All Night Daydream

OSDD1b System - The Magbox! Autism Enjoyer, Problematic Fave, Actual Cartoon Character, Mixter Dad Guy, Certified Whatchamacallit, Out Here And Out Queer. Be weird, but don't Be Weird About It. Making posts worse in the tags since 2013. TERFS, SWERFS, Gender Exclusionists, Radqueers, TransID, Fascists, Zionists, DID/OSDD "Skeptics", Endogenics/Endo Supporters and Fakeclaimers get blocked on sight

[cozza-frenzy]

We're The Magbox System!

OSDD-1b System, list of alters is here

(Bodily) 38 years old

Host: Terry

Co-Hosts: Chaos & Ozzy

We don't care about syscourse, but please don't bring endogenic/non-disordered plurality talk into our spaces, we don't want to hear about it

Collectively Queer and Poly (married to our husband, but in an open relationship)

Partner Systems: Panopticon @rinjak3, North, Tats We're the authors of the Deltarune fanfic "Pay No Attention To The Mike Behind The Curtain"! If you'd like to join our official fanfic Discord, it's over here! Want to support us? Buy us a coffee here! Not all our alters are super active on tumblr, but folks will comment on things when they feel like it and our hosts are usually around. Our headcount also fluctuates frequently due to repeated rounds of self-discovery and fusion - recovery isn't always straightforward! We like getting asks! If you have questions for us, our askbox is usually open (Anon is currently: ON) Extra/more detailed stuff under the cut. Thanks, and have fun!

Before you interact: If you're a system, please keep in mind that most of what we post about here are our personal experiences. If you're not a system, feel free to ask questions in good faith, just don't be weird about it. We're actively working towards recovery, and have been seeing a therapist for several years. We have an unusually vivid Inner World that acts as a sanctuary, but also creates metaphor-heavy scenarios for us to engage with - and we "play along" with things, taking them as seriously as we need to in the moment. By engaging with our subconscious like this, performing actions in the Inner World with intent, and trying to understand what our mind is telling us - we take back control. It's how we solve problems, exchange information between parts, confront our fears, and unpack past trauma. To be clear, we don't suffer from delusions - we're aware that what happens in the IW isn't "really real". We don't appropriate cultural/spiritual practices like "tulpamancy". We have no reason to fake our experiences in order to get attention or sympathy from people. What we're doing is closer to self-guided Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, and it's a lot of hard work - but if our "meta talk" makes you uncomfortable, you don't have to engage with us. The unfollow and block buttons are right there. If there's something specific you'd like us to tag so you can block it before following, please ask! Do not send asks about: - Anything to do with our Littles/underage alters; we do not post detailed information about them in public spaces, and we do not allow them to front unsupervised. This is for our safety and our mental health. - Anything to do with "source calls"; we feel this isn't a healthy basis for forming friendships, so we don't engage in it. If we have alters that share a source, don't make that the thing that makes you want to be friends with us. - Internet safety; we are bodily 38 years old, our abusers are an entire continent away, and although we are mentally ill we do not need or want sane people's intervention. If seeing us being open about mental illness makes you uncomfortable, that's on you. - Syscourse; endos and pro-endos keep posting things that spread misinformation, and keep causing paranoia, derealization and general stress within our system. Militant anti-endos keep harassing us over things that they've decided mean we're faking. We're done with all of it, don't bring this shit to us. - Our former relationships; yes we have a toxic/abusive ex, no we don't want anyone else involved with them. They are mentally ill and traumatized, and while that doesn't justify their behavior, we want to be the bigger person(s) here and leave them alone. - Age Gap Discourse; Our current relationships are with other consenting adults, some but not all of them are in their 20s. If this makes you uncomfortable, block us and move on, we are not going to debate you about perceived power imbalances. - Politics. Given the current climate as of 2025, we're no longer comfortable talking about our personal views online. If you're curious about our opinions, feel free to DM us and we'll elaborate.

