Kelsie-Mae

If I have learnt anything in my short life on this Earth it is that; you should hold onto everything like it will be gone tomorrow; smile even when you really want to cry; sing until you can't breathe and dance until your feet hurt!

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Fun facts about your sign here

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Sources of plant proteins: - Pinto beans - Black beans - Peas - Broccoli - Wild rice - Almonds - Wallnuts - Edamame - Flax seed - Avocado - Dried apricots - Spinach - Chia seeds - Oat bran - Quinoa

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We accept the love we think we deserve

Anon

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The hardest battle for someone in recovery is achieving self love. 

One day<3

I have hope!

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“Not all those who wander are lost”.

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Is it?

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Self love

Being someone who has struggled with various issues surrounding how I see myself both as a person and in a physical sense it is time to address the idea of self love. 

The idea of loving yourself, in theory seems a very easy task. “I am here, I am alive and that is amazing in itself”. These sort of affirmations in times of heightened positive emotion are indeed easy to grasp. However in moments where you feel vulnerable, ‘not enough’ and even curled up in a heap on the floor it seems almost impossible to love yourself and cherish the fact you as an individual are indeed special and one of a kind. 

Waking up every morning, swinging my legs over the side of the bed to face my reflection in the mirror. That’s hard. Not because as soon as I wake up I look at myself in disgust but because I know the harm I have caused this vessel of life throughout the years. Ritualistic sigh of regret as I stand in the darkness, welcoming the day blurry-eyed. 

I think the matter of self love is not to basque in how amazing you are or how gorgeous/handsome you look or how great you are at something. No it isn’t self love but self ‘acceptance’ which really paves the way for reconnecting with ones self on a physical and mental level. I now try to perceive how my body is amazing in different ways:

1. I am living

2. I can see clearly (with the aid of glasses) the beauty of the world

3. I can smell all the delightful scents of the earth (A freshly mowed lawn)

4. I can taste the natural foods of the earth that nourish my body

5. I can feel the worlds textures and hold the ones I love dearly

- I could go on forever. In short, loving yourself may be hard, but cherishing the all the things your body allows you to do, big or small is in itself something to admire.

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I found the man who is worthy of my love. 

Fall in love with someone who:

-builds you up

-respects you

-makes you feel beautiful

-nourishes your soul

-who makes you smile

(No second guessing, just love)

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Fun facts about your sign here

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Fun facts about your sign here

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We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.

Oscar Wilde, Lady Windermere’s Fan

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Take me back to days spent taking photographs and getting lost in nature.

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Fot. Sonia Szostak

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How are you? me: look at my blog

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Why moving to university is hard.

Moving away to university is hard in itself even for those who don’t suffer from any mental illness or negative disposition. 

I have slowly come to realise that it is a very pressuring and stressful time for everyone and even the strongest people I know have slowly been broken down by the education system and it is so sad to see this. University should be here to inspire and spark young minds not make them feel stupid and incapable at times. I know of course this can be evident with most things in life, no one said it would be easy right? 

For myself however who suffers with long term issues it is 100x’s harder to identify that everyone goes through hardships in their lives, especially when I am in a very low and dark place. As someone who has terrible anxiety related to being alone and left alone with my thoughts and fear of harming myself it has been quite hard accepting that I can be kind to myself in the absence of others. I can admit I have not been so kind to myself and it saddens me that I have again succumb to some negative ‘practices’ in order to cope with stress. Everyday I fight the urges to; not eat; exercise excessively, harm myself etc. 

No one said I would ever get over this.

I don’t know what illusion I was under to think that as soon as I become an adult all of these problems would go away. The truth is, mental illness never truly goes away but instead adapts itself as you get older. It attaches to current hardships in your life, set out to destroy you.

The one thing I am learning through this hard time is that I will not let it destroy me, my happiness and the relationships I have. It has no right to take those away from me. So I am gonna hold onto life a little tighter, smile a little brighter and say ‘fuck you’ to my mental illness’!