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Love Begins
#extradirty
YOU ARE THE REASON
PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH
Sweet Seals For You, Always
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noise dept.
Three Goblin Art
Kaledo Art
$LAYYYTER
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Janaina Medeiros
he wasn't even looking at me and he found me
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Not today Justin
cherry valley forever
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Product Placement
we're not kids anymore.
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The upcoming biopic Loving Vincent, which chronicles the life of van Gogh, is the world’s first fully-painted film. After shooting the film, artists hand-painted thousands of frames with oil paints to recreate the impressionist’s signature style. Source
THIS IS A CAT IN A HALLOWEEN COSTUME PLAYING WITH A TINY PUMPKIN THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT
IT’S NOT EVEN OCTOBER
IT’S ALWAYS OCTOBER
I want a “just checking in” kind of love.
a “baby did you eat today?” kind of love.
a “you’re the first person I told” kind of love.
an “I gotta kiss you before you leave” kind of love
an “I love you” before we say bye kind of love.
an “I noticed that you need this so I got it for you” kind of love.
a “we’re not going to bed til we’ve made up” kind of love.
a wipe my tears away kind of love.
a nonstop joke fest until I smile again kind of love.
a goofy smile when I walk in the room kind of love.
a hold me until my panic attack passes kind of love.
a rub my back after work kind of love.
I just want to feel completely, totally, truly loved.
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I just hit reblog so fast I almost dropped my phone
Weight loss Tips
In need of some weight loss tips. I’ve been struggling with trying to loose weight for a while now. Could someone help me out?
Busy Busy Busy
Sorry I haven’t posted in a long while I’ve been really busy with school, work, and life in general. I’m hoping to be able to post more now that things are starting to calm back down to normal. I’ve just moved to a new house with my sis, mom, and my mom’s finance. I’m hoping that that also means I can also try to start focusing on my weight. Right now I have no scale which really irks me. But I go to my grandmas on days I don't work to pick my sister up after school, so I can weigh myself there. It’s been almost a month since I last weighed myself and I’m going crazy. I think I’ve either gained weight or I haven't lost any at all. Which I don't understand because my portions have been cut down by almost half of what they used to be (still getting a good amount though, so don't worry). I try to eat all three meals. But its hard for me to eat breakfast, and sometimes I’m just not hungry at lunch so I just eat salad, and there has been times where I haven’t ate dinner or if I did it wasn’t a lot because I’m not always hungry. My exercise consists of going up and down stairs a lot, walking around class to class or for 4 hours at work. Hopefully now that we live in town I can go for walks. If not I can at least play things like just dance and do exercises that don’t involve equipment.
Well, I don’t really know what else to say. So, bai :)
In love with these skinnies 😍
End of the week tummy, still 152 lbs
Depression problems
So today at tech my teacher asked me to come up so we could talk. She asked about two assignments that she hadn't marked. One I did and showed it to her, the other was half done. She started asking why i haven't been getting my work done and stuff. I told her it was because of working. Which is partially true because my job does get in the way of my school work. And she began telling me that maybe I should see about getting my schedules changed and stuff. And of course, I made the mistake of letting a year I had been holding back roll down. She asked if I was okay, and of course I said yes. She asked what was wrong, and I shook my head holding back the rest. She asked if there was anything else going on besides work, and of course, I said no because I knew if I would have said yes I would have bawled. Lahr said she doesn't understand why I'm letting my grades drop since usually I'm an A student. I can't exactly just say "I have depression that's pulling away any motivation I have left. I want to die and be with my great grandma for the rest of eternity. The thought of school or work almost gives me an anxiety attack. I have bills to pay so I need as many hours at work as I can get. I'm really trying the best that I can to do better, but I just want to sleep forever. Oh, and please don't call my mom about any of this. I don't want to visit the looney bin today." No, not happening. I can't tell her that. So I tell her I'm fine and will try harder next quarter, take a tissue and wipe my eyes, and leave.
Starting tummy, 154 lbs
Today
Today- I had a huge slurpee thing from 711, did a little over 3 miles on the elliptical in 30 minutes, during 250 cals. I ate a tuna salad sandwich, two twizzlers, two cookies, two mini ape strudels, and a bologna sAndwich for dinner.
Recap
Tuesday- I started working out in the cardio room for gym instead of just walking. I did a mile on the treadmill in 13 minutes, and another mile on the elliptical in 8 minutes Wednesday- I did a little over a mile and a half on the elliptical, and spent the other half doing other machines like stair steppers and bikes
Basics
Here's just same basic info about me: I'm 17, 18 in March Go to a vocational technical school for advertisement art and design I want to be a lot of things, but mostly a tattooer/piercer, do animation/claymation, special effects makeup, and an author I'm between 5'1 and 5'2 Weigh between 150 and 154 I'm Irish, German, Native American, and god knows what else Parents are divorced Gots a step mom, step sis, step brother, a half brother, and a full on blood sister. I have depression and PTSD and god knows what else since I stopped visiting the psych doc before he could call me overweight again and throw some more diagnosis in my face I'm a jr in highschool I might have a weak heart,at least thats what the docs said before giving me a stress test and blamed it on my fat. I black out time to time, still don't really know why. All I know is that when I do everything drops a lot- heart rate, blood pressure, sugar levels, etc. I have a hard time staying hydrated since I don't consume enough sugar to retain the water since i live with two diabetics. On a normal day I have lower blood pressure anyways, same with heart rate. My sugar also bottoms out a lot. I have a vocal tick.
Hello
Welcome to my blog This is basically where I will just keep records of things I do/want to do/accomplish/struggle with/whatever I want. Mostly everything on here should be about my weight and health and so fourth. Don't be afraid to ask questions or leave comments. I don't want this to be a pro Ana blog though. I've struggled with minor ED's before in the past and don't wish them on anyone. This is my way of taking a step closer to loosing track a healthy way. If you have any tips or have suggestions or anything, do tell me, I would love to hear.
