Crossed Beams

Rose, 30, UK, mess. Uncomfortable honesty, X-Files, MSR, The Fall. Writes but rarely these days.

[limnaea]

For all the hubbub about the MSR canon-by-first-kiss I am honestly not invested in that because they, in order, 1) do not happen 2) is cpr 3) is a dream sequence 4) is under a social guise and then the last one 5) makes it clear they’ve been kissing off screen for forever. Do you know how hard it is to debate a canon relationship when they’re having a relationship behind our backs? That’s what they’re doing. They’ve been having a relationship behind the backs of the audience

[crossedbeams]

Actually...

MSR meets Love, Actually | Angsty  Christmas Fluff | No Beta Speed Write | PG 13  

They had first seen it on a rare night of normalcy, saccharine sweetness stolen from the endless adrenaline of running. The whole evening had been stolen in fact, the faulty fire door lock on an Iowa cinema letting them sink softly into a darkness full of cuddling couples and popcorn smells and no conspiracy at all.

Mulder had scoffed at first, but silenced when she slid her hand, small in his, to rest on his knee and put her head on his shoulder. In a way it was their first date. They’d always got things backwards; they’d done the sex and the baby first and were the living epitome of “til death do us part” even if they’d never got the piece of paper, but they’d never sat in a cinema to actually watch the movie.

That night, at the credits, Mulder nuzzled her ear and said the porn stand-in couple reminded him of them. That they had had some of their best and most complex discussions somewhere between losing their clothes and coming undone on hired bedsheets. Scully had countered that they were more like Bill Nighy and his manager, indelibly bound, with her always cleaning up his mess. Maybe they were both. They had passed that new year tangled naked together, half a bottle of scotch down, in love, actually, even if the world was against them.

It had turned into a sort of ritual after that, a DVD bought at a gas station stuffed in her fuzzy slipper sock when she woke up next Christmas morning, a rerun caught on the TV in her mom’s kitchen, a punch to the stomach every time she cycled past it when channel hopping on her first Christmas alone in a too quiet apartment.

She could see them in every narrative now.  Their love story a spectrum of bliss and pain that was still waiting for that ribbon tied happy ending.

Keep reading

[crossedbeams]

After the rain, and the mud, and the rain, came the reckoning

[crossedbeams]

Found this old treasure when cleaning out a harddrive from 2016. You’re welcome

[crossedbeams]

Today is my 30th birthday and I'm in lockdown in a global pandemic. Today I opened a box which contained messages and gifts from 13 people I would not have met without the X Files or this website. Today I video called with eight women who live in my pocket and love on me because of this fandom, even though we barely talk about this fandom.

Never let anybody make you feel as though your interests or your spaces are not valid or important. If our jobs, our schools, our doctors appointments can go online and maintain their legitimacy then clearly the loves, our friendships deserve that same respect, that same recognition. Embrace the niche, nerdy parts of you and find spaces that celebrate them. These are the things that will remain in times where nothing is certain, and the people they bring you?

The world may shut down.

Parts of you may shut down.

They will not. Because physical distance, time difference, ridicule for passionate defence or fear of being too much of what you believe in have never been factors that impact these friendships. Neither could a pandemic.

To all my pocket pals out there, I love you. Thank you for your generosity and grace when I have less to give and for accepting what I have. To anyone still looking for those people. Don't give up. I love you too.

[crossedbeams]

Yall I have no idea why this suddenly reposted :D thanks for all the well wishes from my 30 and a month and a few weeks ass

[crossedbeams]

Today is my 30th birthday and I'm in lockdown in a global pandemic. Today I opened a box which contained messages and gifts from 13 people I would not have met without the X Files or this website. Today I video called with eight women who live in my pocket and love on me because of this fandom, even though we barely talk about this fandom.

Never let anybody make you feel as though your interests or your spaces are not valid or important. If our jobs, our schools, our doctors appointments can go online and maintain their legitimacy then clearly the loves, our friendships deserve that same respect, that same recognition. Embrace the niche, nerdy parts of you and find spaces that celebrate them. These are the things that will remain in times where nothing is certain, and the people they bring you?

The world may shut down.

Parts of you may shut down.

They will not. Because physical distance, time difference, ridicule for passionate defence or fear of being too much of what you believe in have never been factors that impact these friendships. Neither could a pandemic.

To all my pocket pals out there, I love you. Thank you for your generosity and grace when I have less to give and for accepting what I have. To anyone still looking for those people. Don't give up. I love you too.

[crossedbeams]

The inaugural edition of Fox Mulder pulls a Mulder ft. Dana Scully’s full spectrum of WTF faces.

[crossedbeams]

Today is my 30th birthday. I'm in lockdown in a global pandemic.

