Sometimes you hear a song and a fic pops into your head full formed. This is a trap. The fic may be fully formed in your brain, but you still Have to write it down. This is an important step that most people forget about.
you get a comment on tumblr. it's a bot trying to scam you. you get a DM. it's a bot trying to scam you. you get a message on instagram. its a bot trying to scam you. you're an author and you get an email telling you how much they loved your book and want to showcase it at their bookclub. it's a bot trying to scam you (and it uses bad AI to pretend it knows your story). you get a comment on ao3 saying how much they love your fic - and they made you fanart!! it's a bot trying to scam you. you get a hate comment on ao3 which insults your writing or calls you a monster for writing something "problematic". it's a bot. but at least that one isn't trying to scam you.
there's just something really cruel and insidious about this wave of scams going after creatives. You get an email and think someone genuinely loved what you made but - no. It's another scam. It's someone trying to trick you into sending them money. On AO3, it might literally just be a bot someone made specifically to be a hateful little shit.
putting the stuff you've made out there for everyone to see is hard and scary and we're all just bumping around looking for a bit of appreciation and love and connection and these bastards are using that to try to rob us. I hate it.
Chapters: 1/21
Fandom: The Hobbit - All Media Types, The Hobbit (Jackson Movies)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Bilbo Baggins/Thorin Oakenshield
Characters: Bilbo Baggins, Thorin Oakenshield
Summary:
Bilbo Baggins, a wealthy and respected man who never had any connection of a love or something similar before, has all but love in his life. He’s very sure to find true love and not just an “empty” relationship, and Gandalf decides to help him by placing an advertisement in the local newspaper mentioning that Bilbo is looking for someone special to be his companion to enjoy in sweet little moments. Thorin Oakenshield, the attractive and affluent man, is the first who answers to the ad. The sparks that appeared at their first meeting at Bilbo’s door is something that neither of them expected to feel. Bilbo is swept off his feet just by looking at a mysterious stranger walking nonchalantly around his house, smelling the books and lavender flowers in his vase. Thorin is enchanted by Bilbo’s taste in literature, furniture and other things that he values. Slowly, they will have to face the growing feelings between them and have to learn how to copy with them in order to live a happy life together.
“I was enchanted by the poetic words. But, oh, your sparkling eyes were the reason for me to stay.”
bagginshield scene analysis because I fell in love with this part of the movie the first time I watched it and I NEED to talk about it. (if someone else has already said all this, my bad.)
(cw: a lot of cursing!! I got very fired up while writing this. also slight spoilers for the hobbit movies)
Bilbo’s speech after they escape the goblin tunnels?
yeah, we don’t talk about this scene enough.
we don’t talk about how nice Bilbo is, and what a monumental open-up-my-ribcage-and-pull-out-my-heart moment this speech must be for Thorin.
because what’s significant about this scene is not just the fact that this is the first real change we see in Thorin and Bilbo’s relationship, where they finally seem to come to a mutual understanding and respect for one another—
it’s Bilbo’s fucking kindness. It’s the fact that Bilbo says “you know what, I’ll admit that I’m scared. I can’t fight. I don’t really know what we’re up against except for a dragon that might burn me alive, but sure, I’ll help you. because you’re a person, and I know what it feels like to have a home, a place to go back to, but you don’t anymore and if I was in your shoes I would want someone to help.”
LOOK AT THAT GLANCE. THERES SO MUCH TO BE GAINED IN THAT GLANCE, GOOD LORD.
Thorin has had entire armies, soldiers that might have actually had a fighting chance at defeating a dragon, turn their backs on him and his people when they needed it most. He watched legions of armed elves turn around and walk away. Sometimes people treat Thorin’s anger like it’s irrational, but fuck, if I was in his shoes, I would be pissed off too. Like, if the guy I had a royal treaty, a contract with had the power to possibly save my entire kingdom, and then backed out at the last second, I would hate him too. like imagine being a young, relatively sheltered prince and seeing someone you trusted to come to the aid of your actively dying people, and feeling the hope leave your body as you realize no one is coming. and the elves were kind of your last hope against a fire breathing dragon anyways? so???? fuck????
(don’t get me wrong, I’m not blaming Thranduil for the fall of Erebor. like Thorin, he’s also another flawed character with immense depth, and is also extremely bitter due to his immense and emotionally insurmountable grief. the beef he has with the line of durin is complex and he’s not a villain, though some of his actions are objectively shit.)
