stupid lamb.

i love this curse on our house.

[cursedhouse]

give me some tips to forget you ( i tell you my problems ) have i become one of your problems? ( and you tell me the truth )

CURSEDHOUSE, a reimagining of twilight's bella swan focused on unraveling the consequences of deciding on eternity at eighteen & on what it's like to deconstruct the purity culture you grew up in. anti s-meyer. mutuals only & 21+. icon border, psd.

i'm stuck on the new post editor so i would greatly appreciate if y'all could use xkit rewritten & the beta editor to trim posts - if you use legacy xkit / the legacy editor, i'm not able to trim your reply.

LINKS, doc  , prompts  ,  harleen ( temp rules here ) .

[cursedhouse]

tbh the more i think about it the more something i desperately want to explore with bella is the idea of her five-ten-fifteen-twenty years after her transformation and having to unpack having made such a huge decision when she was eighteen years old. bella, older, wiser, sitting back and being like i adore my husband and i adore my daughter and i would not give them up, but i didn't know what i was doing. i didn't know what i was choosing.

i don't think she regrets being a vampire; i don't think she regrets marrying edward. but i also think there has to be some space for "i was a child and i shouldn't have ever been able to make that kind of decision." i think looking back at it she absolutely would wish that she could have experienced normal adult life for a while. college. a job. adult friends. those are all parts of life that she will literally never get to experience, now. and maybe part of it is being a vampire and staring eternity in the face but i think part of it is also just growing up and realizing that life isn't a frantic rush and that you have so much more time than you think.

[cursedhouse]

i've drawn the short end of the stick. no, literally. emmett suggested we draw straws to see who had to deal with what rosalie calls the blonde problem, and i'm the one who came up short. i probably could've pushed it off onto edward, but he and carlisle are too in agreement on this subject ⸺ they think tensions are already high enough to object to wayne's bride. it's not like our family to intrude on another vampire's territory, but we needed a place where we could blend into the background without having to sequester ourselves away, and there's nowhere better than gotham for that. i think we could stay here a hundred years without anyone noticing ; it's the closest we can come to giving nessie a normal childhood. whatever the sacrifice, it'll be worth it for that.

the confidence the rest of the cullens exude still doesn't come entirely naturally to me, so i find myself hovering in @crimefightr's foyer. i know i must be wincing. why did i let emmett talk me into this? right, for my daughter. you can do this, bella.

❛ should i take my shoes off? ❜ oh, i am so incredibly glad nobody in my family was around to hear that one. should i take my shoes off?! i'm here to confront him about his murder-happy wife, and i'm worried about his floors?! i scrunch my face, closing my eyes for just a second. get back on track! ❛ sorry. i have something you might want to see. ❜

a thirty-second clip of grainy cctv footage that clearly shows harleen wayne with her fangs in some cop's throat. the clip jumps ahead, and harleen is gone ⸺ but the body isn't.

❛ you're lucky alice saw this coming. if we hadn't erased the tapes, it would've gone viral. i'm talking ten million views on tiktok, every kid in america's seen it, exposing our kind viral. ❜

[cursedhouse]

⸺ everything that's mine is a landmine / written by octavia.

[annakarenina]

New Moon 2009, dir. Chris Weitz

[cursedhouse]

❛ selina, is that my car? ❜ not that i care, but i'm pretty sure rose'll go straight for my head if she finds out i just let selina walk off with it. drive off with it. you get the point. it's a 2022 aston martin vantage and that's about all i can tell you, except that rosalie and edward have spent hours tinkering with it. oh, and it's silver. almost all of my cars are ⸺ a homage to that little silver volvo edward and i made so many memories in. i do whatever i can to hold onto those, even as they begin to slip away from me.

i mean, my ferrari's red, but of course it is.

i raise an eyebrow at @clawsextended, then click the unlock button on my keys. the car beeps. ❛ that is my car. what, did bruce change the passcode for his garage again? ❜

[cursedhouse]

introductory starter call !!! ♡ this post!

[derangedrhythms]

But this year spring was a spiteful mockery.