Today I sat on my living room floor and read messages and opened gifts from 14 people I wouldn't have met without the X Files or this website. I videocalled with eight women who I wouldn't know without this fandom, who I rely on though we barely discuss fandom any more.

Never let anybody make you feel that the spaces and people that you find online are less than those from elsewhere.

If 2020 has given me one gift it is the reminder that these relationships are the most precious, realest things I have been blessed with. Our jobs, schools, doctors appointments are legitimate when run online, so its time to banish the stigma attached to online love, platonic or otherwise.

These spaces, where we share our nerdiest, nichest interests, develop them and find like minds are the places that will get us through shit like this year. Physical distance, language barriers, different ideas are not insurmountable here. We already have the courage to stand apart from the norm, to be passionate without shame, we are curious, cautious, resistant to the minimisation of what we know to be of value. A pandemic is no match for these people.

The world may fall apart.

I may fall apart.

They will still be there.

To all of my pocket pals. Thank you for being there, even when I have nothing left to give. Thank you for accepting what I bring when I can. I love you.

To anyone still looking for their people. Don't give up. Dont change. I love you.

[crossedbeams]

I'll be thirty in a few days, and my family dug out this Daily Mirror page 3 from when I met Frank Bruno as part of my Baby of the Year duties. Wild to have lived so long already 😅

[ithelpstodream]

[cookie-sheet-toboggan]

so is Victory

[ashermajestywishes]

LOVE TRIANGLE

[bsparrow]

Don’t forget Truth (Coming Out of Her Well to Shame Mankind)

[justrollinon]

This must be why the Trump administration hates them all 

[acciowine]

The Four Horsewomen of the Trumpocalypse.

[krustybunny-deactivated20221129]

I’ve never reblogged anything so quick

[spectrometon]

The Ultimate Squad, comin’ to wreck your shit and save the world

[quentineliot]

Rb for that art doe

[identicaltwinhalfbrother]

Dignity here to join the girl posse.

[brainwad]

AVENGERS ASSEMBLE

[becomeunsolved]

reblogging for the second time

[athelind]

ALWAYS REBLOG

[cydonianlady]

Reblogging because I don’t think Dignity was on it last time I saw it.

[thenightling]

Dignity is rare on this site. 

[somethinginthestatic]

god i’m still so angry that we got to see mulder meet and hold william for the first time but not scully because apparently we’re only allowed to see the parts of childbirth that are women in pain but not the parts that are fulfilling ? like we had to see every bit of trauma in her pregnancy and delivery magnified and up close from her point of view but the moment we got near any reward for all of it the perspective shifted to his point of view instead and we didn’t even get the catharsis of seeing her hold her baby for the first time ? instead we got to see her perfectly clean and domestic holding her perfectly clean christ child so they’re both presentable for daddy (mulder) and the three wise men ? explain to me how that isnt the most male and sexist writing you’ve ever seen

[crossedbeams]

I'm 7 days into mandatory quarantine and as a result have spiralled into Halloween madness....

[crossedbeams]

Mulder: Hunger, a force that shapes our world, dividing the haves and have nots around a hollow space that cries to be filled. How quickly we forget its bite, even though it is only ever days behind, prowling on the fringe of poverty, teeth bared in indiscriminate hatred -

Scully: Mulder. I literally just asked whether or not you wanted a fry.

[crossedbeams]

So I just read 135k words of a fic before realising it is unfinished and hasn't been updated since Nov 2019 and if that isn't karma for all my WIPs I don't know what is

[scandireader]

The last text you sent is the title of your debut novel. What is the title of your book?

[karinacutiefox]

Mulder and Scully 🛸

[crossedbeams]

The first time their clothes get trashed on a case with no alternates to hand. Before it's not funny to joke about these things any more, he was supposed to pick out something plain. At the airport, she tugs on hers sheepishly as she declares her firearm, considers pulling a still damp jacket on and dealing with the discomfort in place of the shame but he's watching in that sideways way. Head on it would look like he doesn't care, but she's already learned these are the moments he holds on to, the small captures that he adds up to big things like trust and the way he sometimes looks at her when she speaks her mind. So she throws her shoulders back and meets the official's gaze icily, daring them to smirk, and when they melt away, catches her partner's eye and cracks the corner of a smile, just for him.

"Mulder, we look ridiculous."

"We look like a team"

[crossedbeams]

Lol at the Netflix post. Seen it trending in the UK Netflix top 10 for weeks and initially did have an image of a certain contingent shouting I told you so. You are truly a PR mastermind 😉 Anyway hope all is well with you

I did a great job tbh. Hope I get paid soon 🤣 definitely worth all the insane rumours and death threats I received back in the day