Rowan | He/They/It | Non-binary | Pan + Ace | DID + Autism + Selective Mutism + Tourette Syndrome | I like a variety of things that I draw + write | Ask me about headcanon stuff | I’ll write requests within reason
Hey, anyone who happens to be here! I’m Rowan (he/they/it) , some creature who found their way to this app. I tend to hyperfixate on things for extended periods of time. I find myself more focused on specific characters sometimes as opposed to the entire creation (be it a book, game, show, movie, etc.). I primarily do writing, on the rare occasion you may see a drawing. I have so many headcanons that’ll die with me unless asked about them, so feel free to ask about that, or share yours with me!
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Things I enjoy
•Batim (mostly Sammy)
•Fnaf (mostly William)
•Fnaf Novels (mostly Dave)
•Sally Face (mostly Larry and Travis)
•Little Nightmares (mostly Six)
•Little Nightmares 2 (mostly Mono)
•Deltarune (mostly Rouxls and Tenna)
•Undertale (mostly Burgerpants and Papyrus)
•Splatoon (Mostly Callie)
•Splatoon 2 (mostly Marina)
•Pokémon (mostly James)
•Outlast (mostly Richard Trager)
•Outlast: Whistleblower (mostly Eddie Gluskin)
•Outlast 2 (mostly Val and Marta)
•Outlast Trials (mostly Leland Coyle)
•Supernatural (mostly Cass and Dean)
•Chicago (mostly Velma, Roxie, and Billy)
•Dexter (mostly Dexter)
•Criminal Minds (mostly Spencer Reid)
•Steven Universe (mostly Garnet and Peridot)
•Spooky Month (mostly Kevin)
•Kid Vampire (mostly Count Papa and Kid Vampire)
•Lord of the Flies (mostly Simon and Jack)
•Detroit: Become Human (mostly Connor and Hank)
•The Owl House (mostly Phillip)
•Gravity Falls (just in general)
•Doki Doki Literature Club (mostly Yuri)
•DuckTales (mostly Gyro)
•Tender is the Flesh (just in general)
•Penpal (just in general)
•Borrasca (mostly Kyle)
•Dayshift at Freddy’s (mostly Dave)
•Moral Orel (mostly Clay)
•Venom (mostly Eddie and Venom)
•Prisoners (mostly Alex / Barry)
•Nimona (mostly Nimona and Ballister)
•Alice in Wonderland (mostly Cheshire Cat and Mad Hatter)
•Little Miss Sunshine (mostly Dwayne and Frank)
•Life is Strange (mostly Nathan and Kate)
•Life is Strange 2 (mostly Finn)
•Life is Strange: True Colors (mostly Steph)
•Lost Records: Bloom & Rage (mostly Kat and Nora)
•Batman: The Telltale Series (mostly Oswald)
•Batman: The Enemy Within (mostly John)
•Barry (mostly NoHo Hank)
•Scott Pilgrim vs. the World (just in general)
•Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (mostly Rahzar)
•Zombieland (mostly Tallahassee)
•The Shawshank Redemption (just in general)
•A Hat in Time (mostly Snatcher)
•Baldur’s Gate 3 (mostly Astarion)
•The Murder of Sonic the Hedgehog (mostly Shadow)
•Sonic Prime (mostly Nine and Shadow)
•Sonic Forces (mostly Infinite and Ian Jr.)