[cozza-frenzy]

wait what anime were you talking about in the tags that sounds kinda fire

Akuyaku Reijou Tensei Ojisan, or "From Bureaucrat to Villainess: Dad's Been Reincarnated!" - I think there's an anime on Crunchyroll that's about 12 episodes, but you can also find scanned and translated pages on various websites. Hope you like it, it's honestly a lot of fun (and a nice change of pace from the usual undercurrent of Japanese imperialism that's in most isekai) - Terry

[butterflyscribbles]

Might be a can of worms I regret opening but I am absolutely stunned at how much of the general DR fanbase lacks sympathy for Kris’s situation. Are their actions insanely suspicious? Yes. Can we tell exactly how much they’ve hurt others in the past and now in the present with their actions yet? No, but we have an idea and their actions to cause harm should not be excused in any way just because of their situation.

But I still simply cannot fathom not taking some time to try and make their life a bit better by default. That is a teenager who has gone through unimaginable horror, grief, and manipulation.

Idc I’m walking them by the water fountain daily in hopes they one day take a drink. I’m taking them to the diner to eat something even if they’re uncomfortable stealing their brother’s money. Someone help them please I’m begging

[gummywyrmmy]

:O BATTAT SYSTEM LET’S GOOOO!!!! do you think there’s other system members or maybe dormant members besides Battat and Mike??

YES!! i have some fun ideas in mind actually...

each number corresponds with a different alter, and relates to the order in which they developed. the first three existed before card kingdom had fallen, and the last 3 started appearing after moving to TV world. everyone is not completely aware of eachother, which causes some internal conflict.

Mike is a bit irregular compared to the others, and was likely formed through influences that no one quite understands. because of this, Mike feels "separate" from the rest of the system, but is someone who Battat idolizes and wishes to become completely.

1. Pear - quiet and shy, they like to draw and read, and take naps. will just stare at you cutely until you get them a juice or crayons. doesn't front often.

2. Peridot - bit of a spoiled brat. loves to be pampered- misses her days in the diamond king's court. closest in personality to the average pippins. she enjoys sipping her battery acid and lazing around.

3. Dot - cold and analytical. usually found reading or observing others to gather information. does not take shit from anyone. often isolates himself, especially from other pippins.

4. Rattle - frenzied and neurotic. very mistrustful of others, and often refuses to sleep. constantly shaking, cant sit still. comes up with the most crack theories. WHO IS MIKE?! WHO IS HE?!?

5. Battat - very defensive. has a major temper, and takes his job too seriously. afraid of being vulnerable, and lashes out when people try to pry in his personal business. he makes sure that everything runs smoothly in TV world.

6. Mike - charismatic and confident. definitely a little arrogant, and refuses to let Mike's image be tarnished in any way. can front outside of costume, but still prefers to keep it on for long periods of time. would do anything for tenna, even at his own expense

[cozza-frenzy]

Okay I figured out what the problem was last night with me having doubts about what we were saying - I completely forgot there's a new alter in here with me, and apparently he(?) was awake for that and might have been the one talking for at least some of it, if not most of it. How can I tell? I don't say things like "goofed" and "unserious" - no known/existing alter matches his general manner of speaking. And I have no idea where he gets any of this from. Or why him being here is apparently triggering bouts of perfectionism and over-explaining... do you know how many times I've edited this post? Having a dissociative disorder is weird sometimes... - Terry

[cozza-frenzy]

