APG

If you don't like me then why are you here?

[crazyweirdduh]

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[crazyweirdduh]

I had to choose my friends children over my friendship with them (the parents). It's extremely frustrating that they keep trying to play victim through this whole ordeal but I'm glad evidence and the kids have apparently talked about the abuse. Sigh I miss them kiddos so much.

[crazyweirdduh]

APG turned 2 today!

[crazyweirdduh]

I am a certain way and it feels like no one understands. Including myself. I am so upset and stressed out not just because of school and bills. But because I keep coming home to a nasty, disorganized house. It is stressful, annoying and frustrating that the house is left a mess after I clean everything so all everyone has to do is clean up behind themselves or just do basics. But not trash gets over filled, fur everywhere, stains on floor, not putting stuff back, wrappers everywhere, dog water bowl bone dry/low/or with food or fur in the water. Toilet paper basket in restroom not refilled so basically they keep pulling out the rolls but not replacing them in the basket leaving me with no tissue because when the roll goes out and i reach in the basket there is none in there too i am mad... but i am mad for no reason is how the family treats me. I say don’t put drinks on the floor we tend to forget about what we put on floor nope no one listens - spills non stop. Washing doesn’t happen unless i make a big deal or point it out frustrating. literally will go commando because they have no underwear before they go wash!!! The thought hey I am getting low on clothing i need to wash tomorrow so I DONT run out of clean underwear doesn't come to MIND?!  I didn’t just loose my grandma or my longtime ride or die kitty Godzilla but it feels like yesterday. I talked to my grandma all the time and I have caught myself thinking man i need to call her.. smh and I got my cat at 13 years old. During that whole time i have gone through a lot of bullshit friends and guys. Bullshit drama with family too. Always had my friend Godzilla and life sometimes seem hard but she would always check on me. I am so mad about her death. I knew something was wrong with her but she then she looked alright. I was working so much getting money and keeping ourselves from drowning bills. D was in prison again and I was alone again. I had to make money and then I got caught up I didn't even notice how she didn't come out when I was giving cans to the kitties and then I was eating food I got after work and she didn't come out. I was looking for her and couldn't find her i looked under the bed. didn't see her but the boys did and saw maybe god didn’t want me to see her face - lifeless. I was so sad i fell to the floor I was broken hearted. I was so mad at myself. It has been hard to get over it. They said she died of old age. Idk I wish I took her to the vet if it was something I could prevent. 

My grandma died of cancer. We had no control of the situation. It was frustrating. She was getting better one minute and turned for the worse another day. She began to loose her mind and forget things then notice. It was horrible watching her decline. At the time I didn’t really have a faith so now that do have a faith. I get mad because I had the power to rebuke satan and didn’t even know it. I had the power to fight for my grandma and I didn’t know. I could rely on granny to tell my mom stuff and get her to stop being a lazy butthead. I wish I did more with granny. I did a lot out of all the grandkids. But still wasn’t enough. she was just in her 50s.... sigh  Sometimes I miss my granny and my kitty Godzilla so much I can’t breath. I got through the worst times of my life because of them. 

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[crazyweirdduh]

GOOD FUCKING POINT! MY HUSBAND ISNT BOTHERING ANYONE!! YET HE IS FOLLOWED, HARASSED CONSTANTLY, THEY (COPS) HAVE LIED ABOUT HIM - LOCKING HIM UP, PULLING UP OLD SHIT FROM HIS TEENAGE YEARS!!!!! WTF!!!!

[thepurpletape]

Rest In Peace

[crazyweirdduh]

i don’t know why...

I don't know why I'm expected to stay living in a mess. Idk why I have to say something to finally get it done. I don't know why it takes after telling you over and over for days/weeks months to do something if ever! Or until after I'm doing it myself pissed the fuck off. Then you want run and start doing it.... Idk why you get to be mad about me being upset at you...??? Like why is that okay? I can't even be mad?? I don't know why......!?

[crazyweirdduh]

Things are different. Wonder if they will ever go back. Idk brokenness is hard to deal with. A heart has been broken. And he's not to put it back together either.

[crazyweirdduh]

When your heart been broken. You ask for change and to have dialog with loved ones... To grow and learn from mistakes. I want to have something better.

[methodseeking]

JUSTICE FOR CASEY GOODSON

On December 4th, 2020, Casey Christian Goodson Jr. (23 years old) was shot three times in the back and murdered by a Sheriff’s Deputy as he was entering his home in Columbus, Ohio. Goodson’s family stated that he was returning home from a dentist appointment, holding a Subway sandwich, his face mask, and his keys, when he was shot.

Two days later, the Columbus Police Department made a statement alleging that James Meade, the deputy responsible for Goodson’s death, saw a man believed to be Goodson with a gun while driving. Meade then approached Goodson after he exited his car and walked home, where he was shot.

Hours after the shooting, the US Marshal for the Southern District of Ohio, Peter Tobin, confirmed that Goodson was not the fugitive they were searching for. However, Tobin also added that he believed that the shooting was justified, claiming that Goodson was shot after he refused to drop his “weapon.”

Yet another Black man murdered by the police.

DEMAND JUSTICE.

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[academiabutmakeitdiverse]

More people need to be talking about this.

Say his name.

His family’s gofundme:

https://www.gofundme.com/f/justiceforcaseygoodson

[crazyweirdduh]

We tend to put to much worry into things... Things that we need to let God handle.

[crazyweirdduh]

He is always bring up how he has deal with how my family treated me and my mom. But yet I asked a simple question and it went to hell from there. Isn't it possible my question struck a nerve with your history with YOUR family.

Sometimes our spouse is always ready to blame the others family (they are not innocent by no means) but it's really an issue the spouse has going with their own family! A whole argument over a fucking question. Super annoying.

But the woman is the sensitive one? No, men can be jus ad sensitive or more just cause they hide it with anger doesn't mean anything.

[crazyweirdduh]

He is always bring up how he has deal with how my family treated me and my mom. But yet I asked a simple question and it went to hell from there. Isn't it possible my question struck a nerve with your history with YOUR family.

Sometimes our spouse is always ready to blame the others family (they are not innocent by no means) but it's really an issue the spouse has going with their own family! A whole argument over a fucking question. Super annoying.

But the woman is the sensitive one? No, men can be jus ad sensitive or more just cause they hide it with anger doesn't mean anything.

[crazyweirdduh]

Selfish parent.

When you put your wants before your child's needs.

But hey that's just my opinion.

[crazyweirdduh]

We lost a kitty yesterday. Will always break my heart she was a rescue. Her name was MuMu. Gorgeous little girl. She will be missed. It hurts so bad. Sigh.

[crazyweirdduh]

I just want to kick back, smoke a blunt and eat some tacos. But, nah, I can't. I decided I was going to be a nurse. Then covid hit and everything's gone to shit now. I'm making the best of it. I'm trying. It's hard.

[crazyweirdduh]

Chill with the beef and get some chicken instead. 💰💰