•Sonic the Hedgehog Games (mostly Shadow)
•Sonic Movies (mostly Stone)
•Beastars (mostly Melon and Jack)
•Arcane (mostly Silco and Viktor)
•How to Train Your Dragon (mostly Dagur)
•The Batman (mostly Riddler)
•Gotham (mostly Penguin)
•Peacemaker (mostly Vigilante)
•Harley Quinn (just in general)
•DC (just in general)
•Monster High (mostly Toralei, Clawdeen, and Kieran)
•Adventure Time (mostly Ice King and Mr. Fox)
•Fionna and Cake (mostly Simon)
•Clone High (mostly JFK and Ponce)
•Smiling Friends (mostly Allan, Glep, and Pim)
•Psych (mostly Shawn, Lassiter, Woody, and Mary)
•Brooklyn Nine-Nine (Mostly Gina)
•Rabbit Doubt (just in general)
•Squid Game (mostly the Recruiter and Player 120)
•Carmilla (just in general)
•Doctor Nowhere (mostly Jeppy and Filbus)
•Iron Lung (mostly Simon)
•Project Hail Mary (mostly Grace and Rocky)
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So, as y’all know I haven’t been doing the best mentally lately, hence my hiatus. I’ve been anxious and really tired (but I can’t sleep) and I feel constantly restless and spacey. I can’t focus on anything and I’m super stressed. I’ve been on a new medication for a bit, and it turns out that might be what’s been making me feel so much worse. I’m going to (hopefully) start a different medication, so I’m hoping I’ll be feeling better again soon! I miss getting to write, and I hope I haven’t seemed off in any of my replies, I was trying to come across like I was still doing okay.
Met a woman named Shewantya (actually pronounced “she want ya”) and I have never heard that name before in my entire life. Is that a common name?? I’ve met some people with interesting names in my life, but that was a new one.
I’m going to feel really dumb if that’s a common name.
since we are on the topic of escape murkoff francoyle do you have any fluff headcanons about them 👀👀
Yeah, I can share a few!
They’re definitely more domestic once they’ve escaped, like an old married couple almost. There’s no surveillance on them anymore, so they just get to be themselves and be together. Franco warms up to the idea quicker than Coyle does, but he eventually comes around to them just being a relatively normal couple too. They’re not actually married, obviously, that’s not legal yet, but they kind of pretend they are. I’d like to imagine that Coyle does eventually bring himself to propose, and maybe they even buy some wedding rings.
Franco loves the traditional, sappy romantic stuff. He loves planning date nights. Most of their date nights are inside their home, but every so often they actually go out somewhere. He’ll either cook for them and make drinks, or he’ll pay for them to go somewhere nice. Coyle’s never had anyone, well, spoil him like that. He pretends that he can’t stand it, but he actually likes how much thought Franco puts into it.
Franco loves movies, even if Coyle isn’t huge on them, they do have a lot of movie nights together. Franco chooses the movie, he likes most genres, and they’ll usually cuddle up on the couch and watch them until they fall asleep. They’re both more than happy to have a slow day like that, one where they just enjoy being together without having to do much.
Franco likes buying gifts for Coyle. He’s not used to that, he didn’t grow up with much and getting presents makes him feel like the woman in the relationship, but he secretly enjoys having Franco buy nice things for him. Coyle isn’t as good at picking out gifts, but he’ll occasionally try to find something for Franco; even if it’s silly, he appreciates the effort.
Do you have any thoughts on why Franco's hygiene isn't great? I've personally thought about a couple ideas (neglect, maybe he wasn't ever shown how properly clean himself or how often, maybe something trauma related?) but wasn't sure and wanted to know your thoughts :)
Franco does seem to care about his appearance. His nails are manicured, and he cares about his suit staying relatively clean. The manicures are a habit he picked up from stepmothers, and caring about his clothes is a habit he picked up from his father. I think, given his disabilities, he might struggle with some chronic pain. I think that makes it difficult or uncomfortable for him to shower, and even taking a bath eventually gets uncomfortable. Showering can be a very draining and debilitating experience for him, so he can’t bring himself to do it as often as he needs to. Given how difficult it can be for him, his father and stepmothers never really bothered with trying to teach him how to take care of his own hygiene. In terms of washing himself, he’s just doing what he thinks is right, since nobody taught him really. He knows he’s probably supposed to shower frequently, even if he wasn’t told that, but it’s difficult. His teeth aren’t great either, some are missing and or chipped, and others are just nasty. He didn’t learn how to properly take care of his teeth, the pacifier isn’t good for them, and his diet isn’t helping.