Being mildly unserious again but god I feel old, someone tagged our post with "Wait pokemon has horror lore?? Some Sonic.EXE shit??" It's not horror lore - this was a real glitch in the game. MISSINGNO. was an error handler for "Missing Number", when the game tried to generate a pokemon with an invalid Pokedex Number. It was something that only playtesters were ever meant to see. But after someone figured out how to generate a glitched pokemon with that name, how to encounter one became the stuff of playground legends. I still remember how you did it - you had to watch an Old Man NPC demonstrate how to catch a Weedle, fly to Cinnabar Island immediately without encountering any other pokemon, then use SURF to go up and down the coast outside the gym. Apparently it has something to do with a coding error; the player's name is temporarily replaced with OLD MAN for the mock Weedle battle, but something in the code never gets reset correctly. And because the coast of Cinnabar was erroneously coded to have no valid Pokemon encounters, it pulls garbage data from the player's name to generate a pokemon. But that doesn't even scratch the surface of the wild shit that would happen when you caught the thing. You could get Pokemon that were above level 100. You could get 99 of whichever item was in your sixth item slot. You could encounter Mew, which was normally unobtainable outside of special events. You could even train and fight with your MISSINGNO. - it had Water Gun in its move list twice, and its attacks turned enemy sprites into a glitchy, chopped-up mess. But the more you used its "powers", the more the game would start to break down. Music and sound effects would sound wrong. Trainer sprites and pokemon sprites would face the wrong way. The game would crash, the speakers emitting a loud screeching sound. You could even wipe your save game due to the data being corrupted; and rumors abound that doing certain things could even brick your game cartridge entirely. But given Toby is around our age - he's probably played those games. He'd know all about MISSINGNO. Hell, he's probably done that glitch himself. I wonder if it scared him...?

[ballgame]

The love & value interpretation of pink & yellow is feeling pretty likely right now

[ballgame]

This is relevant. I think

[cozza-frenzy]

…Speaking as someone who knows a lot about glitches in games? From a meta perspective this is extremely weird, and I really hope I can explain this well enough.

What seems to be happening here is like an "in-universe" version of a game glitch. The damage done by FRIEND is pulling data from elsewhere in the game's memory - specifically, the table used to determine an item's D$ value. This is obviously programmed intentionally, because this is something Toby has included in the game on purpose, but it's referencing something that tends to happen when something in the game isn't working correctly. Namely, this is what generally happens during a memory buffer overflow. There's a lot of technical stuff to this, but to make this as simple as possible; most 16-bit games (think SNES era, which matches Deltarunes style) can only "count" to 256. If something exceeds 256, then it either underflows - setting the counter back to 0 and starting again - or the excess 'overflows' into the next available counter. An overflow causes weird things to happen, as the game will sometimes continue to read (or write) code past the point it's supposed to stop doing that. This can have various unintended effects on the game, as the game starts pulling garbage data from other parts of its memory, like the co-ordinates of sprites on the screen... or tables of item data. So what seems to be happening here is that either the damage number from FRIEND's attack is so astronomically high, or the attack itself is so incompatible with the game's reality, that it blows right past the data used to calculate damage. Instead, it causes the game to glitch, and calculate damage from a completely different section of memory, containing completely different data. Deltarune itself - the game program or app that exists on our console or PC - is working just fine, but whatever the hell is up with FRIEND is causing a memory buffer overflow in the game's reality. And this is during a Chapter where a certain Yellow Flower starts fucking with fundamental "rules of the game" - like having 99 in all stats. Walking out of bounds. Creating an "infinite money glitch" that really bothers Ralsei for some reason. The same Ralsei who likewise starts breaking the game's fundamental rules - like walking over spikes - and snaps at Flowery later because "do you know what will happen if I don't follow the rules??" I don't know what FRIEND is - but whatever it is, I don't think it's supposed to be here. I think it's like MISSINGNO from Pokemon Red and Blue; it's garbage data given form, a Thing That Should Not Be, that causes all kinds of abnormal things to happen when it's sought out and interacted with. There are even metatextual parallels with MISSINGNO within Deltarune, because anyone who's played the original Red and Blue knows you have to do a very specific set of actions - you know, like the Weird Route - and then go up and down where the water meets the land in order to encounter it. Like the edge of the lake. Either way, there's something about FRIEND that fundamentally messes with the reality of a video game world - and for the people who live in it, that could be very, very dangerous.

[cozza-frenzy]

Okay, just a quick disclaimer I guess, realized while showering that I might have goofed when it comes to the explanation of Why This Stuff Happens. I can at least say this is a known phenomenon that's used for speedrunning games - look up video explanations for "ACE" (arbitrary code execution) speedruns for a more qualified take on Why This Happens. TheZZAZZGlitch, Doctorswellman, Abyssoft and Summoning Salt all have amazing videos about glitch hunting and speedrunning. In our defense, if we're not making sense - it's late, we've had a busy day, and we don't really know anything about coding. We're amateur speedrunners, not game designers or programmers, but we know a JRPG-typical glitch when we see one, because we've pulled off Memory Overflow glitches in our own playthroughs. Point still stands, though. FRIEND make game do weird thing, weird thing in our reality is Eldritch Abomination Shit from the perspective of the Deltarune characters.

