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i haven’t met all of me yet : 23 : make art : she/her

[anxietyproblem]

[eflor]

[meizhun]

[everythingfox]

Ducks walking on a cold glass roof

(via)

[peachysuggest]

you are not unloveable just because people have treated you poorly

[1-800kanye]

u know whats wild. everyone on here like 20 and when i first joined everyone was like 14 15. u ask anybody n they been here for years. nobody new on here. staff locked the doors n were all Stuck Inside

[lupinelolita]

Tag your current age and how old you were when you joined Tumblr

[wetheurban]

instagram.com/wetheurban

[74mg]

[thegarnet]

remember when fyre fest happened like a year or so ago and there was this article where the attendees complained about how shitty it was but there was this one middle class dude who won a ticket through like a lottery or something and had the time of his life because rich people suffering is great. i hope y’all remember it is today’s mood

[thegarnet]

god i AM josh.

[body5000-deactivated20180929]

the smell of sleeping with the window open

[daddyfuckedme]

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”

— (via minuty)

[honigimohr]

“if this body weren’t mine would i still hate it?”

— And So It Goes // 3:58am (via beprose)

[not-a-space-alien]

Does anyone else feel, like, a weird inhibition against starting new TV shows?  Like, there are shows I want to watch but when I think about sitting down to start it something in me goes “no you can’t just do that.”  What am i waiting for?  I feel like I need to prepare?  Brain:  You have to wait.  Me:  Wait for what???  Brain:  WAIT

[yourrealitybeyondtime]

I found out recently that it’s due to not having enough emotional or mental space to process something new. Got too much going on in your own head/real life already.

[unreal-mess]

meeting someone you can be yourself around and vibe with is the best feeling ever.

[lovemakesyouwonder]

[extramadness]

[creatingnikki]

Things I really need to stop doing

Recommending things to people - books, movies, kdramas, music - unless they come and ask me on their own. I can get too passionate about these things because I want them to feel all the joy and strength and whatever else I felt but to people it may seem like pushy or annoying. And honestly, I’m just doing it for them anyway and if they won’t appreciate it I can let my favourite things be mine in my own universe rather than extending them to people who don’t care. And they don’t have to care either. 

Telling people I love them when I don’t even know them. Because that’s not love but something very momentarily and passing. Aren’t you tired of telling people you love them just because they tell you they do? Or because you have been having all these conversations that mean so much to you that you think this must be love? Love runs nowhere. So you can take your time in getting to really know a person and even take years to tell that to them. Oh, and can I let you in on a secret? You can enjoy a person’s company, care about them and like them but you don’t have to love them. You really don’t have to. Even if you’ve known them for 6 years. 

Talking to people about the time I was sexually abused as a teenager. I know lately, it’s been this sort of an emotional test. If I feel a certain way about them I feel like if I can share this with them then I will feel closer to them. But that’s twisted. It only leaves you feeling sad and weak and broken. Often these people don’t know what to say or do and I guess sometimes you hope they do because even you don’t know yet. Maybe one day you will write the truth. And either perform it as spoken word or publish it for the world to see. This isn’t silencing yourself. Oh not in the least. But it’s just protecting your sanity and strength. 

Letting people manipulate you using “mental health” as an excuse for their shitty behaviour. If the narrative is always about them - I don’t feel good, I wasn’t in the right space, I feel hurt, I need this from you, I don’t like this - and never about you then no matter how sweetly they talk or how many birthdays you’ve spent together - they are undeniably selfish people whose narcissism will get the better of them at some point and you don’t need to stick around to let it get the better of you too. People can be master manipulators without even knowing it sometimes. 

Not walking away. Your dear, dear friend calls you the “leavee” because you never leave. You wait for people to leave because you can’t bear to be that person. But what the fuck? If a person is inviting you to a burning house, you don’t enter. You run the other way and never look back. Sure, you can once ask them to leave with you - try to fix things - but if they insist upon living in that burning house you let them. They are not your responsibility.