Got locked in a tomb help

29, any pronouns

[egelantier]

i am dying for people to recognize harrow and gideon as the golden child/scapegoat in the locked steam cooker of several layers of institutional abuse. of course harrow's love is cramped and painful and awful, of course gideon's love is obsessed and self-negating, of course they're fixated on each other and yet blind to each other. gah.

[reallyveryhuman]

[teaboot]

On of the less intuitive things about love, I've found, of any kind, is the importance of needing things.

I didn't realize it until recently, but I've always seen love as something requiring sacrifice, selflessness, patience, and generosity- to ask for nothing is to be the best person I can be, small and quiet and never in the way, always happy and helpful, self-sufficient and present when desired.

It's only as an adult, now, that I'm beginning to see the selfishness of wanting nothing.

I cut my friend's hair in my kitchen the other day. They wanted a trim and I had the skills, so I offered, and was genuinely excited when they stopped hesitating over "bothering me" and took me up on it. It was a peaceful afternoon, and we had tea and chatted for an hour or more.

My brother and I shared popcorn at the movies a while ago. When I came time to pay, I pulled my card out like a wild western sheriff and slapped it on the machine before he could fight me for it first. The satisfaction was delightful.

Someone called me crying on the phone the other day. Kept apologizing for disturbing me at work, talking about how they were bothering me on my lunch break. I was telling the truth when I told them that really, I was flattered and honored and relieved, knowing that if they were hurting I would know, that I didn't have to worry in silence. It felt good to hear them slowly come down, and to know that they knew it would be better soon, and to hear them laugh wetly on the other end. We're getting together for a visit next week.

It's hard to need things, if you've trained yourself not to. It's hard to want things, when you don't know how to want anymore. Trusting people is difficult, and so is relying on them, but I don't know where I'd be without the people who rely on me.

I've heard a lot of people say, "Nobody will love you unless you love yourself". I've had a lot of thoughts about it. It's not right, but it's not wrong, either, I think.

"Nobody will love you unless you love yourself"... I've always taken that to mean, "You will not be lovable until you develop a positive view of yourself as a person".

Now, I think it's sort of inside-out.

"Nobody will love you unless you love yourself"... because nobody can show their love to you in a way that you can accept until you treat yourself kindly, and learn what you need, and what you want, and how to ask for it, and then give that vulnerability away.

Love, for me, is someone I ask for a ride to the airport. Whether they end up doing this or not is irrelevant.

It's not needy, or selfish, or taking up energy. It's giving the gift of being wanted, and needed, and thought of. It's giving someone the security of being part of someone's life.

[bloodknife]

WHEN I AM IN HEAVEN I WILL REMEMBER YOUR MOUTH, AND WHEN YOU ROAST DOWN IN HELL I THINK YOU WILL REMEMBER MINE

[crowskribble]

I've noticed people look at me more here, nobody is staring or anything rude, but people definitely look at me for a second or so before moving on with their day. I told my sister about that and she responded with "don't stress it they probably trying to figure out if you're a boy or a girl, you know, because of how you look" and like I'm not mad about that but girl you could lie and tell me it's because I'm smoking hot but noooo you just have to be honest like that

[crowskribble]

I moved to the big city recently and I think it's really homophobic that I haven't found a girlfriend in those two weeks I've been living here

[lockedtombmemes]

[verymerrymart]

[asa-bunny]

I've developed an affliction.... I can't stop drawing griddlehark in happier universes

[helenecoffeesnob]

Thoughts on Griddle fanon characterization:

It is very important to me that Gideon Nav is seen as a Losergirl. Seriously, she isn’t suave. She THINKS she’s suave, but she isn’t. She IS funny, especially when she’s the one narrating. Gideon is, in canon, a homeschooled teenager from a religious backwater planet and has canonically never touched a titty that wasn’t printed on paper or attached to her body. Don’t get me wrong, she is The Character of All Time.

But we all need to remember that this motherfucker blushed and stuttered when an older woman so much as batted an eyelash at her. She’s got as much game as Luke Skywalker going to Toshi Station to pick up some power converters. She’s amazing. Losergirl representation.

[primodialchaoswizard]

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Griddle…….

[evilphrog]

[myriapoda-1306]

A comic I made recently. You cannot imagine how hard it was to find the courage to draw and post this, because my fears have grew so much stronger than me. Even setting he/him pronouns in my bio feels scary and unsafe. And drawing that comic felt like a crime.

[crowskribble]

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[vividciggy]

RIP Gideon you would've loved being a hunk in a leather jacket

[relaxnotshaveeyebrows]

*smacks the locked tomb like it’s a car*: this baby can fit so much grief inside it

*stone starts rolling away because i got into a wrestling match with the only other girl my age before coming over here*: oh god oh fuck

[crowskribble]

That's exactly what happened

[crowskribble]

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[thecrochetedcocoon]

spiderrrr doily

[scolop98]

TLT modern!AU ala this interview, where each of the major characters is in a steady partnership with a different elephant zookeeper and has been doing pretty well in therapy for the last few years. None of them have seen each other in years (for the better), if they’d ever met at all. Life has been pretty good… until their spouses and partners are all invited to the same regional zoo keepers conference with a +1