gently rotting away

it/he/ghost, trans, xenohoarder, autistic, 20

[crowfeather-quill]

Introductory post

Hey there! My name is Apollo, my pronouns are it/he/they and I'm aroace and autistic. I'm not new to the site, but this is my first official post. I'll be mainly posting art, rambles, maybe some writing here and there, and a lot of reblogs of things I find funny. Most of my original content will be centered around fandom stuff, whatever I'm currently interested in. My current main fandom is BBC Merlin, so expect most of my content to be within that fandom.

Here are the tags I'll be putting on my posts to help organize it.

"apollo writes" will be used for my writing

"apollo scribbles" will be used for my art

"apollo rambles" will be used for just random rambly posts or posts that don't fit in the other categories

"apollo reblogs" will be used for posts I reblog

I'm not really sure what else to say here, but if you have any questions feel free to drop them in my ask box or the comments :]

[ziezii]

one of my favorite things about shinso is how surprised he is whenever he sees how energetic and happy his new classmates are around him and/or each other

[miauiz]

blind deaf and mute challange

[b0n33pile]

my MHA ship Headcanons (fully updated for that one person that wanted more lol). These are my favourite ships/the ones I’ll base most of my MHA content on so enjoy lmao

[moonlight-shadxw]

Hello (: villain mic delivery

[crowfeather-quill]

You have never loved me enough to let me be too much of an inconvenience for you.

[what-even-is-thiss]

Large groups work in predictable ways but individuals do not. The world is full of so many ways of thinking and experiences so with all that in mind I honestly don’t know why you were so surprised to find me living in your walls

[sovietnam]

[pflugy17]

[what-even-is-thiss]

Dried mango is so good it’s like a drug or something what do they put in there

[brain-deadx0]

Mangos I think

[what-even-is-thiss]

Wild if true

[henstomper]

dont you dare call me a fucking fake gamer i think about dick every moment of my life.

[noxusnocturnal]

What does that have to do with gaming ?

[henstomper]

fake gamer spotted. take the shot.

[siflshonen]

“I could fix him”; “I could make him worse!” Why??????? Why all this DIY???? I just wanna stand over his shoulder and see what he can possibly fuck up next

[strongermonster]

god i love little kids, they're like aliens, they're so bizarre.

i hung out with some pre-k kids today and told them my birthday was yesterday and it was absolutely Not Computing to them that i didn't get presents so they were bringing me random shit (pinecone, tiny rock, crust from sandwich, some smushed blades of grass, etc etc) and one kid brought me a handful of sand and as he was holding it out to show me how shiny it was, noticed there was an ant in it, and his instinct for some fucking reason was to lean down and suck in a mouthful of the sand/ant???????? and sent himself into a coughing fit. literally what and why the fuck would anyone do that

[what-even-is-thiss]

Valuable lessons being learned all the time. For example, that sometimes people don’t want presents on their birthday and that inhaling sand is generally not a good idea. The human mind is a beautiful thing.

[crowfeather-quill]

Vent cause I'm upset and exhausted

TW: Abuse, parentification, neglect, trauma

Cat pictures so, hopefully, the actual vent is under a cut :)

I'm really fucking tired of having to act like my mum's parent. I was severely abused for the vast majority of my childhood, and yet she's the one who constantly plays victim and cry's about flashbacks. I get she was also abused, but she was barely ever home, she was a grown adult at the time, and she was completely complicit with my abusers mistreatment of me. She uses her trauma as an excuse to stay in her room /constantly/.

Her only chore to help out around the house is to do the dishes, but I'm lucky if she does it once a week at most. And she never actually finishes the job, she half asses it and leaves half the dishes there still dirty and festering and let's another weeks worth pile up on top of it.

She doesn't see the issue with it because she doesn't ever go in the kitchen cause she locks herself in her room and doesn't ever get food from there. I'm the one that has to deal with the smell of mold and rotting food, has to fight to get space in the sink to clean enough dishes to make a single meal for myself and my little brother.

Then when I try to confront her about it she just complains about how she gets flashbacks when she goes into the kitchen. Like????

Out of the two of us I'm the one who actually has a legitimate reason not to go into the kitchen. I'm the one who was forced to do all the cleaning and chores for a family of four when I was a literal child. I was the one who was screamed at and berated and beat over any miniscule mistake while I stood and sobbed over the sink. I'm the one who has an anxiety attack whenever someone so much as steps foot into the kitchen while I'm in there.

I get my mum has her own issues but that does not give her the right to stop being an adult, to stop being a mother. I don't care about her anymore, I don't love her anymore, I don't expect her to actually be a mom for me anymore, but at the very least she needs to act like a god damn adult. If not for me than at least for my brother, who doesn't deserve to lose her to her selfishness like I did.

[marksollinger]

[image description] an edited image of a white cushioned dining room chair against a solid black background and red graphic text all around it that reads, in all-caps, “THIS CHAIR IS TRANS AND THERE’S NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT” [end of image description]

[tjada-works-the-nightshift]

Pretending at least.

[incel-rights-advocate-deactivat]