[ballgame]

The love & value interpretation of pink & yellow is feeling pretty likely right now

[ballgame]

This is relevant. I think

[cozza-frenzy]

…Speaking as someone who knows a lot about glitches in games? From a meta perspective this is extremely weird, and I really hope I can explain this well enough.

What seems to be happening here is like an "in-universe" version of a game glitch. The damage done by FRIEND is pulling data from elsewhere in the game's memory - specifically, the table used to determine an item's D$ value. This is obviously programmed intentionally, because this is something Toby has included in the game on purpose, but it's referencing something that tends to happen when something in the game isn't working correctly. Namely, this is what generally happens during a memory buffer overflow. There's a lot of technical stuff to this, but to make this as simple as possible; most 16-bit games (think SNES era, which matches Deltarunes style) can only "count" to 256. If something exceeds 256, then it either underflows - setting the counter back to 0 and starting again - or the excess 'overflows' into the next available counter. An overflow causes weird things to happen, as the game will sometimes continue to read (or write) code past the point it's supposed to stop doing that. This can have various unintended effects on the game, as the game starts pulling garbage data from other parts of its memory, like the co-ordinates of sprites on the screen... or tables of item data. So what seems to be happening here is that either the damage number from FRIEND's attack is so astronomically high, or the attack itself is so incompatible with the game's reality, that it blows right past the data used to calculate damage. Instead, it causes the game to glitch, and calculate damage from a completely different section of memory, containing completely different data. Deltarune itself - the game program or app that exists on our console or PC - is working just fine, but whatever the hell is up with FRIEND is causing a memory buffer overflow in the game's reality. And this is during a Chapter where a certain Yellow Flower starts fucking with fundamental "rules of the game" - like having 99 in all stats. Walking out of bounds. Creating an "infinite money glitch" that really bothers Ralsei for some reason. The same Ralsei who likewise starts breaking the game's fundamental rules - like walking over spikes - and snaps at Flowery later because "do you know what will happen if I don't follow the rules??" I don't know what FRIEND is - but whatever it is, I don't think it's supposed to be here. I think it's like MISSINGNO from Pokemon Red and Blue; it's garbage data given form, a Thing That Should Not Be, that causes all kinds of abnormal things to happen when it's sought out and interacted with. There are even metatextual parallels with MISSINGNO within Deltarune, because anyone who's played the original Red and Blue knows you have to do a very specific set of actions - you know, like the Weird Route - and then go up and down where the water meets the land in order to encounter it. Like the edge of the lake. Either way, there's something about FRIEND that fundamentally messes with the reality of a video game world - and for the people who live in it, that could be very, very dangerous.

[cozza-frenzy]

Had an absolutely amazing day today despite it being hot as hell. Went to a small Pride event at a local church; honestly it was really nice, much more accessible for Panop than trying to attend the big Pride events Downtown. There were supportive parents with their trans Gen Alpha kids wearing 6/7 kandi bracelets, elder queers who still call the gay community "the family" - and nobody asked us about our religion at all. Panop traded kandi for some small things like pins and patches, and the event sponsors kept us loaded up with free popcorn, cold water, and alcohol-free mocktails which were all a relief in this heat. We found out from a nice trans girl there that a restaurant not far from us had a TADC Event going on, which was almost like a mini convention with vendor booths inside the store! So we headed down there for dinner and took some photos with the standees, ate some really good udon and a decent milk tea, and between the two events we got SO MUCH FREE SWAG. All in all, a really amazing day. I wish I'd taken more photos, but it's hard for a picture to capture the feeling of actually being a part of a community for once. We don't really get many chances to socialize irl because we're older, we're disabled, we don't drive, we don't even work outside the home. Despite the occasional hiccup (our persecutors have been influencing to start arguments online again...) things seem peaceful. Here's hoping it might last for a while. - Terry