(and at the end of the day someone’s gotta take the blame for all those dead people. Thorin takes most of it, because he’s the heir to the throne and is plagued by chronic Kingly Guilt (TM), but like. some of that is on Thranduil’s head too.)
and of course, we’ve got to remember that after the fall of Erebor, Thorin spent years toiling away in human villages, facing harsh racial discrimination, being treated like he was lesser than because he was another poor, wandering dwarf looking for work. he’s learned that true kindness is a rarity, and that anything good comes at a price.
Thorin’s anger is a product of what he has learned. he can’t trust the elves; they’re self-serving traitors. he can’t trust men; they’re cruel. he can only trust his own kind, and even then, not many dwarves are willing to put enough faith in him to help him regain his fallen kingdom. he’s all on his own, with the help of a total of 12 other dwarves, and he’s aware that he’s most likely going to get them all killed in this suicide mission of a quest. he’s prepared to die; he’s had to prepare himself for the possibility of all of the other dwarves dying, all of which have pledged themselves to his hopeless cause, including his nephews.
(small side note: if you take that into account when looking at Thorin’s reaction to Bilbo’s betrayal, it makes things so much worse. because trust and loyalty are such important things to Thorin, and for him they’re hard to come by, and I’m not articulating this well enough to get my point across but essentially I think that scene went down in the Worst Way Possible. because his heart basically got thrown back in his fucking face after giving it away when he found out Bilbo had traded the arkenstone and used it as a bargaining chip. I know I might be pointing out the obvious for some people but. fuck if it doesn’t hurt to think about)
and then this small, unassuming hobbit, at the very high risk of his own life, who will gain virtually nothing if he even survives the quest, is like. yes. I’ll help you.
this, in my opinion, is one of the best scenes to examine when trying to get a read on Bilbo’s character. Because in this scene, Bilbo shows an amazing amount of empathy. Bilbo extends his kindness to Thorin—a virtual stranger, at this point—effortlessly, for the very, very simple reason of “your situation looks like shit from all angles and I feel for you. you asked for my help, and I’m determined to give it to you not because I’m bound by my word but because i genuinely want to.”
like can you imagine??? after literal decades of being treated like a piece of unwanted trash, of being powerless to stop the suffering of the people you’re suppose to rule over, of asking for help and never getting it and constantly getting stabbed in the back over it, after hoping and hoping and having nothing come from it, this hobbit—this strange fussy creature who has only ever known comfort and peace—just. gives you his life and faith. just like that. he just believes in you so easily, decides to help you simply because he has morals and it’s the right thing to do.
and it’s even more crazy that Bilbo does this because Bilbo 1) could die and 2) he has never been outside the Shire and realistically has no reason to relate to Thorin at all, because Bilbo has lived a relatively quiet life free of suffering (save for the death of his parents cough). his response is just pure empathy.
It shows that Bilbo is just. inherently kind, and I think that’s beautiful, because Thorin hasn’t met a lot of people that are just kind to him for the hell of it in the 60 odd years he’s been exiled from his own kingdom. even Gandalf, the person who urged him on his quest, has his own agenda. so do the dwarves that have agreed to come with him. they’re all expecting a share of the gold, and while he has their loyalty, he knows they have their own doubts as to the success rate of the quest.
not Bilbo though. Bilbo’s just along for the fucking ride and seems to be totally cool with it now, even though Thorin knew he was thinking about leaving and abandoning the quest altogether not even a day earlier. From Thorin’s POV Bilbo has just had a sudden change of heart, and decides to keep sticking with the company even though he is clearly terrified.
and fuck. I know that bilbo’s speech probably scraped something raw and bruised in Thorin’s soul. you can’t tell me some younger, much softer part of him didn’t crumple like a wet paper bag in that moment.
and most people agree that Thorin really started properly gaining feelings for Bilbo after Bilbo literally threw himself at an orc to save him, which is totally fair. but I think it was definitely during this scene that Thorin became at least a little smitten with his burglar. (read: A LOT SMITTEN)
in short, Thorin Oakenshield is yet another Tragic Tolkien King (TM) and THIS is the moment he fell in love with Bilbo (I would fall in love with him too, honestly). thank you for coming to my ted talk, I will now be taking questions ❤️
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