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hollowbon3s

yr locked in a room alone with three adult men but you feel perfectly safe. who are they

teashoesandhair

quinnigallagherjones

imposterogers

every once in a while I remember that hannibal lecter would show up at crimes he committed and be like “girl WHO did that???”

wholeheartedsuggestions

eventually you realize you don’t want to die. you just don’t want to live the life you’re living. and slowly you try to create a life you want to live. just gotta start there.

wholeheartedsuggestions

no one needs to add “sounds fake but ok”, “no”, “well, not me”, “impossible”, etc. to this post. and i’d rather you not.

duckbunny

one day you think: I want to die.

and then you think, very quietly: actually. actually. I think I want a coffee. a nap. a sandwich. a book.

and I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friend, I want to sit in the sun

I want a cleaner kitchen

I want a better job

I want to live somewhere else

I want to live

zenosanalytic

The thing to understand is that Depression

Even When It Is Trying to Kill You!

Is Defensive.

Your brain exists to preserve you; it’s just Dumb, and how it goes about “preserving” is determined by evolution’s ‘Good Enough’ meat-and-chemistry mechanisms rather than a firm grasp of biology.

You know how, stuck atop a burning building, ppl will sometimes throw themselves off in a vain hope of surviving? That’s what depression-driven suicide is. You are under THAT amount of stress, often sustained for a FAR longer time. Your brain only understands “Stress”: it doesn’t know causes, it doesn’t know Events, and it only has the one set of instinctive ‘extreme measures’ to fall back on. I made things SO hard on myself for SO Long conceiving of Depression as a Fight I had to Win, rather than a chronic illness in need of my understanding and careful management.

Help your brain. Nurse it. Ask yourself where it hurts and why. Recognize that the desire to die is a symptom, an injury, and not your ‘Truth’. Try to calm it, Try to endure: It WILL Pass. As perverse as it sounds, your desire to die is an expression of how PASSIONATELY you want to get away from the pain tormenting you; of how MUCH you want to LIVE. PLEASE Live!

tethered-heartstrings

souperluminal

Scissor Wizard and Paper Wizard

It’s probably fine to leave them alone together.

souperluminal

Improvise. Adapt. Overcome.

valtsv

microdosing on catharsis by watching a fictional character or persona i relate to have an emotional breakdown until my chest starts to ache from the amount i’ve repressed

valtsv

channelingchilton

am i wrong

captaindibbzy

As far as ethical materials go you can’t really get better than wool.

The sheep need the hair cut.

Nothing dies for it.

Sheep live pretty much wild for most the year.

Placed correctly they maintain a landscape and help the wildlife that live there to thrive.

Doesn’t use Vast Quantities of land for little product.

Not draining inland fresh water oceans.

Been spending thousands of years perfecting the genetics for this purpose.

Comes in many different kinds of uses.

And the animal it comes off is fully edible.

My main issue with it is it has fallen so out of fashion that it pays the farmers who make it more to transport it than they get per fleece, and people have really fucking weird hang ups about the ethics of giving a sheep a hair cut.

unexpectedyarns

Sheep can get infested with wool maggots if they are not shorn.

Also an unshorn sheep can drown if it falls into water, just by the sheer weight of the water its wool can absorb, dragging it down.

A Tunis sheep can live in a large doghouse, and staked in a different place every day, will mow your lawn (buy they get lonely. Buy two).

Light shearing nicks heal fast because the sheep’s waxy lanolin coats their skin. Though most sheep farmers won’t Nick the sheep bc it gets blood on the wool.

Sheep farmers MUST treat their sheep with care, because any little thing that upsets sheep affects the quality of their wool.

Even “natural” fibers like bamboo take TONS of water to process and alkaline dyes to color them. You can dye wool with unsweetened koolaid.

fittingoutjane

People have been raising sheep for close to 10,000 years. And all that time, we’ve been breeding them for better wool. Most mammals with thick coats shed naturally in the spring, sheep don’t because we bred it out of them.

Sheep and their farmers have an actual symbiotic relationship. Farmers remove their excess wool, keeping them healthy, and then sell that wool to buy what they need.

bemusedlybespectacled

it’s also naturally antimicrobial and resists odors (unlike polyester, which absorbs them better and makes it harder to wash them out).

deadbeatmaker

if will threatened to brutally murder hannibal with his hands or beat him to death hannibal would be like describe it to me in detail <3 haha and then what? but if will was like I’m gonna shoot you with a gun i think he would be like don’t you love me anymore

deadbeatmaker

imagine if he was like I’m going to poison you (ruins the meat), let you die without touching you, and not eat you after. hannibal would be heartbroken.