[tlirsgender]

Things people hate hearing:

You are capable of harm

You have some level of power and agency

Ergo it is your responsibility to communicate your needs and boundaries

If you lie to someone about something being okay when it isn't, that is on you

Something being a trauma response doesn't exempt it from harming your relationships and the other people in them

Enabling your trauma responses will not make them go away, and it is your responsibility to work on yourself for your own wellbeing as well as the people around you

Being A Victim cannot be a pillar of your identity forever, and being victimized does not make you incapable of harming other people (see above)

You are not a mouse in a jean jacket you are an eel with a gun / adult human being who can use your words even if it's Scary

Having a personality disorder doesn't make you evil but you have got to get off of Personality Disorder Tumblr (see above, re: enabling)

[tlirsgender]

Deep sigh. You want me to ~be compassionate~ here's the compassionate answer: your trauma will tell you you're a helpless child forever and you need to Not Think This Way for yourself (living under the assumption you're still in danger whether you actually are or not) and everyone else who has to tiptoe around your Sensitivity. That's how you break the cycle and you can only do this by accepting responsibility for your actions. And it seems like a small semantic thing but imo step one is calling yourself a survivor instead of a victim. Self identifying with your victimhood helps No One. You lived, now get up

[cozza-frenzy]

Well, it's official. The tag filters are on. We are officially locked the fuck in, so we won't be frequenting tumblr Until It Is Done. Deltarune Tomorrow. - Terry

[memeclassheroes]

[cozza-frenzy]

what you said about how tumblr depicts transmen and women was true and i get tired of people pretending it's not, like it feels like they're trying to make it like a seperate gender from cis people? As in, oh you're not really a woman/man or trans men/women would never do (thing cis person of same gender does) because they have certain ✨experiences ✨ and (STATEMENT THAT BOILS DOWN TO WE CAN SHOVE THEM IN WITH THEIR AGAB). Im sorry i have stupid brain and idk how to say what im trying to but it feels the same as what you pointed out. Gender-essentialism but woke.

Yeah, this is basically what I was trying to get at, anon. It's like how people act like non-binary is "woman-lite" - you get "inclusive" spaces for "women and nonbinary people", which all seems well and good and adequately woke, until the six foot tall enby with a full beard shows up. Nobody wants to admit they mean AFAB people only. Nobody wants to admit they mean "only if you're androgynous in an adequately tomboyish way". So instead they get accused of not really being non-binary and invading a safe space, because "non-binary" is "not a man", and anyone who's not a man is female in some capacity. It's why we likewise despise terms like TME/TMA, because they're equally as reductive about people's experiences, and just as much trying to put people into a pink or blue box. We're non-binary, our AGAB is none of anyone's business, but we can't pass as our AGAB nor can we pass as the quote-unquote 'opposite sex'. Guess who gets mistaken constantly for either a trans man or a trans woman? Guess who is either "TME" or "TMA" depending on what flavor of freak someone thinks we are? Guess who gets treated like shit either way? But my point is - this just goes to show how all of this is entirely performative for some people. They'll pretend they're okay with trans and non-binary identities outwardly, but internally they're still sorting everyone into either a pink box or a blue box. And that depends on not just how they act and present themselves, but also whether or not they like that person. It's how you get people with green names on Shinigami Eyes* talking about "male socialization" as soon as a trans woman does something shitty; it's not just about revoking gender privileges, it's them admitting that they don't see any meaning in accepting trans identities beyond wanting to be seen as "a good person". None of this will ever mean anything at all unless people do some goddamn introspection, and actually think about why they do things. - Terry * Don't use this extension. We keep it around to unflag multigender and intersex users who did nothing wrong, but the devs themselves have sites like the Gender Wiki and Intersex Wiki flagged red by default, in a way that cannot be removed. I could flag fucking Fox News as T-friendly if I wanted to, but if I try to unflag either of those things, it won't even give me the option. Try it for yourself if you don't believe me, then delete the extension because the devs are exorsexist and enbyphobic pieces of shit.

