Its been a litfor over a year, and although I am not exactly where I want to be, I can proudly say I havent touched the devils drug since being in the 🌞 state... I still have a lot of growng up to do and a lot of soul searching, I just hope the ones I love and would do anything for, haven't gave up . Because sadly I'll admit, as selfish as I seem, I truly do more things and put more thought into other ppl than I do myself; which I know isn't right, but like I tell dad is rather be broke and see him happy than have money and see him down, because seeing the ones I ❤ care for happy is what makes me happy. So if your not happy, regardless of the amount of money you own, if your not happy at the end of the day, then that money means nothing! I've had some rough times here in Florida, and learned a lot of life lessons, sadly and like always the hard way... I just hope that regardless of my past mistakes or mishaps, that the ones who truly know me, know that I never have bad intentions and. Am remorseful for all the faults throughout my life. I just feel like a lot of people have gave up on me, and ive always tried to see their side, and I know they're in the thinking stage "show me". But regardless of not touching the herion, I'm still struggling, and like I put in a previous post, "love me when I least deserve it because that is when I really need it" I guess I dont really known the point of this post, I have a lot of growing up to do, and I'm the last person to want to rely on someone or ask for help! I truthfully dont want to go back to Indiana, but, I'm at a stand still, and have tried to reach out. Life's expensive here, although I haven't had a job, ive made a lot more money than ppl tnink, just off apps on my phone, enough to pay for my doctors appts, and meds. I know it's selfish to pray only at certain times, but, if you think about it what is prayer anyways? Saying thanks and trying to cry or reach out for the things your struggling through in life. So as I sit here and ask myself and ask the great man above, I need a helping ✋, whether it be a prayer or even just putting a little bit of hope and positivity into thinking I can do it. Because i need it...🙏 (at Orlando, Florida)
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