Okay we're already in 2014 so i already fucked this up. But I just wanted to write a little about 2013 cause it was a good year. Like a really good year for me, although it ended kinda sucky with my grandfather's death. But besides that, I really have nothing to complain about, although there has been a lot of change and transition. I'm in a very different place than I was last year. But still making that minimum wage though, god bless.
This is what I wrote I wanted to happen last year:
i am going to graduate (ahhhhhhhh!) so i want to get a full time job. i want to find someone i like and fuck them. i want to be healthier and happier and all that jazz. i want to keep drinking and tweeting.
heres to all good things in 2013. wishing my family and myself better days. more good times with my friends. enjoying my last semester of college. exploring myself and others and this beautiful city i live in.
So you know what, I accomplished all of those things so fuck yes (healthy maybe not lol although I did join a gym but have gotten way sidetracked with that. so im gonna work harder on that this year).
But yeah, I just had a good fucking year. Here are some good things that happened:
- I traveled to Buenos Aires, Edinburgh, New Orleans, and Mexico. No fucking complaints there, had a blast in all of them.
- My sister got married and I got to be the hot mess express maid of honor I always wanted to be. And the wedding was a total blast, Get Low dancing included.
- I got a puppy! A puppy!!! If you had told me I was getting a puppy this year in 2012, I would have lol'd (and cried...lots of crying). This was totally unexpected and I still can't believe my dad broke down and said okay after 22 years. He is one of the best things to ever happen to me and I love him so much. He has really brightened my life in many ways. The first couple months were really rough and it took a lot of patience and energy but now we have settled into a routine and he's just amazing (even if he shits on the rug a lot).
- I graduated college. I got gud grades and I had gud times. No really though, I can't believe I graduated and its over. I had such an amazing college experience - mainly due to the friends I made and the times we shared. I'll never forget the night we got so drunk and just held hands and talked about how much we loved each other lol. So many good times at Brookdale with my girls. We made the most of our last semester and I miss it all the time. But I walked out with some really good friends who really opened my eyes to so many new perspectives. I learned so much from the people I met (and I got to be a much better poet on the school side of things from all the great teachers I had)
- I left my internship at JRA and got a full time job with OEM through civic corps. I spent three years at JRA and after they said they didn't have space for me, I knew it was time to leave and try something else. I never heard back from the 20 or so publishing houses I applied to (which sucked) but I did hear back from civic corps and now I'm doing that until July. I never would have guessed I'd do a year of service but I applied on a whim and then they were the only people who got back to me (lol to the economy and trying to find a job). So I make fucking terrible money butttt I have a pretty lenient ass job where I can come in late, listen to music while I 'work', and leave early. And it hasn't bitten me in the ass yet, thanks be to god. I love my boss (2014 goal: be her best friend) and I like working at OEM. It's interesting to be involved with the community and I've traveled to all parts of the city I've never been, which is good. And I work in the prettiest part of Brooklyn and even though I bitch about the hour commute, it's not too shabby to see the Brooklyn and Manhattan Bridge every day.
- Friendships. I've gotten a lot closer to some of my friends and I really feel like I have a support network, which is a nice feeling. On the other hand, some of my close relationships are really hurting. I don't know if I can fix them, but its something I want to work on, or move on from.
- Lucy passed away and I got a new phone. It took over seven years, but Lucy finally left me for a better place. She was really special to me and I really grew up with her but I guess it was her time. It was also really great how many people showed up to her memorial and the fun I had that night.
- I finally used my dorm room. It took me almost to the last possible second, but I did it. I had some nights I will never forget and I'll be forever grateful for that. The v card dun flew away, fittingly the night before graduation. I'm happy and at peace with my decision, and I only look back fondly. Nevah forget. Special thanks to Dorothy, I was treated well. Especially that night I went to bed as the sun came up, a naked dude in my bed and a smile on my face. I am tearing up ova here.
- I was bolder than I ever was (which is still not that bold but im trying!). And trying means the good with the bad. The good: meeting a good guy who fulfilled the role I envisioned. The bad: Scary day in the Bronx. Special shout out to J-Dog for not having the catfish creeper kill me.
- All the good concerts I went to, especially HDTA, NIN, and Sleigh Bells. Good year for music.
- Having my own room for the first time in my life. And although its still in flux, I cleaned it a lot and now I can do some self loving more openly. So, thanks room
- RIP to my dziadzi. I am glad he got to meet Dewey because he really liked him. I will always remember the strong grip of his handshake and the twinkle in his eye. I don't have any grandparents anymore, but I was blessed to have really good ones.
Okay I can't remember anything else but this was a good year! I am praying for the same good vibes to carry over into 2014.
I don't normally make resolutions but these are some things I want to do in 2014:
- Go to the gym consistently again
- Don't drink until I get sick as much (i am trying to be realistic here)
- WRITE MORE. do it, lu, do it!
- Travel after civic corps is done.
- Make the most out of this job. Try harder. Reach out more.
- Find another full time job in the nonprofit sector or in publishing after August.
- Love myself more. Remember I am beautiful and that other people think so to.
Here's to a great 2014. Be smart, be safe, be sexy.
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