Laura Purcell, from ‘The Silent Companions’

[cursedhouse]

tbh in terms of gotham au i'm pretty into the idea of bella just being like. completely normal. and having her lil vampire protector to protect her from gotham nonsense. but also knowing about all the shit that goes on in this city and absolutely hating it. like does bella know that bruce wayne is batman? probably, because edward does. she's exhausted. she doesn't want this knowledge. she doesn't want to be involved.

[cursedhouse]

eventually she will have edward turn her (27? 28? maybe even in her early 30s) and then she will just be this slightly amused / annoyed vampire at all times. bella "batman do your fucking job so i don't have to" cullen

[thoughtcascades]

Please let me experience some romantic crap

[cursedhouse]

tbh in terms of gotham au i'm pretty into the idea of bella just being like. completely normal. and having her lil vampire protector to protect her from gotham nonsense. but also knowing about all the shit that goes on in this city and absolutely hating it. like does bella know that bruce wayne is batman? probably, because edward does. she's exhausted. she doesn't want this knowledge. she doesn't want to be involved.

[shepurrs]

❛ Take it from me--- falling in love is all fun and games. But don't let a guy (or gal!!) become your whole brand. 'Cause it always ends, someway or another. ❜

@cursedhouse ) starter call.

[cursedhouse]

❛ what, him? ❜ i glance over my shoulder, raising an eyebrow at the man trying to stand inconspicuously across the street. he's gonna fucking get it later. our rule is that he can protect me as much as he likes, so long as nobody sees him. ❛ you're joking. no. i'm his brand. don't get it twisted. how'd you like it if i started calling you batlady? ❜

[cursedhouse]

❛ stay. ❜ i resent how teenaged i must sound, fabric of @ruinedover's shirt clenched between my fists. as if i could stop him from leaving if he wanted to. as if anything about me could ever change his mind. my clinging is pointless ⸺ he left me once before. there's nothing to say that i'll wake up with my head on his chest, even if i fall asleep with it there. i'm nothing. inconsequential, insignificant in the span of his eternal life. a passing moment. it's why he won't change me. but i still can't live without him ⸺ and so i'll cling until he tires of me. i press my face against his chest, nose smushing against the rock hard surface. i should be more careful. i shouldn't get so close unannounced. i don't care. i hope he kills me. ❛ i sleep better with you here. edward, please. ❜

[adhighdefinition]

self care is so damn difficult when you… don’t… care… about your own self

[cursedhouse]

tag drop

[cursedhouse]

i think it’s time to teach some lessons.

❛ woah. hold on. i am not who you think i am. ❜ except that i probably am. i'm a cullen only in the way that i've adopted edward like he's a little puppy who's always tangling himself up in my feet. unfortunately for me, that means i'm the easiest member of this family to target. i'm not fast or strong like the rest of them.

speaking of little puppies ⸺ where is he? my vampire protector's made a habit of never leaving my side, even when i so desperately want him to. ( hello, freshman year fling - so sorry we were so rudely interrupted so many times. )

great. i have little choice but to stall. ❛ oh. you must be looking for carlisle, right? he probably got held up at the hospital. do you want some tea while you wait? ❜

[moosings-deactivated20231019]

TAYLOR SWIFT’S MIDNIGHTS *3AM EDITION (2022) ALBUM PROMPTS

ₓ ˚ .   ୭   ˚ ○ ◦ ˚     as always, some triggering content may be present! change any pronouns to better suit your muse(s) needs!     ˚ ◦ ○ ˚   ୧   . ˚ ₓ

all i used to do was pray.

we survived the great war.

we were supposed to be just friends.

karma’s gonna track you down.

i don’t dress for men.

‘cause i care.

i feel you, no matter what.

i told you none of it was accidental.

i vowed i would always be yours.

someone told his white-collar crimes to the fbi.

