Thoughts on Anything and Everything

Currently 25, birthday July 19th. Giant math & science nerd, artist, and musician. I've been playing cello for almost 14 years now but I do drum line as well. Also gender nonbinary but, well, you could have figured that out eventually. Although I typically date cis females. Chronic depression and generalized anxiety disorder. Commence the pictures of my cats and my random thoughts

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Oh yeah, I was The Hero of Time for Halloween this year

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Since I haven't posted in a long time, enjoy some of the art I have created

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Two down! Three to go!!!

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I know I haven't posted in ages, here is a current photo

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You can never satisfy your body on your period...no matter what you never fail to bleed around the pad -_-

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Quack quack #nofilter

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My child and me

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Henna!!

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For those of you without SnapChat or missed it, I got new glasses (:

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It's bunny season again 😊

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Everyone is jealous of my shirt

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My goal this upcoming year is to mentally be aware of my negative thoughts and ensure that I’m doing everything possible to be as positive as possible.

My fight with mental illness is one that is very apparent. It’s not easy, and some days are very difficult, to the point where I have gotten very close to attempting suicide multiple times.

But I want everyone who reads this to know that the more you fight back, the better off you will be in the future. I know that everyone has their lows. I may have more lows than most but it gives me the opportunity to spread awareness that is vital to some one else’s life.

Yes, I have hurt myself, yes, I have suicidal thoughts quite often, yes, I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety, but I’m not going to sit back and let life pass me by.

For me, everyday is a fight and if I don’t fight one day, I will lose my life.

This post is a promise to myself and everyone who reads it that I will not give up my fight. Ever.

I have help 💜 Someone is a very special help and she knows who she is because I tell her very often that I am grateful for her 😉

But for those that don’t, please feel free to message me. I know what it’s like to feel so lonely and in your depression or just scared about everything that is unknown or not for sure. I’m not a therapist, but I have personal experiences with anxiety and depression

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I did a thing last night

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Since when is my cat a lap cat???

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Face paint for ASMVC's Dia De Los Muertos event today! 😊

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This pretty much sums up last night lol

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I got a haircut 😊