[cozza-frenzy]

What I love the most about the TADC fandom (or what I've seen of it) is how there's a subsection of people just, kind of run with the idea of hope being a persistent thing. Yes, we might as well be trapped here forever. No we can't remember our old lives, names, or bodies. But what if people are, at their core, actually good? What if an AI isn't evil and stupid, but well-meaning and uninformed? What if we found a way to make our hopeless situation a little less unbearable? We might not ever get out, but what if we made the most of what we have? What if we realized that even if we've lost everything, we still had each other? What if hope could still break through the cracks like a persistent weed, even in this digital hellscape? What if after what happened to Kaufmo, it was collectively decided there should be no more after him - that no matter what, they can't afford to lose anybody else to despair? Something to think about, I guess; how when some people are presented with an inescapable scenario, they think about how to plant flowers that bloom in the dark

[cozza-frenzy]

Dear people who theorized this - how does it feel to be fucking correct

[zoesupreme]

I have started following the journey of a German soccer fan in the US for the world cup

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@laeffy the euros have found buc-ee's

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[cozza-frenzy]

[cozza-frenzy]

Don't you just love it when a genuine concern you had about how trans men are depicted in fandom gets misconstrued to the point it's now the epicenter of nuclear level discourse I'm going to go lay down in a cornfield until I get abducted by aliens, I'm sick of this shit

[cozza-frenzy]

Okay you know what, I'm still mad about this so y'all get the long version. That post was not about whether or not people disagree with your trans headcanons. It was not about transmascs being icky and weird by headcanoning charaters as transmasc, that you consider transfem. What it was about was the constant fetishization of trans bodies in fandom. The point I was making is people are trying to make behavior that would previously flag you as a 'chaser' into something that's considered progressive. It was about people immediately headcanoning men seen as 'more feminine' (more emotional, more submissive) as trans so they can draw them bottoming, and always, always being fucked in the pussy. It's about seeing trans male headcanons that depict top surgery and no bottom growth. It's about the complete lack of phalloplasty scars in art, EVER - even trans positive art! - because they're considered so unsightly. Some trans men are willing to do that if it means getting a functioning penis. Nobody would question if a cis man who lost his dick in an accident did that. Both are the exact same gender-affirming care. And likewise, it's about transfem characters who are always dicking down their partners. It's about how a character isn't seen as being really transfem unless she has visible bulge, like bottom surgery just doesn't exist in any universe but this one, like tucking isn't a thing. It's the comparative lack of transfem headcanons; the implication being that if a male character transitions to female, it's considered a downgrade. And to be clear - I'm not saying that you can't be transfem (or transmasc) and not like what you're born with, I'm not saying that you can't be trans and not conform to societal expectations of what "a man" or "a woman" should be. Don't turn this into a "you said you like pancakes, so you hate waffles" situation, or I'm taking a Taco Bell shit down your chimney. What I was trying to say was I'm sick of people's gender essentialism being rebranded. There is a good chunk of a lot of fandom that still sees trans men as essentially being women, and trans women as essentially being men - even if that's not the explicit language they're using, the intent is very much there. There is still a good chunk of fandom who think top/bottom, dominant/submissive, and male/female are all effectively the same thing. There is still a good chunk of fandom that refuses to engage with trans perspectives in any other way, avoiding anything that makes a trans man or woman seem too much like a cis man or woman. And I don't just mean passing, I mean shit like if a trans man tops. I don't know why so many people fall into this, but my guess is it doesn't pull in readers and viewers like the other shit does. Funny, that. But even what I had to say is pissing in the ocean compared to what's going on in the real world, and the amount of real-world harm that divisions within the trans community cause. I'm fully aware of this. And yet as soon as I dared to take that piss, several weeks later it comes back to haunt me with "transmascs are like thiiiis", and "transfems are like thiiiis", and part of it comes from people misinterpreting what we said to shit on transmasc headcanons as a whole. Needless to say, I'm never saying anything about this ever again.

[cozza-frenzy]

Don't you just love it when a genuine concern you had about how trans men are depicted in fandom gets misconstrued to the point it's now the epicenter of nuclear level discourse I'm going to go lay down in a cornfield until I get abducted by aliens, I'm sick of this shit