‘cause it’s all over.

i’m only cryptic and machiavellian.

we were somewhere else.

you handle it beautifully.

let’s dance.

what’s a girl gonna do?

what could’ve been, would’ve been you.

i lost you.

it turned into something bigger.

that’s a real fucking legacy to leave.

do i really have to chart the constellations in his eyes?

you’ve got no reason to be afraid.

did you leave her house in the middle of the night?

i wake up screaming from dreaming.

i’m damned if i do give a damn what people say.

i can’t let this go.

i prefer hiding in plain sight.

i end up in crisis.

my hand was the one you reached for.

checkmate, i couldn’t lose.

you’re talking shit for the hell of it.

every single one of your friends was making fun of you.

draw the cat eye sharp enough to kill a man.

no one wanted to play with me as a little kid.

you would break your back to make me break a smile.

now that i know, i wish you’d left me wondering.

i hosted parties and starved my body.

i vow i will always be yours.

you said i have to trust more freely.

sadness became my whole sky.

it’s just a question.

i’ll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror.

it’s like snow at the beach.

there were pages turned with the bridges burned.

if i was a child, did it matter?

what if i told you i’m a mastermind?

i think it’s time to teach some lessons.

i see you every day now.

i’m the wind in our free-flowing sails.

the system’s breaking down.

i keep my side of the street clean.

the jokes weren’t funny.

did some force take you bеcause i didn’t pray?

somewhere in the haze, got a sense i’d been betrayed.

do you wish you could still touch her?

i remember.

a diamond’s gotta shine.

it’s me, hi.

i will always be yours.

maybe it was her.

you know there’s many different ways that you can kill the one you love.

some guy said my aura’s moonstone.

you wouldn’t know what i mean.

he was sunshine, i was midnight rain.

i don’t dress for villains.

we were born to be the pawn.

you were on something.

i saw something they can’t take away.

you’re on your own, kid.

i wake with your memory over me.

if clarity’s in death, then why won’t this die?

yeah, all you did was smile.

yeah, you can face this.

by the way, i’m going out tonight.

you were bigger than the whole sky.

i saw flecks of what could’ve been lights.

pierced through the heart, but never killed.

you said i was freeloading.

how’d we end up on the floor, anyway?

turns out, it was that guy you hooked up with ages ago.

lately, i’ve been dressing’ for revenge.

my pennies made your crown.

he never thinks of me.

did you see the photos?“

i feel the lavender haze creeping up on me.

do i really have to tell you how he brought me back to life?

i just wanna stay.

ain’t that the way shit always ends?

time can’t stop me quite like you did.

i think i’ve been too good of a girl.

did all the extra credit, then got graded on a curve.

i really thought i’d lost you.

saw a wide smirk on your face.

life is emotionally abusive.

don’t get sad, get even.

god rest my soul.

i broke his heart ‘cause he was nice.

i miss you.

i’m on my vigilante shit again.

you’re a crisis of my faith.

seemed like the right thing at the time.

you might have to wait in line.

i could still say, “i don’t remember”.

you should be doing more.

i have this thing where i get older, but just never wiser.

i didn’t choose this town, i dream of getting out.

i just may like some explanations.

i just may like to have a conversation.

they said the end is coming.

we can plant a memory garden.

one day, i’ll watch as you’re leaving.

best believe i’m still bejeweled.

life will lose all its meaning.

we lost track of time again.

it’s okay, we’re the best of friends.

i’d go back to wanting dudes who give nothing.

i think there’s been a glitch.

i’m not even sorry.

you know how scared i am of elevators.

sometimes i wonder which one’ll be your last lie.

i was taken by the view.

karma’s a relaxing thought.

can i ask you a question?

it’s fine to fake it 'til you make it.

it must be counterfeit.

i’m unglued, thanks to you.

maybe it was egos swinging.

that’s nice, i’m sure that’s what’s suitable.

she’s laughing up at us from hell.

you should find another.

he wanted it comfortable, i wanted that pain.

i can still make the whole place shimmer.

diesel is desire, you were playing with fire.

this is the first time i’ve felt the need to confess.

no one sees when you lose when you’re playing solitaire.

'cause i’m a mastermind.

they’re bringing up my history.

you don’t ever say too much.

now that i’m grown, i’m scared of ghosts.

i could’ve gone on as i was.

putting someone first only works when you’re in their top five.

i’ve never seen someone lit from within.

i don’t dress for friends.

there’s no morning glory, it was war, it wasn’t fair.

i play it cool with the best of them.

sit quiet by my side in the shade.

never trust it if it rises fast.

i touch my phone as if it’s your face.

addicted to betrayal, but you’re relevant.

i chose you.

i never think of him.

this happens all the time.

you got tired of my scheming.

i knew i wanted your body.

but for him, it’s every day.

it might just have been you.

she needed cold, hard proof, so i gave her some.

i fight with you in my sleep.

