Idea Storm Overload

Suspended until further notice.

[kusali]

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[creative-insolvency]

The internal struggle between "just call out for the rest of the day" and "if I don't get the new job that would not be a good idea" is a whole as formation shift and bayonet battle in the middle of the narrow street of a medieval core of a European city. And it's too bloody and messy to tell who's winning.

[creative-insolvency]

I gave up. No more thinking about work today.

[creative-insolvency]

The internal struggle between "just call out for the rest of the day" and "if I don't get the new job that would not be a good idea" is a whole as formation shift and bayonet battle in the middle of the narrow street of a medieval core of a European city. And it's too bloody and messy to tell who's winning.

[creative-insolvency]

I think I need to just withdraw further. Just stop existing entirely.

I may not be okay today.

I am still just pretending I am okay. My depression. My rage and contempt. My nagging feeling that I can't win, that I will always be rejected and fail those I care about is right there under the surface.

I am honestly surprised at my survival so far. I thought I'd be dead before 30, or at least 34. I'm turning 40 this year.

[creative-insolvency]

Listening to a person who can absolutely not take feedback in any way shape or form, preach about how to handle feedback is so depressing. No of this "leaders" can lead for shit. It's awful.

[demonius-darkblade]

hate how they forced bugs bunny into anti-weed propaganda in the 90s, as if bugs bunny wouldn’t love smoking weed 

[clayboy2000-deactivated20210427]

To be perfectly fair, bugs bunny would also love taking money for starring in anti-weed propaganda and then using said money to buy weed

[violencevoyager-deactivated2022]

bugs bunny is not real 

[zvaigzdelasas]

[xylophonicsynapse]

[battletoads]

[creative-insolvency]

I'm feel quite lonely

[creative-insolvency]

I feel some distance I don't know how to handle. I know it's temporary to some extent. I know I need to be patient. But waiting for someone who's upset with you, isn't easy for me. It activates that anxiety.

I just need to breathe deep. I got this.

[creative-insolvency]

Hey quick question, void? Do you feel anxious too? Apparently my med change has the unfortunate side effects of marking anxiety worse. But it doesn't quash my libido. There's always a price, huh?

[creative-insolvency]

I think I'm chronically scared of being misunderstood. I try to push it away. I hope people meet with assuming best intentions.

I must suck at communication. I try so hard, but it's never good enough.

I know I have arrogance to dismantle. I know I am not perfect and I'll be the first to admit to these. My flawed ass can at least do that.

[lavenderlemniscate]

feels like im always recovering. when do i get to live

[fizpup]

Get real.

[pastelpolitoed]

tumblr glitched while loading this, so instead of "dude get real" being the punchline, it was like this cat put on glasses for the first time and their friend was just. a legit dog. and not like them at all.

[fizpup]

This is killing me

[sometiktoksarevalid]

[raveezus]

[titsay]

[salvadorbonaparte]

I wish I could go to a doctor and just list every single symptom I ever experienced no matter how small and unconnected they seem and the doctor is nice and patient and knows everything and they nod and smile and explain that every symptom I ever experienced is connected to like one rare and often overlooked issue that's sooooo easy to fix with like. a pill. and then I never have to worry about anything ever again.

[loucifersbitch]

Imagine yourself being so loved that your husband names a bright crater on the moon after you. Imagine being so missed and cherished that you’ll now be remembered for all of history via a bright spot in the universe. Imagine that kind of love finding you