I saw Backrooms, and I thought it was pretty good! Not perfect by any means, but I enjoyed it. I like the general vibe of the movie and the visuals. I wish there would’ve been more found footage / actual handheld filming aspects, just because I liked those parts a lot.
I’ve been reading the au stuff you’ve been getting all day, and I love your thoughts about it all 😭
I’ve always loved the concept of an au where Coyle and Barbi escape, and somehow get back to Oklahoma (idk how, just bear with me. Somehow they take taxi and trains n shit all the way from Arizona). Coyle manages to recover his identity and status, rejoining the police force while giving Barbi a half-way new identity.
They’re horrible people, but they still deserve a chance at having a normal life. The most realistic outcome of them escaping is that they’d have to stay hidden to avoid Murkoff, probably making all their money under the table (Franco would have to get involved with crime again) but I’ve always been fond of the idea, however unrealistic, of them getting a chance at normalcy. Them with a nice, little house instead of their dingy cells. Coyle as a cop again, maybe a little less corrupt this time around, and Franco with a normal life for the first time; his entire upbringing revolved around the mafia, he never got to experience a standard life. I just think it’s a nice thought, them getting to live together and just have a regular life after everything they’ve been through. Let them be domestic and happy :)
Aww that asks about franco having a baby with his/other disabilities really got me
Hurt with comfort idea: Franco gives birth to a child that ends up having a disability (whatever the baby has is up to you) and as a result he starts pushing coyle away because he feels shameful and so he tries to punish himself. Coyle reassures him that its not his fault and no matter what he's gonna stick with him and their child
Now I’m being reminded of another Franco thought I’ve considered… given his attachments to objects and enjoying collecting things, he could easily end up hoarding without realizing it? I feel like he finds being surrounded by items comforting, too, so he wouldn’t really understand why it’s a problem.
I absolutely think he has hoarding tendencies! He’s always liked being surrounded by objects that bring him comfort. Most of those objects are small (pacifier, plushies, etc.) but that can add up pretty quickly when he’s constantly acquiring more stuff. His cell is a complete mess, there’s stuff everywhere, and it’s easy to tell that it’s a problem, but he doesn’t understand that. He likes having all of this stuff, it makes him happy, it makes him feel comfortable, so he doesn’t see how that could be a bad thing.
What other little knick knacks do you think the PAs would collect?
I can see Leland collecting old bottles whether its drinking glasses or medicine bottles
Liliya would probably collect a random assortment of animal bones (probably some human in their too) and dried/preserved flowers
Obviously gooseberry and her taxidermy but just in general old toys like those rushton dolls with the rubber faces or puppets
Franco would also have a collection of old toys but would lean more towards baby toys more than anything
I think for francesa I can see her having more baby doll adjacent things cause I personally see her having more of a dolly aesthetic than a baby aesthetic like franco
Otto would be big on collecting rare books including books bound in real human skin
Aurora would collect things like radium glass or anything infected with radiation really.
The klepto arc is my calling, as an irl kleptomaniac; not something I take pride in or feel good about, but it is what it is.
Franco is the biggest collector out of all of them, he just likes having things. He doesn’t even keep all of the things he finds, he likes giving random junk to people as gifts. His preference is toys and plushies, but he’ll really keep anything that peaks his interest. Cool rock, shard of glass, poster, just whatever he can get his hands on, really. He’s liked collecting things since he was a kid. Francesca is pickier about the stuff she’d collect, she has a standard when it comes to her junk collection; it has to be quality junk. Baby dolls, cute clothes, and things she thinks are pretty.
Coyle likes collecting bottles, any sort of bottle, and he also collects cigarette packages. He keeps his cigarette packs, and he keeps ones he finds on the ground; same with bottles. He’s been collecting glass bottles since his teen years, the medicine bottles and cigarette packages didn’t start until adulthood. He also collects newspaper clippings, especially anything that mentions him (whether directly or indirectly) and he also likes weather related newspapers.