i don’t remember who i was.

ladies know what people want.

ladies always rise above.

that means you did it right.

you don’t have to answer.

i think i’ve been a little too kind.

i’m so in love that i might stop breathing.

i gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this.

everything you lose is a step you take.

maybe it’s the past that’s talking.

get it off your chest.

all the stars aligned.

it can’t last.

we almost forgot it.

it only hurts this much right now.

i’ve got a lot to pine about.

did you hear my covert narcissism i disguise as altruism?

pick somewhere and just run.

i vowed not to fight anymore.

the wound won’t close.

i’ve got a lot to live without.

make sure you don’t miss.

you and i ended up in the same room.

i picked the petals, he loves me not.

meet me at midnight.

ask me what i learned from all those years.

i swear that it was something.

all the outfits were terrible.

it must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero.

i’ll be gettin’ over you my whole life.

it’s all over now, all out to sea.

i’d pay if you’d just know me.

no deal.

i waited ages to see you there.

i regret you all the time.

all that you ever wanted from me was nothing.

i made you my world, have you heard?

now you’re mine.

every single thing i touch becomes sick with sadness.

i don’t even dare to wish it.

to you, i can admit that i’m just too soft for all of it.

that was the night i nearly lost you.

i’m the problem, it’s me.

i thought the plane was going down.

every single thing to come has turned into ashes.

so i justified it.

i wrote a poem.

we will never go back.

you tried to erase us.

tonight feels impossible.

i have this dream my daughter-in-law kills me for the money.

you wouldn’t take my word for it if you knew who was talking.

he was sunshine, i was midnight rain.

aren’t you envious that for you it’s not?

give me back my girlhood, it was mine first.

i bent the truth too far tonight.

my town was a wasteland.

you were more than just a short time.

you should find another.

she looks so pretty.

he wanted a bride, i was making my own name.

they said the end is coming.

can this be a real thing?

did you wish you’d put up more of a fight?

i took the money.

if you never touched me, i would’ve.

i should not be left to my own devices.

the god’s honest truth is that the pain was heaven.

you knew the entire time.

i find myself running home to your sweet nothings.

i damn sure never would’ve danced with the devil.

never take advice from someone who’s falling apart.

i polish up nice.

you can try to change my mind.

my friends from home don’t know what to say.

you don’t live in my part of town, but maybe i’ll see you out some weekend.

she thinks i left them in the will.

you made me feel important.

i wanna brainwash you.

i’m a monster on the hill.

i’m falling in love again.

i’ll run away.

don’t put mе in the basement.

me and karma vibe like that.

i miss who i used to be.

midnights become my afternoons.

get it off my desk.

picture me, thick as thieves, with your ex-wife.

i keep on waiting for a sign.

i don’t dress for women.

memories feel like weapons.

i’m fastening myself to you with a stitch.

i been under scrutiny.

then what did you do?

we had one thing going on.

my flight was awful, thanks for asking.

i find it dizzying.

all of me changed like midnight.

you weren’t even listening.

what could’ve been, would’ve been.

she was on your mind with some dickhead guy.

everybody just expects me to bounce back.

it’s coming back around.

i’ve been scheming like a criminal ever since.

i spy with my little tired eye..

do you really wanna know where i was april 29th?

i don’t start shit, but i can tell you how it ends.

i thought we had no chance.

ask me what i earned from all those tears.

i hear it in your voice, you’re smoking with your boys.

all this shit is new to me.

you knew that i’m a mastermind.

had to do it this way.

if i’d only played it safe.

romance is not dead if you keep it just yours.

it only feels this raw right now.

nothing was gonna stop me.

was what i was thinking the whole time?

i can’t speak, afraid to jinx it.

they say looks can kill and i might try.

you did some bad things, but i’m the worst of them.

do i really have to chart the constellations in his eyes?

it’s never enough.

but for some, it was paradise.

i didn’t know you were keeping count.

everyone’s up to something.

there’s many different ways that you can kill the one you love.

i vowed not to cry anymore.

what if i told you none of it was accidental?

how the hell did we lose sight of us again?

it was one drink after another.

i would’ve stayed on my knees.

don’t you know that cash ain’t the only price?

big city, wrong choices.

living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts.

it’s not meant to be.