGS, JUST IN GENERAL, AND SEE IF IT INTERESTS YOU. STARTING BY SIMPLY WATCHING YOUTUBE VIDEOS (EXAMPLE: THE CHANNEL "ODD ANIMAL SPECIMENS", HE DOESN'T POST SOLELY ABOUT BUGS BUT THERE'S A LOT OF VIDEOS BY HIM ABOUT BUGS)

READING MORE MANGA AND COMICS! YOU CAN FIND LOTS OF RECOMMENDATIONS ANYWHERE

THAT'S ALL I'VE GOT.

[coldest-forest]

wow wonder what this horrible mood and strong urge to play Pokémon is about (kinshift)