Gooseberry has her taxidermy, obviously, but she’s a collector of more than just that. She collects toys and dolls, and she collects little clothes also; doll clothes, baby clothes, accessories, and whatnot. She made a lot of whacky taxidermy, like animals that didn’t exist or posing them in silly positions, and she liked putting little accessories on them. She’s big into sewing, so she always has an array of fabric around whether it’s for her own clothes or for her puppets that she makes.
Otto definitely collects books, and I imagine that’s a habit he’s had for most of his life; he has all sorts or rare or expensive books. He also collects political posters (propaganda and otherwise) just as keepsakes or because he found them interesting. Arora definitely keeps a lot of her chemistry related stuff, and she’s super fascinated with anything scientific. Outside of that, she also collects empty perfume bottles, which is a habit she picked up during her teen years. She just thinks they’re pretty.
Liliya collects bones (human and animal) and she has a very large collection of religious items, as well. She does like dried flowers, likes to preserve them, and she’s also fond of certain bugs; think those butterflies that people preserve and put on the wall.
mmmm hi moot aa.aa um idk if you had like. ......gulpplpp
any takes on little!easterman mayhaps,,,,, im super ultra brainrotted abt ur agereg fics + im brainrotted abt easterman but im lowkey curious /nf btw
Hello again!! I’m glad you like my age regression stuff, I like yours too!! You make very cute art!
Easterman doesn’t age regress often, and it’s mainly a product of extreme stress and getting overwhelmed with his job or the reagents; it’s hard to have so many responsibilities, so sometimes he just wants to be able to pretend he doesn’t have them for a while. He’s usually too embarrassed to ever age regress in front of someone, so he rarely has a caretaker. He’s mostly shy and quiet when regressed, but he can get whiny if things aren’t going how he wants them too. He likes to have everything a certain way (his toys and his plushies especially) and he can get quite upset if something isn’t going right, or if he misplaces anything. He gets drained of his energy really quickly when regressed, so he takes a lot of little naps between playing. It’s mostly just nice for him to be able to relax, not have to worry about the world, and just be at peace for however long.
this is building off of a previous anons cracky au about the PAs escaping murkoff and going too a diner but what if somehow the PAs were able to hide out in a random house and end up as a sorta fucked found family? I know realistically it wouldn't work out like that but tbh sometimes you gotta suspend your disbelief yknow?
I’m always happy to suspend my disbelief if it means imagining them in a happier environment! I could definitely make a little crack fic about this. It’ll get posted when it’s done!
In a modern AU, is there anything that would be different about how school went for Franco? Obviously it's shit regardless, but I wasn't sure if they'd work with things like his delayed milestones and lack of social skills differently.
There are a lot more programs nowadays to help kids with disabilities, delays, and things of that nature (I should know, I was part of that) so I think it would go at least somewhat better. Kids would still be mean to him, because kids are always going to be cruel to someone who’s different, but I think at least the teachers (for the most part) would generally be nicer. Disabilities are better understood than they used to be, and teachers are more equipped to deal with them. I’d like to think he’d have some help with his social skills and delayed milestones, and he’d overall have a more supportive environment. He still wouldn’t like school, kids would still bully him, but he’d at least have a better chance now.
If Franco had a kid, and it ended up looking like him (and having some of his disabilities) do you feel like he'd struggle with that? Not as in, like, he'd have a problem with the kid, but more so worrying about how they'd grow up considering how his childhood went and properly taking care of them (he doesn't even know how to take care of himself half the time with his own stuff) if that makes any sense?
He’d feel guilty if his kid ended up like him. He’d blame himself, obviously, and feel like it was selfish to even have a kid. He’s struggled so much, he’s been treated so poorly, and he hates the thought of his kid having to go through that. He’d be so overprotective of his kid, and he’d almost shelter them. He wants them to have a better life than the one he had, but he’s not even entirely sure how to give them that. He doesn’t understand a lot of his own disabilities and issues, doesn’t know how to deal with them, and now there’s an added stress of having a kid who’s in the same situation.