Howdy!! My name is Cedar, and I'm a 26 year old coyote alterhuman living in Rural Kentucky with my partner, my dog, and a clan of 6 kitties! I work from home and enjoy gardening, music, art, coding, pokemon, and videogames!
I'm currently learning to play the violin, and I plan on going (back) to college in the next year or so if I can!! I can't decide if I want to study Psychology again or try Biology instead, but I'm really leaning towards working with wildlife.
I dream of starting a domestic bunny rescue and I'd like to write more! I also don't currently own any horses, but would like to again- I grew up around them and miss it a lot.
I have a fursuit partial, but I'm working on making new gear for my theriotype! That's all I can think of for now, but I'll add more if I think of stuff C:
I generally avoid following minors, so don't be offended if I don't follow you back u.u
✦ . ⁺ . ✦ . ⁺ . ✦ . ⁺ . ✦ . ⁺ . ✦
TAGS I USE:
#CedarRambles - Misc. ramblings or thoughts
#CedarHowls - Me yelling into the void
#CedarGrowls - Me venting frustrations, probs my job
MAGA, Blue Lives, or anything at all that leans into racism or facism
Z**s, P3dos, or anything gross. FUCK you
TERFs, Transphobic, Homophobic, or anything at all like that
More about me below!
I've had a confusing journey to figuring out who I am today- as a kit in human skin, I found comfort watching shows/movies about animals (from cartoons to documentaries, spending time outdoors in the woods with our horses, doing quads (before I knew that's what it was lol) and experienced what I now realize was phantom ears/a tail with partial shifts I believe
I learned to conform and shut it down, but those parts of me never left. There were days I could feel it howling inside of me, so hard it made my chest fuzzy. I talked to therapists about how I felt as if I was raised to be an obedient pet, not a human.
Disassociation is how I learned to cope. There were days I was so deep into it, my vision was dim and blurry, and I felt like I was watching my life happen in front of me through my eyes like a patron in a movie theater. I watched, but I did not experience.
I was somewhere far away, and when working on creating an internal "Safe Space" for lack of better terms, I wasn't in a home or bedroom or anywhere familiar- I was in the woods. I could feel the earth beneath my paws, the air blowing through my fur as I ran.
I ran, escaping a body that's only ever betrayed me. As my mind drifted in a safe and controlled space, I could smell the earth, hear the leaves and the sound of a creek. As my paws slowed, I found myself alone and at peace within my mind. I was where I was supposed to be, and I felt safe.
I learned to silently escape the "humanity" forced upon me, and as I did the howling grew louder. And in the beginning of 2026 I finally accepted what I already knew- I had never been a human. I was never meant to be born like this.
And this brought me so much peace! I've made friends who love and respect me, I find myself excited to finally be myself. I mean FFS I'm 26, if I want to run around in my backyard on all fours nobody can stop me?? I genuinely think it would heal a large part of my soul
So, welcome to the wonderful adventure of discovering myself I've began. It's never too late, and you really never have to truly give up parts of yourself!
It's never too late to what makes you happy :3
Bands/Artists: My Chem, Mother Mother, Kesha, Friday Pilots Club, Dreamers, 100 Gecs, Horsegiirl, Cake, Duran Duran, Depeche Mode, Destroy Boys, ElyOtto, The Home Team, Joost, MIKA, MGMT, Mystery Skulls,
Shows/Movies: TADC, MLP:FIM, Anything Lion King, Spirit Stallion of the Cimmaron, All Dogs Go to Heaven, HTTYD, + Documentaries!
Books: The Wolves of Mercy Falls trilogy, Warriors
Youtube Content/Channels: Analog/Digital Horror, Backrooms,
Games: Pokemon, Minecraft, Stardew, Sims, Skyrim, Wobbledogs, COTL, Slime Rancher, ARK, Spyro, Animal Crossing, Fall Guys
Browser Games: Lioden, Chicken Smoothie, Flight Rising, Webkinz
(adding more later)
I’m going to the ren faire this year for the first time, and I’ll be going with my nana and little cousins (10, 11, 22) and they love me and know I’m weird sooooo I might be able to wear some gear!!
Hopefully I can get my mask and tail at least made! Now to plan the rest of the fit (and pick out some trinkets to trade!)
You know as an American born in the late 90s I’ve watched my country blow up foreigners on tv supposedly in the interest of national security since I was a toddler but quite frankly we live on a natural fortress of a continent with friendly nations to our north and south and have been attacked on our own soil literally two times in the past hundred years and we have military bases on every inhabited continent on earth. It’s never made sense to do these things for “national security”. It never will make sense unless you value the shareholders of weapons companies over the lives of children. And apparently a concerning amount of people do.
