After so many years I finally found you. Perhaps it wasn’t all that long and one day I’ll look back and realize how short it was but at the moment it felt like eternity. I often dream of you, I call you by the name Spencer Mercury Scottsman. That probably is not your name, but it’s what I tell myself at night when I feel lonely. “I’m waiting for you, Spencer Mercury Scottsman.” I know God blessed me with you, and I know that all this waiting has been worth it. I think of how you will be the one that is mature compared to everyone else. You get my humor but often shake your head at it, sometimes making me die of laughter when you suddenly crack a joke that is worse than anything I’ve been saying lately. I dream of the way we’ll lie on my trampoline at 11:39 PM on a Wednesday night and talk about our futures and what we want out of life and all of the people we have loved before. I dream of you and I standing in my kitchen when no one else is home and us play fighting, because you know that it entertains me. I think of the conversations we’ll have, and how your intellect will keep me stimulated and on the tip of my toes. I dream of your brown hair, a bit long I suppose but it suits you just right, and your pretty eyes and the freckles on your face. Of how we’ll go out for pizza one night and end up laying on our backs in the grass, star gazing. You’ll shake your head when I explain how my wedding will  be geeky, and nerdy, and how my husband will not be ruining these plans. We’ll spend the Summer together, sneaking around so my parents don’t find out, as I’m not allowed to date until I’m 16. You’ll always be clean and sometimes we’ll work out together, but not always because you know I sometimes prefer to workout solo. You’ll bite your lip when your reading or trying to remember something as you close your eyes and it will take every bone in my body not to attack you and make you get in your bed with me. It’ll be Winter of 2017 and finally I’ll come clean to my parents and you’ll be right there as I explain that this is my boyfriend, Spencer. And I just can’t wait to finally meet you, because 14 year old me is feeling so lonely...
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