emotion vomit.

[marymekpop]

a daily dose of sunshine & wisdom

[styrke-deactivated20240722]

feeling validated, heard, seen, and acknowledged in a friendship is so important. it’s the most beautiful feeling i think. being able to tell someone the most private feelings, exposing yourself at the most vulnerable, and being met with empathy, understanding, and confirmation that you’re not just being whiny, spoiled, ungrateful, or any of the other self-deprecating things you tell yourself you are when you’re breaking down. to have someone bring you back to reality when you’re busy minimising your struggles, yeah, that’s really beautiful and it’s truthful. someone who sees you where you are exactly as you are, not better or worse. just you. that’s so important in a friendship. definitely the most beautiful feeling.

[crystaleyes]

Hello stranger stranger

What's this I see?

A sparkle in your eyes

sets a flicker to my heart

In the mountains of unknown

with a whiff of familiar

Too weak for happy water

reached for beer but nowhere

So we touch the stars anyway

while we write the same page

But, alas, stranger stranger

My fear do us part

'cause hello stranger stranger

You're just too unfamiliar

— Hello Stranger Stranger by me

[crystaleyes]

"Why did you touch me? Even when I said no?"

— Ghost Story (#9)

[crystaleyes]

What a little girl experiences is an atmosphere of 'correctness', but one which never permits a close contact with either father or mother, and hence leaves the girl puzzled and afraid. She is never sure of what the parents feel or think; there is always an element of the unknown, the mysterious, in the atmosphere. As a result the girl withdraws into a world of her own, day-dreams, remains remote and retains the same attitude in her love relationships later on.

— Erich Fromm, The Art of Loving

[crystaleyes]

"싱가폴에서 온 친구가 되게 착한 것 같아"

That person from Singapore seems really nice.

— Ghost Story (#7) x The Power of Strangers (#4)

[crystaleyes]

Include, Exclude

There is no one way to live; we have to embrace the different ways of living.

Sometimes it’s not about doing something, it’s doing nothing itself that’s excluding.

[crystaleyes]

Withdrawal is the easiest.

[crystaleyes]

"Tell them it wasn't me. She said no so I didn't give it to you."

"You were the one who gave it to me."

"How could you, Crystal."

"But I didn't do it..."

— Ghost Story (#8)

[crystaleyes]

"Why is he not replying?"

"Shy...?"

— Ghost Story (#7)

[crystaleyes]

2, 3, 8, (13), 15, (17), 21, 23, 27, 28, 28

I once read an interview of Gong Yoo's that he had never experienced loss of a loved one till he was 29 when his actor friend Lee Eon passed away. That was when I realised, “Oh... so there are people lucky like that.”

[crystaleyes]

“你要对自己有多一点自信。至少对我来说，你是漂亮的。”

"You should have more confidence in yourself. At least to me, you are pretty."

— Ghost Story (#6) x The Power of Strangers (#3)

[crystaleyes]

Thanks to Facebook I was reminded that I used to care. Too much. And why am I angry? That I cared, or that the world didn't and still doesn't, and I'm supposed to accept that?

Me: I feel so desensitised. What would've gotten me worked up in the past, I now look straight into their eyes, feel only a little of something and have no desire to act on it. Is it because I "learnt to respect choices" or have I succumbed to the world?

KT: You've figured that sometimes one gets punished for caring too much—you're the only one who gets angry, while the world moves on without a care.

[crystaleyes]

"Take your time. It's okay to be shy."

— Ghost Story (#5) x The Power of Strangers (#2)

[crystaleyes]

"It's okay, luckily we're in a mall. I can just buy another shirt,"

said the best customer every service staff hopes for after accidentally splattering some chilli sauce on their shirt.

— The Power of Strangers (#1)

[crystaleyes]

윤지호: 다시 뵙지도 못 할 분한테 제가 위로를 받았네요

남세희: 다시 못 볼 사람이라 위로가 된 걸 겁니다

Yoon Jiho: I was comforted by someone I’ll never see again.

Nam Sehee: You were comforted because I’m a person you will never see again.

— 윤난중, 이번 생은 처음이라 (Because This is My First Life by Yoon Nan Joong)

The Power of Strangers (#0: prologue)

[crystaleyes]

Rest in Nature

Sunlight flickers through the dancing leaves

Graceful clouds twirl across the lush valleys

Voluminous silk pour down grandiose cliffs

The shepherd’s dog rustles the grass in bliss 

With the ocean current sequinned fish drift

Among the flowy corals Nemo and friends frisk

Silence in the seabed I hear like music

The giant clam claps for me weightless and free 

Mountains strong and tall like a dream

The woods lovely and mysteriously deep

Wide lakes blue like cotton candy

The dark sky a shimmering majesty

Boulders sturdy in my grip as I ascend

The sky gets cold as I tread the flower roads

As the mischievous breeze welcomes me

My breath taken with the heavy yellow hue

My vision, filled by beauty

My mind, hushed by serenity

My heart, calmness hugs

My pain, peace eases

So high on crisp air I quietly wish

To disappear and be in complete peace

That the splendid scenery would swallow me

And Mother Earth embraces me, finally.